6th day

omg..it's only the 6th day and i'm going nuts!!!! i wonder if it's the same feeling if smone else is away. gosh. hw am i going to survive another.................12 freaking days!?!?!?!?!?omgomgomg. so gonna die and of cuz..frank will be happy..cuz he can make fun of me! @&$@*#*

anyway...merry xmas to all..had a real gd time at the party on sat! we were ALL dressed up to match the theme. yes i mean ALL! even rong mei and mich!! they came as presents!!! omg..it was hilarious and i laughed till i had asthma attack and had to use the inhaler when i got hm! hahaha..insanity. we had lotsa food. turkey, pizza, macaroni cheese,potato salad coleslaw! we even had Tang Yuan made by Matt's mummy! hmm...nice...and i had a small Forever friends mirror with tiny drawers from Lionel the rubber man aka plain ginger bread man. here are some pics of our crazy time to share.







hmm..i wish nx yr's party will be a wilder one..maybe we can include our external friends or colleagues to join in the fun! i believe it'll be wilder!!!

nx up! new yr!!!!

I wan a Mistletoe!!!!

Mistletoe is also said to be a sexual symbol, because of the consistency and color of the berry juice as well as the belief that it is an aphrodisiac, the “soul” of the oak from which it grows. The origin of the tradition of kissing under the mistletoe is vague. However, the tradition may have stemmed from either the Viking association of the plant with Frigga (the goddess of love) or from the ancient belief that mistletoe was related to fertility. Another explanation for the tradition is that it is derived from the festival of Saturnalia, a popular mid-December celebration in ancient Rome

The correct mistletoe etiquette is for the man to remove one berry when he kisses a woman. When all the berries are gone, there's no more kissing permitted underneath that plant.
One legend states that a couple who kisses underneath mistletoe will have good luck, but a couple neglecting to perform the ritual will have bad luck. Specifically, it is believed that a couple kissing under the mistletoe ensure themselves of marriage and a long, happy life, while an unmarried woman not kissed under the mistletoe will remain single for another year.

Maidens may place a sprig of the plant under their pillow at night in the same manner a child places his or her lost tooth in anticipation of a visit from the Tooth Fairy. Instead of exchanging teeth for money, however, the sprig of Mistletoe allows women to dream of their Prince Charming. Burning a mistletoe plant is also thought to foretell a woman’s marital bliss, or lack thereof. A mistletoe that burns steadily prophesies a healthy marriage, while fickle flames may doom a woman to an ill-suited partner.

While mistletoe is widely viewed as a symbol of love and fertility, it's also representative of peace. Ancient tales tell of enemies who encounter each other underneath trees bearing mistletoe. The enemies lay down their arms, embrace, and agree to a truce until the next day [source: Perry]. This act of goodwill is yet another possibility for why we kiss under mistletoe: abstaining from violence and exchanging greetings under the plant may have prompted the custom of kissing.

first event coming up

alright...finally the first event is coming up..my first DnD with AIA. had wanted to dress up as Princess Lia but dreams were dashed when they announced the theme for callcentre. SHREK!! my gosh..the only character is snow white as her gown as compared to Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty is more prominent. Went to the No.1 Costume Shop at Arab street and found the gown buttttttt....it's so ugly!~!! take a look nw...

and to add, the costume doesn't look really clean. Though the staff there mentioned it'll be cleaned before collection, i still had doubts abt it. it cost more than 60bucks for rental and we had decided to drop the idea to dress up. Moreover, the folks sitting with me do not wish to dress up as they think they're way too old for that. ok, fun is gone but i hope on the night itself, things will be different. I'm just going to dress OUT and UP wearing my new boots! hehe..

ok...been attending Jap Classes but sadly it's difficult to master as the teacher aint really good at teaching. Here are some of the sentences i can remember.

- Watashiwa Joyce desu -> I am Joyce.

- Singapore kara ki mashita -> I come from Singapore

- Watashiwa Kaishain -> I am an employee of a company

- Watashiwa ni jun yon sai -> I am 24 years old.
-Toire wa doko desu ka? -> Where is the toilet?

ok i know it's pathetic but practice is very impt in order to master it.

went to ktv after class with sis and her friend veron. and went to walk ard in orchard after that. The traffic was so bad and it was packed almost everywhere. and yes, sis's car is finally here. sitting in the rear seat was great esp when u can stare out of the moonroof and look at the decorations in orchard. NICE. it's sporty smooth and the engine is quite silent.wait until i get a chance to drive it and i shall comment more on its performance. here are more pics to share.

memorable indeed

ok frank...for u la huh...

ok...why it is memorable? cuz i had a 'date' with Mr AJ!!!! yes..he asked for my companion today after work...first to the goldsmith to ask for the price of selling his gold chain and bracelet then to sengkang to modify his Iphone and then had dinner at compasspoint then took a bus back to tamp. ok it's kinda sweet that i'm the lucky one tonight..cuz apparently he could have asked anyone else..at first he did not know hw to get to sengkang..but thinking abt it...we took a cab..he could have just went on his own and get any of his mates. ahahahaha....ok i wont think too much...i'll just remember this day... =) *peace*

hectic week as usual..bedtime seem to be set at 930pm..old woman...worse than my mummy..

alright..i can smell christmas..wats for my present?!?!?! hahaha and yes i bought my boots....gonna wear it to DnD nx fri...so frank..u can save yr money on tt and buy mi smthing else....hahahahahah

ok la.........shall cut it short...getting really lazy to update...zzzzzz

insanity strikes

this is a tuesday but it's worse than a monday. basically..5 staff down..it's fine...but the lunch was reduced to 30mins!!! nearly puked after eating noodles...it was so rush and the food couldnt even digest! gosh.....i kinda tot of killing those who took mcs but then again..such things are inevitable la...i mean..we r human afterall..we do fall sick though..but i just cant believe in the coincidence!!

alright..mr aj has got his iphone bought from the phil and he brought it to work even though batt is running out just to show the world...haha...gosh...and i even had to use tissue paper to hold the phone to prevent fingerprints from staining his phone...idiot......

mr loi is now in reservist.......i think he'll only read this like nx wk la...i bet he's enjoying himself in camp...hahahah

well...sad to hear that matt's dad's hospitalised again....pray he'll get well soon...

and yes..matt is enjoying himself at Linkin Park concert right nw..smthing he'd been waiting for...

ok...i dunno wat to type anymore....it's just a crazy day...............

it's the time of the year again

gonna write abit abt the upcoming events..here it goes

1) *rain rain go away, come again another day*~~...it's been raining these few days...i really dread it cuz it's freaking cold in the morning when i have to get up and bathe...and......i'll just want to slp more...HATE IT! cuz i'm dearly terrified of cold...and when it's time for lunch....u're kinda stranded cuz u cant go far...but it's nice in another way...you'll be cool and wont perspire...means...you wont smell, you wont be sticky chewy after perspiring...and can save electricity..i may nt even need the fan...ok i'm extreme..really cant endure cold temperature..

2)*linglingling* company's DnD's coming. will be held at Ritz Carlton!! and theme will be Fantasy!! I've decided to dress up as Princess Lia in Star Wars!!! hmm...or maybe sailor moon...or maybe....................................ARGH...cannot freaking make up my mind!

3) *dingdongbell*~~i can smell christmas!!!!! hahaha..yes i know it's still a long way more to go but i just cant wait ok!! all the xmas shopping and lightings and music...so exciting!! ok..i'm acting like a 3yr old gal again......wats new anyway right?

4) *party poppers*~~2mths left to get ready yr new yr resolutions!!!! be sure to fulfil them this year huh!!! hahah it's tough i know....i hardly managed as well..haha

5) *gongxi gongxi*~~~4mths to CNY!!!! wooOoooOoHoOooo...all the shopping, new clothes, new shoes, food and mahjong!!!!!! i'm getting excited alrdy!!!!keke...

6) *happy bday to uuuuuu*~~ damn..getting old in another 6mths!!!!! ARGHHHH i'll be 25!!! SHIT!! Mid 20s and no bf!!!!!!!!! OMG..i'm doomed!!!!!nvm...more shoes to make mi happy then...

alright...seem like alot is abt shopping huh........................frank....now tt i've updated just for u.......are u going to do smthing for mi?hahahahhahaha...........time for pedicure and manicure........but sadly...u're going for reservist!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH

what's wrong with my brain?

been having this headache for a week. finally went to see the doctor this afternoon and returned home from work at 2pm. doc said it's caused by my sinus. until now..i dont feel good. i'm still feeling light headed. nauseous. and the experience with the doctor at eunos is kinda shaky. she'll actually reprimand u! saying things like 'why did u go to work in the first place when u know u are sick?' 'why did you only see a doctor after feeling sick for a few days?!!' and the funny thing is..she ended the consultation by saying 'hey i dont mean to pick a fight with u but nx time come and see me once u r sick, dont delay.' haha..kinda nice la..it's a whole new different experience.

mickey the dog came over to my place yesterday and will be staying with us for a wk while the owner is away in taiwan. he's actually sis's colleagues dog. he's tame, trained to poo in the toilet and loves to play with his bone. really adorable.took care of him once before a couple of yrs back and now he's old..u can tell from his discoloured fur. but nonetheless, he's still very hyper. just came back from a walk with him. now...this is really the kind of life i want. been able to have a slow walk with my dog and have some peaceful time.

red bomb alert on the 11th nx mth!!! my ops manager's getting married and i'll have to attend the dinner. but i guess it's gonna be fun cuz will be attending it with other colleagues. it wont be like the typical family kind of wedding dinners which are boring!!!

hmm..wanna take leave in jan...anyone out for a short trip???can do some chinese new yr shopping!!! bangkok anyone????

oh where oh where can my baby be?

hahaha wat a lame title i have here huh..anyway just a short recap of wat happened for the past few days.

went back to work on thursday after a short rest away from the office. gosh it was heaven. i wish i can have this more often. some time to rest my mind and body as working in AIA definitely caused lotsa stress and my body is drained! adding on to it, pimples are popping happily!! disfiguring me!

went to st james, boiler room on sat with frank and his two friends and jasmine and ailin. been soooooo long since i last seen the girls. definitely a chance for us to catch up and of course, more catching ups to do! it was a great nite though, with different crowd and a different kind of fun. noone to force glasses of alcohol down my throat by the usual peeps. need a short break away from that. but then again...i think it wont be that short either. had supper at siglap at one of the hong kong cafes with frank and his two friends, eric and grace. nice ppl. and of cuz VERY nice car of eric's!! kinda regret not having a picture taken though. FRANK, I WANT A PIC!!!!! pls..........hahaha!!

got home at abt 4 and had to wake up at 930 this morning! gosh..i'm now feeling drained once again...wat kinda lifestyle i have here...shaun n matt came over for a game of mahjong and we played nintendo WII as well..omg...it's really fun....kinda feel like psychoing sis and bro to share funds to get one! hahahah...but i think we'll just be excited abt it for a short while...we'll get sick of it sooner or later...soooo...just play with shaun's lah....

hmm..i guess thats about all..i kinda feel my blog is lacking something..it's getting dull......wat should i do...................................hmmmmm.....

light headed me

Here I am..sitting alone at starbucks in simei..wait a min..i’m not alone..i’m actually sharing a table with a stranger..haha…he’s not cute though..opps..just went to the hospital to visit dear mr kiwi..yes he is admitted again and again..dunno wassup with him..some brain problem I guess..hahah kidding…

Alright..i was too bored at home..was on leave for the last two days after the trip..dont wanna stay home so had decided to drop by at starbucks and use my laptop and enjoy my caramel frap…received many calls demanding for meet ups but I just don’t have the mood to do tt..smtimes it’s just so nice and calming to be alone..without any distractions or disturbances to clear my mind…

Caught The Nanny Diaries last night, a typical teenage movie I can say. Nth fantastic and not really worth the price to watch in a cinema. Though it’s free but I felt the money could have been used to watch Resident Evil instead. Well, payor gets to decide. am now surfing Coach webby too. Cant wait to be able to get a bag for myself. Since the US$ is now dropping tremendously, I think online shopping will be so much worth it. So guys, go get shop till u drop before the exchange rate rises again!

Smtimes I feel talking too much or too clearly to smone is of no use. It’s either the other party filters wat he wants to perceive or maybe he does not understand my English. But I feel I speak really simple English that everyone can understand. How on earth can I really get the message across? I’m lost for words actually and had totally ran out of idea. Where on earth is my cape crusader?? Where art thou?

Gosh, I am having a headache now. Must be the caffeine from the drink. Oh well..when I was at the hospital just now, I kinda feel realllly down. I feel life is so fragile. Kiwi’s bed was surrounded by old men who looks really weak and they looked as though God is soon bringing them away. All of them were dependant on drips and oxygen. I think I shd really refrain from going to the hospital for awhile. So pls friends..take care of yr health esp Mr Kiwi!!!! Stop making me go to the hospital!!

Ok..the stranger is moving to another table cuz his friend is here..too bad..i’m not leaving yet and this table is too small to hold 3 ppl…

Sigh..i tot I will be able to have a chance to go to Manila with sis in november. But the leave slots are fully booked by frank who will be on reservist and Melvin for his medical check/operation. Nvm..next time then.

Ok tts all…feel kinda light headed now…perhaps it’s time to head home……

tioman girl is back!~

ok tt's a new nick i had from dear Mr AJ. wellwell..the trip was great. got to know two new friends from there! alright, here's a short summary of the trip. first day was free at leisure. so matt and i went to start the day by walking ard the island and finding a nice spot for a swim and tan. the waters there is totally clear. we can see fishes swimming ard and of cuz the weather was great! we went snorkelling the second day and it was better!! more fishes!! but poor matt got kinda sick...opps...haha...we went to a shop which is duty free!! matt bought a bottle of red wine and johnnie walker! i bought a bombay sapphire, a mini one as a gift. i smuggled it back by keeping it with my toiletries...hahah...and guess wat..we found a little froggy in the toilet! and oh yes..food which was provided in the package SUCKS!!! gosh..i fed most of my share to the cats there. and the most fantastic thing is...i brought rashes back with me!!!!! i'm now dying of itch!!!!!! ARGHHHHHH...okok...share sm pics here...




the froggy which did not turn into a prince cuz i din kiss it
and the fishes at marine park! huge ones!


the new friends we made and pissed off cuz waited for the ferry for so long!

the countdown

WoooOooHoooOooo...counting down to my trip to Tioman on the 6th with matt!!!! omg..it's a holiday i've been longing for!! i need a god-damn break!! after slogging in AIA for 6mths..i've finally had this chance for short getaway! have been praying for good weather so we'll be able to snorkel, tan, swim and of cuz...take tons and tons of pics!!!!!!ahhahahaah..not going to miss out this chance!! hmm..though i hoped my sis and bro and be there as well..but sis's health is more impt yar...we'll have another chance to go holiday tog..no worries abt tt!

hmm..how's work..it's been fine..coping well...though complaining alot as well..but complaining is part of life la...it's a way to vent frustration..rather than to endure every little hiccups and blow up when cannot take it anymore..it's gonna get worse....hmm..gonna sign my confirmation and conversion letter at HR tmr...then gonna meet matt to shop for some holiday stuff..like maybe a new pair of beach shorts, tees and toiletries....hmm..hahah spending a bomb even b4 travelling..how nice...

ooo..forgot...went to JB on sat with my colleagues..went to Jusco, had my toenails done! nice!! and ate alot...had yong tau foo for lunch, starbucks coffee,donuts and 6 dishes for dinner..how nice...of cuz..our boss tt night is Mr Melvin...hahahh...free dinner!!!!keke..it was fun but tiring though and the weather in the afternoon was a killer. couldnt even speak a word in the car on the way to jusco as melvin totally blocked out the aircon and with the sun shining in..i literally felt breathless and suffocated...thank God the jam wasnt bearable..and i felt like i was in heaven the moment i got out of the car.of cuz i wouldnt miss out on the pics..lazy to upload..will do it nx time...

now i am thinking of wat to get for the folks at work..i dun wanna just get the souvenirs from tioman..it'll be boring...gotta think of smthing creative! hmm........................

harlor harlor

harlor harlor!! anyone there?

anyway...taking the chance to wish Mr Shafie an advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! stay sexy yeah!!! hahahaha

wow..week after week..days after days..it's alrdy coming to Oct soon..went to chinatown with matt this afternoon to book for our trip..suddenly rem the last time we went to chinatown..it was during CNY...gosh we realised how fast time flies and it's coming to christmas in another 2mths plus!!! now..this means smthing else...i'm getting old!!!! omg..i'm going to be 25 soon!!!!! and the best thing is...my preferred age to get married, which is 27, is just another 2yrs plus!!! omg...it's gone..hope is dashed for sure...how am i supposed to find myself a husband within this short period of time??sobz..i dun wanna end up being eligible to purchase a flat!!! this means....i dun wanna remain single and unwanted even at the age of 35!!!! thinking about it just scares me..

*burp* damn..aint feeling well...dont know what the hell i ate today that caused me to feel sick and nauseous..everytime i burp, i can feel that my stomach is oily!! maybe too much chili in my Kolo Mee this afternoon...and i actually forced myself to puke just now...now i am feeling so much better.

finally booked for our trip to tioman...1st wish is to have the confirmation fromthe agency. 2nd wish is for monsoon to be delayed so the trip wont be cancelled if not i might just have to make do with Sentosa...and now..thats very idiotic...soooo...i'll just pray for the best......

and yeah...tuesday is mooncake festival..and i havent bought my mooncake yet!!!!!! ARGHHHH...gonna plan for an outing this coming sat to Chinese Garden...boys..if you guys happen to read this..try to make yrselves free ok...miss you boys....

ok..ending here..i think i'm going to disappear for another wk again...ciao...

yesterday once more

16th of September, the day i met you 3 yrs ago. It also almost a yr since i last spoke to you.i wonder if you remembered this day. I bet you do but it hurts. i do miss you but it has to be the past.

17th of september, the day i decided to be with you one yr ago. We'll always be the best of pals. You're well, the least i hoped for. I'm glad we still have this priceless friendship.

Mr AJ, i hope you wouldnt continue to think of the things you had been thinking abt. It's nothing and i hope you'll believe in it. Though on the outside things may not seem the way i assured you but it's the truth. Pls believe me. I'm dying inside. It's just you..all that i longed for. But it's going in the wrong direction, can i turn it the right way?

i hope life will now change for me. I've decided to attend church regularly with matt. God is slowly showing me the peace i need and blessing me with the patience. I hope i'll be able to lead a better life nw. i pray.

a msg for you ppl regardless of religion.always pray for the serenity to accept the things we cannot change; courage to change the things we can; and wisdom to know the difference and that we will be able to accept hardships as the pathway to peace.

* the font is in yr fav colour Mr AJ.

wrong!

this is toally insane and utterly wrong!!!!!! i know it but i cant stop it!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!???

a msg for milo - no waiting game is unworthy. you'll get the ultimate results you always hoped for if u believe in it.

a msg for myself - gosh, you are actually advising smone when u yrself had gone hopeless.

a msg for you who's talking to me - oh shut up!

crap!

forgiveness

milo asked mi this question. is it really very easy to forgive smone i like/love if he had done smthing to hurt me by just seeking forgiveness and atone to his mistake but doing smthing to touch my heart. i replied yes. for me..the infatuation will remain for life even if the person is no longer within yr reach or sight which explains why you can forgive that easily.

past few days had been slightly insane. cant divulge much info but apparently..hp's been ringing at least 10 times a day excluding smses. and its from the same person. i dunno wat to say anymore..but i do not want to misterpret his actions as well. though i hope it's from another person, i noe it's highly impossible. shant talk abt it. it's complicated.

sat- went caline's hse for mini gathering. had hightea, lots of cakes, muffins and bread. had a game of monopoly. went to catch a soccer match with matt lionel and melvin. boring man u match though but lucky they won. fell aslp during the 15mins half time break.

sun-boring sun, woke up only at 1plus. surfed net then went to see cars with sis. finally made up her mind!!! got a honda airwave. nice car. the car dealer actually added many freebies..good deal!!! i wanna drive it soon!!!!!hahahaha some pics to share here~

MU become UM..

spongebob monopoly and the gang

three duhring man who lost their way and the delicious confectionaries!

you are one rich man!

if you can get a dollar for every single bullshit that comes out your mouth, you would be the world's richest man - this line is courtesy of milo, helping to replace a huge chunk of words i had typed prior to this but i guess after much persuasion and thinking, i shouldnt stoop so low and use such unclassy words. so this is for you, Mr Richie aka Mr Wealthy aka Mr Horny..(opps)!

i really really hope and pray that the innocent and kind hearted victim will learn his lesson from this incident and really realise wat friendship is all abt. i'm nt trying to sow discord here but it's smthing noone can tolerate. it's too much and too extreme. enough advantage had been taken of you my friend. so pls...see for yrself..this world is cruel but dun let cruelty hit u!

oh no it's sunday again

25aug07: met shaun at 1130, headed down to matt's place to have our movie marathon. supposed to catch 5 movies but ended up only watching 3. and why so? because we were distracted by the temptation of mahjong. while waiting for milo and lionel to reach, we decided to play mj (without money) while watching The Zodiac. ok..the movie totally sucked our blood.not only it's slow and draggy, it's quite lame cuz the timeline dragged for like 20 yrs. it's a thriller actually, about murder cases. but the damn police took like 20yrs to nab him. ok nx, watched goal 2. my dear handsome Mr Santiago Munez in the show. so so so adorable!! he's really a heart throbbing hunk (to me). had dinner while watching it. ordered the 933 golden pillow (x2) chicken wings (x6) lasagna and a pizza but with shortage of drinks. haha. ended the marathon with The Pursuit of Happyness by Will Smith. it's a pre-arranged show by matt specially for mi to cry but it din work. lol. so there werent any tragedies for the marathon which i had requested. maybe it's the anti-climax comments the boys made when some of the scenes are sad which stopped mi from feeling sad.

nx, went to double o to meet up with my colleagues.brought matt along. they ordered 2 bottles of hennessy. as usual, drank alot. culprit ms lily, victim ms joyce. it was fun dancing and taking pics. however, the highlight of the night was, allan got drunk!!!!! omg omg omg!! it was the first time i see him like tt. gotta send him home to the door step and into his room with the help of melvin. and my hands got cramped for helping to hold the plastic bag the whole journey to his plc. poor guy. oh, forgot to mention poor me! i was drunk too!!! but still gotta force myself to be really alert and ensure he gets home. after sending him back..melvin gotta hold on to me to get a cab. ok. i got home safely. managed to change but without the removal of my make-up, i fell flat on the bed. woke up soon after and unsteadily went to grab my rubbish bin and puked!!! i puked like twice!!!!! argh! ok smthing gross to make u ppl puke. the puke waste is still in my rubbish bin cuz i dun dare to bring it out to throw! dun wan my mum to kill me! hahahahaha!!!!

here are some pics to share.

a drunk mr allan and the 20 tequila shots which killed us.

usual male harrassment and the hennessy which killed us as well

mahjong retards and mr golden pillow.

mr valent sebastian ang aik leong kiwi and me

mr dehnis ubana and i

welcome back!

i am back after disappearing for a few days which seemed like a decade long. miss my laptop and the sound of the keyboard. alright..wat have i been doing..

last fri, had dinner at centrepoint fish&co with bel, melvin, kiwi and kenny. miss the new york fish and chips..yummilicious!!!drooling with the mention of it. i'm a glutton! rcvd 5phone calls from Mr AJ.(not gay aj ok) and finally he had decided to join us after his gym. gosh, he's not only vain but fickle minded! headed to 97 with the rest for night out! ok..97 is a freaking cantopub! with a live band which plays canto/chinese songs! it's fine..until the techno music started playing. sigh..i hate techno actually but i just gotta go with the flow..make myself high by drowning myself with lotsa liquor.

well..many things happened. saw HIS new gal, and got blamed for nth by him. nvm. shant blow the matter up and be a kind soul. forgive and forget. but i still cant control my fingers though. I'M NT THE ONE WHO CALLED HER! still dare say i childish without finding the facts! look who's the one huh?! why will i bother about hw she looks? she's yr gf, not mine for god's sake! *smirkz* ok..enough ms fingers, spare his life!

ok..hmm..i can say i found out many many things abt Mr AJ. ok he's str! tts a great piece of news! and i came to understand his view of r/s. ok, as per bel's advice, it's virtually impossible for anything to happen. sigh..nvm..enjoy this feeling while i can. ok..ms lily is crazy as usual..kept pushing me and mr aj tog. though i noe her motive but nvm i just enjoy it.hahaha..ok..for the first time..i din puke after drinking.

sat...met up with bel and the two boys for ktv. hmm..had fun. met matt after tt for a movie. watched dead silence and yes it worked! i got terrified and h0rrified! ended up not having the courage to go home. well i have to, just tt i relied on my hp by talking to matt. and yes, he just had to makes things worse smtimes huh!

sun..finally bought my new hp K800I. though it's not a very new model but i love the cam! and it's all i look for and need. but till nw, mission not accomplished at all!!!! bloody joyce just cant be initiative and OPEN her GOD DAMN MOUTH!

a message for kiwi or in fact everyone else - like how you encouraged me when was down, things will get better and being sad is just a phase. get over smone who's unworthy and you'll find smone better. if he's not meant to be yrs, let him go. holding it back will just torment you more. rem, love smone whole heartedly and never regret. love someone sincerely and not because you ought to. be with someone because you want to and not need to.

Mr AJ, when will you be........?

i soooo knew it

see, i am so damn right! everything's fine and i dont feel irritated anymore esp when he's the first person i saw early in the morning. nice, asked carlos abt HIS sexual orientation. nice ans dude. DAMN! though it's not a concrete prrof but shit! more and more ppl feels tt way! omg omg. why is it always like tt? it just makes mi more determined to give up on everyone! now i understand why many ppl nowadays go for flings. no string attached. cuz there is just noone out there available to go on a long r/s! i cant say i am going to do the same but i cant say either that i wont. opps. *shrugz*

i'm having a pimple breakout! small little zits are popping on my forehead! i think it's my fringe that's causing my agony. gonna chop it off a little this sat. smtimes i have the urge to chop it off more just like ayr ago. but i have no guts! cuz it takes freaking long to have hair of this length which i have nw! *OUCHHH* ok..my itchy fingers just tried to squeeze a zit and it hurts. very nice. duhz.

right..gonna club this friday with my dearest colleagues again. sharon(deputy manager) is leaving.gonna have a good time with them, hoping i can get high and pop the question right in HIS face! but isabel is right..high possibilities that HE wont give an honest answer! or maybe he wouldnt even answer at all! how on earth can i get to know the truth?!?!?! it's strangling me! leaving me hanging up high on the cable car cables. but still i'm gonna try!

oh yes!! impt thing to update!! i totally fell deeply in love with victoria's secret!!omgomg..my shopping bag cost USD175 alrdy! but of cuz i gotta filter and choose my fav la...just a little worried abt the size. like wat isabel told me..US sizes are humongous! ok..shall try once and learn from experience. VS here i come!!!!!!!

Cranky!!!

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freaking cranky when you are sick huh!it's the first time i actually got irritated by you Mr A!! A for ASS!!!!!! but why do i have this feeling tt i will feel differently tmr or when he's back?damn. shdnt have msg u in the first place! wrong move joyce! *BANG*

once again, shitty monday! 6 MCs!! freaking hell. i shd learn their culture soon. MC on a freaking monday when there are the most calls!! and the rest of us have to suffer!! but who gives a damn about us? duhz.

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and that's me.

欢喜与悲哀

很多人都跟我说过这句话，爱一个人不要100%负出，一定要挽留一点。应为负出并不代表会拥有所有的爱。你爱的人也不一会是爱你的人.

有很多时候，我会试着说服我自己，但往往失败。很多人应该已经厌倦我这个没有志气的性格吧？更何况我这个没有药救的牛脾气，一定让人很想打醒我吧！

其实我真的累了。每一天都要强面欢笑地面对人，到底有多少人可以像我这样，每天都在演自己的连续剧呢？到底有多少人可以像我这样，把戏演得这么好？根本没人会怀疑我。

我在这里想跟某某人说句话，既然你现在已有个对你这么照顾的人在你身旁，你不因该再想着别人了。你已早在一个星期之前做出了这样的一个选择，你就应该负责任。我一个人痛苦终比3 个人痛苦好对吗？谢谢你今天早上给我的简讯。虽然我不知道有多真，但欺骗自己让我舒服一点是好事。

ok, enuff of chinese. i'm dead tired just typing tt few sentences. it took me like an hour! poor frens of mine..all you fans out there probably wont understand much. sorry, i'm just so in the mood of typing in chinese.

alright..enough of sad stories. had a great time with isabel, kiwi and his new found love kenny the cutie.had never enjoyed myself like tt for a long time. though we merely walked ard vivo, it's more than enough for me. and went to jb this afternoon to get my fav dunkin donuts! contented with such small things.i dun need anything else.

my cutie labbit!

will life just be kind?

no intention to say life hasnt been kind to me. maybe not kind enough. though shd be thankful for all the wonderful friends i have and of course a loving family at home and work. but it's always never sufficient. we're all selfish. we think everything aint fair. many people always ask for more time. if only there's 30 hours in a day. but for me, 24 hours is just too much to bear. here i am, in an empty room on a friday night, typing away in a blog which doesnt reply or talk to me. a blog which doesnt know how i feel. ironically, the blog is smthing which i can relate most to. it doesnt argue with me, it'll just listen quietly.

i miss someone i shdnt. i will stop. takes time. no choice.

emotionally wrecked. when will this end? soon i hope.cuz aint gonna take it no more.

events: went to catch the fireworks for NDP 07 with sis. though ppl find tt it's kinda dumb to sit there for hours to wait for the fireworks but i find it all worthwhile. time spent with sis allows some time off from the wreck. feeling the breeze calms my senses. i dont need aromatherapy.lavender shit dont help. fireworks were brillant.i love fireworks.never fail to give me a very nice after feeling. i wan fireworks for my wedding if i ever gonna have one though. haha.

dream on bitch! - my other half started to scream at me!
haha. yeahyeah i will stop. at least i am dreaming of smthing positive and nice isnt it.
dont ask for too much asshole! - screamed the other.

then had dinner with sis and matt at subway. had my favfav tuna! smthing i can eat everyday without getting sick of. but there aint so subway near changi road. changi road is pathetic i can say.

noone's life is under my control. if ever anyone found someone new to rely on or to confide in, go ahead. just be happy. kiwi, be happy ok? i'll always be here, like hw u told me u will do the same.

it's only 843pm nw. time passes so slowly till i cant really hang on anymore. i nid a breather!! God pls help me.

Ms Depression. My Best Friend.

Ms Depression seemed to be my best friend. i think i can only entrust my all in my bestie, she is Ms Depression. been with me more than 2 decades. who can ever replace her?noone can. only i can kick her out but i cant. she's too nice to me, always linger ard me and had never left. who else can be so loyal and sincere? no other men or women can out beat her. or is the truth not like that? Is it that i have never learnt to let go of her or she had been faithful to me all these while? i cannot differentiate.I cant or have never tried? Is it self-denial?i would say so.

how many times have i dropped the idea of typing all these senseless, illogical and melancholic topics? how many times have i failed, trying so hard?how many times have ppl say to me 'Joyce, this is not the way'? but it still happen repeatedly.it's not that i treat all yr words and concerns as a passing breeze. it's just that i dont have the energy to work towards it. i give up trying. yes whats new you may say. then sorry, just accept it.

totally feel like giving up today and just leave and go to a far far away land i've always dreamt of. but then again, it's utterly irrational.i think this is the first time i think so rationally.first time i am in the right state of mind.perhaps i had been before but i just didnt realise it or unwilling to see it. alright. boredom. stop this.

I've decided. not gonna get married. shall live the life i had wanted but deserted the idea in the past. get away from this place once i am able to. bring me away, send me away. i beg. (Joyce, you're a farking beggar!)

exorbitant

excessive ego brings one nowhere.the ability to admit one's wrong seemed to be the hardest task in life.for men and women. at least i have the integrity to include women and not categorise or stereotype only men. but let me point out that the percentage of men is way higher.i'm not a feminist because i love men but i do stand up strongly for women.

emotions. i weep to vent my frustrations. i weep when i am happy. i weep when i am devastated. i weep when i miss something or someone. but i never never weep because of regrets. in fact, one should never ever have that word in their dictionaries when it comes to big and important decisions in life. we can regret not having that slice of cake in the display at nydc and end up craving for it day and night. we can regret not saying hi to that cute guy or gal because you may just meet another cutie down the street. but never regret when it comes to having to sacrifice yr future and happiness over some worthless junk.

worthless; something without a price or value. it may be referred to someone as well.
junk; an object. (in my own dictionary) a man.

enough of theories. back to reality.

for yr info my dearest, i havent regretted on my decisions if you can see the above theory. and i'm more than happy that i saw yr true colours and all the lies you said to me. i cant believe someone can actually twist their words so rapidly that i was churned my brain, got it upset and caused me to lose sleep and weep. all due to frustration i repeat.

had a great lunch, though food sucks to the core, with great ppl. to be precise, only one, the other was good. the goodie was there for me after work, had a drink and talked things out. no defence, no protection. the bestie, always so far away from me. i wish he can be nearer. i wish.

great thanks and appreciation to my dearest kiwi. gave me a surprise by turning up at eunos to look for me after work to make sure i'm 'oh so fine'. yes i am dear, with you great ppl. no junk can pollute me. love ya.

nonchalant

decisions were made and made known. hard evident of nonchalant attitude and behaviour proved there isnt much to hold back. many truths heard. many facts seen and felt. it just goes to show there is nth left to be said. though it true smwhat or rather that one should not expect anything dramatic from the other to prove anything cuz it may all be pretends and it will all be over in a split second without anyone realising it. and when it's over, can we once again say it's due to nonchalant mannerisms again?

many factors could have led to many things which happened. but it is worthless to look back and ponder abt wat caused them and how to salvage them. many a times, it's supposed to be putting in extra energy and efforts to brighten things up and make the whole scenerio less vexing.it's smhow infuriating to know the truth and seeing the true real colours of one. though it's hard to swallow, it's better to get choked for once and learn to puke it out rather than getting choked and just sitting there without any actions like digging yr throat or rushing to the 'hospital'.

you dont know me just like i do not know you. many more ppl know me inside out by just a snap on the fingers but why then is it so exasperating for some?i wonder hard but can never find an agreement for it. so shall stop allowing my braincells to counter attack one another before it all die.

back to work. tedious indeed. answered a good load of 80calls which was double the norm.4 men down and the rest of us worked like whore.gonna need a damn good break to calm my senses.boys, pls get smthing done abt the hols, pls. i beg. thou shall be greatly appreciated and thanked for. help my poor soul.lost in the darkness of doom.pull me out from there and show me the light!

*i nid a brown and black pair of shoes and many flat bohemian sandals.gonna change my wardrobe to bohemian. let's hawaii!!!

Memorial of Iron Chef part I

the two teams. the sisters and the gays. (opps boys i mean)

dun mess with mi!



the work pieces.

happy birthday bro~

Iron Chef

had Iron Chef competition over at my plc on saturday, organised by our dear milopeng. We were split into 2 teams..so coincidentally i was grouped with sis and bro (but he was kicked out as he's too lazy) and milo with matt. the theme of the competition was EGG. yes apparently milo told sis tt as long as the ingredients consist of eggs it's fine..but later we were penalised for not showing off the eggs. ok..back to the topic..sis and i cooked cereal prawns with eggs and wantons. actually come and think of it, for us to be able to cook smthing edible is very good. so u ppl dun criticise the taste ok!!! keep saying it's tasteless but will be good with more salt..we just dun wan you ppl to get kidney problems ok. matt and milo cooked pasta, smting which can never go wrong cuz it's just by using the bottled paste sauce wat!!! but anyway...ultimately, the final Iron Chef's title goes to Milo and his kitchen helper Matt. The losers (tt's me and sis) gotta wash up the dishes..but the boys were kind enuff to help (i must add i threatened matt with frenship) hahahahaha..opps...btw..must give credits to my mum, bro, caline and jason for being the judges.

ok..nx up, cake cutting ceremony. dun be mistaken, it's not a celebration for the Iron Chef winners. It's my bro's bday today!!! so i bought him a cake. as usual, sang bday song and pics taking. and ended with a self-voluntary cake smash. I repeat, it's SELF-VOLUNTARY! the boys, sis and caline had a game of poker and losers were milo and matt who went bankrupt twice! oh well, promised never to disclose the forfeit..okok..boys..i only rem it as option A. a point to add, the stunt was quite disturbing.

Caught a movie at tamp mall. watched Alone. ok, the plot is sick la..about siamese twin sisters who one killed the other becuz of a man. okok..it's not scary...but it's shocking..the scenes seem to go silent before the shock comes into play. it's hilarious to see milo covering his face the whole time and sis closing her eyes and looking down pretending to be strong but shook when the shock came..matt was the most saint among us but he did try to cover his face with one hand. perhaps just trying to make it less obvious.

ended the day soon after i got home..lack of slp and whole body aching due to yoga, and yes i kept my promise. i went for class on fri! hahaha. it was refreshing though. my consultant was changed and this fellow kept saying i am lazy..well i noe i am but u dun have to say it la! gonna complain to his manager one day if he continues. his name is weixiang. typing it here is to help me rem his name esp when complains come.hahahaha

tata..adios~

i'm such a whiner

"i feel like brushing my teeth!" "i feel like brushing my teeth!" "i WANNA brush my teeth!!!"

this is all i could whine about the whole day at work since yesterday. for those who knows me well enough..i have this ultra weird habit. hmm, i wouldnt call it a habit cuz it doesnt happen tt so often, perhaps it's just a small problem. This is what it is..I will feel like brushing my teeth out of the blues. Anywhere, anytime. And if i dun get the chance to do it..there's goes the whining alarm, which will go on and on and on. Poor colleague of mine, Mr Carlos gotta endure with my crap cuz everytime i end a call, i'll call his name and comment : "Carlos, i wanna brush my teeth!" hahaha crap. To the extend, i even asked everyone who walked past me if they have a toothbrush, but of cuz, a brand new one. (opps, now tt i am reminded, i'll pack my brushing set in my bag before i forget if not i gotta whine all over again.) Well, it's to prevent soft toys from flying to my face from the opposite seat. and of cuz, Mr Culprit is Mr Carlos Calalec( i love filippino's names). Smith De Vera, Allan Roel Jabines etc. Nice huh..ok i'll go marry a Filippino! hahahahah... Mrs Joyce De Vera, Mrs Joyce Jabines..niceeee...hahahah..mad.

ok..Mr Kiwi got admitted last night. rushed to hospital at Alexandra! had to even call cab! gosh..why cant he be admitted to CGH instead. anyway, he's fine now. Everytime i step into the hospital, i'll have this very odd and uncomfortable feeling. I hate hospitals! and looking at the packets of drips doesnt make mi feel any better. Will always be reminded of that unfortunate admission to the hospital. the pain and agony and more pain having to be warded in a C class surgical ward!! nvm..let's not talk about it.

finally it's thursday tmr..smthing to look forward to as Friday will be near!! Gonna put in effort to go to the gym on friday. paying every mth and letting the mbrship go to waste isnt tt smart. shall make it a more frequent programme in my schedule. at least twice a wk. tues and fridays. hmm..nice. at least going for a run isnt tt bad huh.

Ms Wee, Ms Wee..eyes always wandering ard in the same direction in the office (oh well, nowhere else to look). but it's nice anyway. sigh..when will the truth be out? how am i suppose to find out? we shall see.

been having lunch with the same group of colleagues at the same plc. enjoys their company as laughter never ends. even if i am the only gal ard (like always even in my group of frens), i never felt left out. love the ppl but hate the job. stay on and perseverance shall be the new word in all aspects of life. I know wat i mean and matt knows it too right. hahah..
fight fight fight!!!!!

he was fine the day before but not the next day.

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not again

confusion strikes yet again. over what and consequences.

1) guaranteed over non-guaranteed happiness.
2)risk adverse or go all out?
3)90% risk of embarrassment after going all out.
4)guaranteed downright rejection?
5)non guaranteed acceptance?
6)named a slut?
7)be called bitch?
8)object shunning away?
9)guaranteed regret if not trying
10)guaranteed disability of accepting the truth

ok enuff.

whiskey with tequila isnt nice. one more thing to add..i cant stand ppl who do not have the responsibility of informing others of their attendance. fullstop.

so shd i or shd i not? shd i not or shd i? argh..irritating.

it's better

it's better not to know anything than having to hear and listen to stuff you never in your life wanna know about or listen to but it's inevitable and unavoidable that smhow,smway you'll get to listen about it or know about it. and having been told to keep quiet and not probe about it when it's so tough to hide it and shut the fuck up makes it more difficult to just forget about it and not remember it.and everytime when it comes right in yr face, it's so hard not to be reminded about it and it all comes back to you again - having to pretend you dunno abt it and try hard not to talk about it.

so how? to know and ask abt it or just listen and forget abt it?but what are the consequences of asking about it and the bad feeling which will stay with you forever if you dont ask about it?arghh..tough decision to make and hope by the time a decision comes into place, everything dies down and everything will be forgotten.

but the point is here, why shd i make myself forget abt it and not face it? i dunno why. perhaps i just feel responsible for the r/s betwn everyone. so i shd just keep quiet. period.

machine crashed.

celebrated sis bday at Furama hotel. had buffet which isnt really tt fantastic but it's acceptable.they had my fav butter bread pudding.went on the starbucks at central.then went off to meet the clubbers at orchard.drank quite a bit. puked cuz was so bloated. but aint drunk or whatsoever.

22nd of july 2007. first time in my life. traumatised for a min which seemed like an hour. it crashed.smoke rising.paralysed.rem a caucasian asking if i am ok.then walking away from the scene.then got back home and found many bruises.and many more after that.lucky both were fine and alive.thank God indeed.

it wasnt caused by alcohol.it's the rain.thunder storm which caused the road to be flooded a little.caused the machine skid and went berserk.i was a tat slpy at first. but was shaken awake.now it's finding the way to hide the colours on my legs and arm.wat an experience. a traumatising one.

in short

not so happie.

quite tired.

a lil frustrated.

slightly pissed off.

a bit of anger.

a pinch of joy.

a sprinkle of excitement.

this is how i feel. period.

here it comes again

for a very long time..it hasnt happened to me..today it did..on this fateful day..i felt terrible..smthing inside me is choking me.........leaving me breathless...leaving me drained emotionally..i bet this question will pop in...'hey, wats wrong?wanna share?' ok this is wat i will reply..'nth is wrong..or rather..i do NOT know wat the hell is wrong.' typical answer i always give huh...get used to it ppl..

didnt tok much to anyone else other than those muthafuckers (extracted from milo's blog) who called in to ask dumb question..there's even one prudential idiot posing as a policyholder asking for information..asked eadric to use his phone to call the PH's mobile and found out i'm not speaking to the ph at all!! bloody idiot..wasted my 10mins tokking to u! ok..let's not side track..like i said..didnt tok much...no mood at all..everyone can tell there's smthing wrong with me..allan tried to tease me like how he does it everyday..it didnt work to make mi laugh this time..all i can do is to smirk.....allan allan allan...allan jabines. lol..i'm crazy. yes i am.

i'm lost in my own world..i feel i have always been selfish to the men who enters into a r.s with me...i feel i always ill treat them..though they are always there and willing to sacrifice for me..i dunno why i cannot make myself able to love whole heartedly again.....i dunno why i dunno why i dunno why.i simply cannot understand why i am still so caught up in things which happened in the past.i'm always victimising myself...and it's smthing which i never wanna admit.i always make it seem the whole world owes me. which of cuz is not the case.

side track-Deep Vein Thrombosis is a blood clot (thrombosis) that forms in the deep vein system of the lower leg--usually between the ankle and the upper calf. The condition is serious, potentially fatal, and very difficult to diagnose by external examination. Symptoms, if they occur, might include muscle tension in the lower leg, a dull ache or sudden painful tear, or a cramp in the calf with swelling and elevated body temperature.Symptoms rarely occur, though, since the clot formation may develop very rapidly, detach from the wall of the vein and move through the blood stream before anyone recognizes what's happening. The clot may travel through the veins and lodge in the heart or more likely in the lungs, resulting in sudden death. If the clot remains lodged in the legs, very serious damage may occur to the vein, or even to the leg's entire venous system. Clots can cause tissue damage, skin lesions, ulceration, and possibly removal of the limb.

no specific reason why i copy and paste the above segment..a little pc of info i guess.

i feel terrible nw..i'm sorry.........i just dunno how to make things better.........

wat a joke

how can a blouse ever ever ever ever get lost in the farking house?!!?!?!?!? i believe socks do get missing..perhaps sucked by the washing machine or things like tt..but a top?!?!!? a freaking top which fits my size getting lost?!?!?! omg..my heart aches..it's from Esprit and it cost near 60bucks for a plain white top and i wore it only ONCE!!!! damn...............my heart is tearing.......and i'm literally going to tear soon...searched the whole house and still..no sight of it! you ppl may say it's a gd excuse for me to get a new one..it's really not a matter of getting a new piece..but it's the heartache!! sigh............God pls bring my top back before my eyes soon.....

ok..exam is coming..genting trip is coming..gonna fail my exam for sure...and hope the trip will be enuff to mend my broken heart for the missing top and going-to-fail exam. argh.......gonna share a room with shaun liangyao..haha..my dear...pls...protect me from the evil spirits pls...hahah...and two of us are going to rely on each other...cuz we dun gamble much..we'll go search for nice food!and oh yes..i am bringing my txbk there to study!!!!

hmm..kd wanted to give me a surprise..lol...the surprise will be going to genting to look for me! hahah..mad man...kd..you better stay in sin...cuz i wouldnt noe wat to do if i really see u there..so pls...guai guai huh...hmm..getting to know abt yr past..just makes mi think..why do ppl treat u tt way when u were how u are right now...i mean..hw can ppl actually bear to do it...*scratches head* even eadric is feeling weird and peculiar..we cant get it..but perhaps it's just yr fate and life...hopefully no such things will happen again..i mean..not tt i will do anything to u...i WONT.

been coping well with work...i mean..starting to cope with it...getting the momentum...but still it wears me out...never have i got the chance to leave the office when the sun is still up high in the sky..whenever i leave the office..it'll be gloomy and dark...hate it..but gotta endure it...hope work will be better as days go by...of cuz it comes easier with the great colleagues u have at work..even kd can feel the abnormally close r/s among all of us....but then again..i hope nth of the past in ttech will happen here in AIA..yes i am tokking abt backstabbing! i certainly do NOT look forward to anything of that sort. pls..stay clear away from me.

ok..i am still badly affected by my missing top...VERY affected..damn it. sory for cursing but i seriously think u do not know hw it feels! ARGH...smone pls kill me!!!!!!!

rescue for the poor animals

hey ppl...check out the webby below..click on it everyday to give free food to the poor animals...since we dont always do good deeds...this is a small way to compensate then...

http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/home.faces?siteId=3

spread the word...let us all do good.

a wk of hell...yet again

wats joy fatigue u may ask..well..it's a fatigue caused by joy and happiness. busy enjoying my time which caused mi to be so tired everyday..opps...i mean enjoying my time after office hours. overslept a few times last wk and ended up having to take a cab to work..but i feel it's all worthwhile.. =)

it's been a wk since i last posted...which means i've been spending my time with kd since then. didnt expect things will turn out this way actually..tot it'll all end there n then..until tuesday's badminton session which changed everything....the appearance of kd without prior notice gave mi a surprise..yes..a big one..ended up not knowing how to play badminton...and caused my team (consisting of me and gopi - building manager) to lose the game by 2 points..yes it's a close one but looking at how i played last tues let everyone there knows there's surely smthing wrong with me..yes and kd knows too..oh well..i just cant stand having someone staring at me playing la...

so tues was when it all started...went for pool with the men at work after badminton and had froggie porridge after tt...it's allan's first time tasting frogs..had to force him to try as he tot it's some exotic food..well..it's so norm in sg though..not in the philippines...and so he tried..ended up giving me a one word comment...nice! hahaha....

caught transformers with kd on fri...all i can say is...not really recommended..but then again...since it's a childhood cartoon..then u ppl shd go watch la..but dun pin too high hopes...it's draggy...lasted abt 180mins...watched until 430am in the morning..ok..i managed to get tix only for the 140am show...nx morning..woke up at 930am to prepare for grocery shopping for chalet..damn tired!!! but it's fun...haha..smhow..with allan ard..there are always funny things to laugh at...eadric came to pick us and headed to chalet...allan and i went str up to the room and tried to slp..apparently..he went zouk and came home in the morning too...but we couldnt fall aslp...too hungry...haha...called isabel who was downstairs in the kitchen with melvin with hp..ok..allan n i were too lazy...called to check when our lunch will be ready...melvin made beef burgers...how can i describe it....hmm...good! hahah..and our dear allan had craving for cream of mushroom..so poor eadric gotta drive out and get him a can and of cuz bringing back a carton of beer as well...not long later..started mahjong...played two games and handed the seat to kd to play......i tried to watch tv but my eyes soon gave way....din realise allan wasnt ard in the living room anymore..so i went up to slp..got a shock when i saw him lying on the bed like a dead man...ok..his body and eyes gave way as well...slept for about an hour plus or so....had bbq..damn the chicken wings are well marinated by allan..phillipines recipe...though it's a bit too salty but it's still good..thumbs up!

went to st james again on the same night after chalet...hmm..was...ermm..i can say...drunk la...ok. enuff of it anyway..nth more to tok abt it..all i can say is.......it's fun and it's thru this night....tt i got to know alot abt kd. sincerity.

alright.....time to visit my pig farm in dreamland...been long since i've been there...matthew chan..have u been taking care of the farm? i doubt so huh.........haha...

never looking forward

it's sunday..which means monday is tmr..or tmr is monday..wats the diff right?
it's going to be hell in many ways...not going to name them...but it will be hell...worse than ever before..seriously not looking forward to it at all..

done many wrong things..shant name it either...i believe it cost smone's trust and happiness..but i wanna make it clear..i'm not committed in any ways and i'm definitely not obligated to ensure you're happy. but it's kinda wrong to blame on whatever tt had happened on smone else. it's nobody's fault and nobody need to be responsible to how u feel abt it. period.

had a game of mahjong again with the boys at my plc..lucky thing i managed to win a little...it'll be for lunch tmr. had my hair done which cost me a bomb but glad i wont have to do it in another 5-6 mths.

i'm tired..not enuff slp..reached home at about 530 and woke up out of a sudden at 8 with both eyes wide opened thinking of all that had happened and i felt bad. but then again..i shdnt think of it after receiving a call from melvin.i shdnt felt responsible cuz it's not my responsibility at all.

done.

wat??? again??

yes ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, uncles and aunties..it's still hell for me...

just when i tot hell was going to be over last wk...and was looking forward to a brand new wk..i was TOTALLY wrong and disappointed and overwhelmed with fatigue...tat i cant think of anything else other than going home to slp str after work..

u may ask..what happened to the energetic and bubbly joyce aka siao char boh? God noes...seriously...i really wish to noe too...the call volume is sooooo high that we cant really manage with the shortage of staff...and why dont they hire more ppl? hah...usual stuff...cut cost la..not enuff head count la...crap...then u would rather have perm staff working towards their deathbed then to increase head count..wat the hell is my dear VP thinking?no wunder MC rates for call centres are always so high towards the sky...haha..(wat am i tokking abt?)

until this day, nearly 2wks after i sprained my ankle...i can still feel some tingling pain...and i feel crippled when trying to go down stairs...i wunder why..it's still kinda swollen as compared to the normal ankle on the left...sigh...shall give it another wk more to decide if i shd go back to the physician again...

went clubbing with the boys and frank on saturday..velvet dragon is the plc...YES..the old momo if you wanna ask where the hell it is...oh well..it looks pretty much the same to me..except for some slight changes and of cuz sofa in the ladies!! the ladies used to have 3 round sofas..but this time...additional 2 huge ones!!! cool huh...the music...same.......crowd....same...with many many chinese at the beginning..then many many malays at the end...........the 4 of us..milo, matu, shaun and i havent clubbed for a long time..every now and then..we'll snatch the stool to sit...but the oldest among all of us...frank, my dear colleague...has got WAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaY too much energy for us to catch up!! kowtow to him!!! ok...boys...when's nx?


tired shaun and joyce and the insane toilet

movie cancelled this fri....wayward company i am in la...seriously..they made mi suspect if my sis and i were from the same parents...to them..immediate family means parents for unmarried kids like me...sis not counted!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????? who at my age will bring parents for movies? i mean there will be..but it's a company event!! wat the hell..since cannot then i cancel to assist in cutting cost!!! bloody hell..damn wayward.... #&$^^$!(#&$&)!?...

ok damn tired now..shall stop...yawnzzzzzz...in a few hrs time..i'll be back to hell again.........