Revived

back..after captured by the aliens..

checked my emails which nearly choked my inbox..deleted a dozen them without reading...lazy...
anywayz..christmas is coming...looking forward to the party we'll be having at shaun's plc...in charge of making pasta...hope they wun have a upset stomach after tt...gonna have lotsa booze too!

right..a little update of my life...attended company's dinner n dance at furama hotel..yes...sucky but fun...alot of us were dressed up for the ' Night of the Stars'..dun have many pics in soft copy to upload cuz apparently, com's email system sucks..dun allow us to send emails with big capacity to our personal email addresses...hmm..went for my TP..right...FAILED...argh,..nvm...try agan nx time....got my new passport which is horrendous..passport pics always sucks...

went to ikea yest and today..yest with B and today with mama n sis...ok..crowd was mad..jam from the entrance of the road all the way to the carpark...i think public transport is the best thing for this situation..looked ard for my stuff yest..got ideas from B on hw to have my room done up...and of cuz cost saving..but after adding up everything, the cost will stil burn a hole in my pocket...

company has now finalised when out last day of work will be..ok if you guys do not have a single clue of whats going on, SIA did not renew their contract with us and we are losing our jobs. my last day is 14 Jan 2007. which is another mth to go..having mixed feelings...happy tt i can move on..sad cuz i cant bear to leave all the very nice ppl in ttech...sighz...gotta go thru this anyway...no choice...actually having to do smthing which you have no control over is sucky..gonna have a short break b4 hunting for a new job...probably all the way until CNY...

oh and this yr's CNY is new..gonna have a chalet..just booked today...cuz my grandaunt passed away in msia which makes us have no more obligations to go msia every yr for CNY. my uncles will be out to SG to celebrate CNY by having a chalet with us....wanna invite my frens but..difficult la..they have their own visiting to do... =)

have decided not to have any new yr resolutions this year..maybe easier ones la...cuz cant seem to have any determination to achieve them...maybe the most impt thing is to build up the r/s with my frens and be a better person...to change my temper...ESP..joyce joyce...cant u be a lil....gentler? lol...

monitor officially declared dead

yes..why this plc turned cold and quiet..cuz my monitor died on mi...sigh...gotta get a new one...but i guess i wud get a new com instead...cuz i have an intuition tt my com will die on mi anytime as well..due to old age...

havent been having a fantastic life these past 2wks or so...been on leave on thurs and fri...struggling with my driving..test date in exactly a month's time...failed to get to the third round of interview...kinda disappointed but expected...been given advice to try again n not give up..but sadly..wif the kinda character i have...it's kinda impossible....

just returned from sulina's wedding...put on baju kurung...felt weird..but...hmm..it's nice..cant deny the fact...

sigh..gtg leave nw...will be yrs ago for mi to log in again....byebye...

understanding

does understanding means you cannot be disappointed?

does it mean that you cant be disappointed even though u totally understand the situation?

or both questions are the same?

cant someone be forgiven when she/he feels disappointed for smthing he/she was hoping will happen but in the end it didnt? but it doesnt mean he/she doesnt understand the situation right??

why do i always have to hope ppl will understand and accept my explanations? i am not the type who will explain if what i say is not valid. so can smone understand and try to accept what i had explained cuz i realli mean it? thr key word here is TRY. i wont force anyone to accept it but it certainly hurts when ppl dun.

i am dragging myself to work nowadays...work life isnt something i look forward to everyday now...the ppl...the attitudes..the friendliness...the atmosphere...the work...everything has changed. EVERYTHING. and what hurts and affects me most? people. normally no matter hw i dread working...things will change becuz of those ard mi..who i luv so much...but now..things had changed...into smthing i really dread....smthing i feel hopeless....something i am so tired of trying and whining about...contradicting..i am here whining now isnt it. i hate myself asking the same questions..why r u so cold why r u so far away nw? hate it.

when can i stop asking? maybe i shd stop thinking or fantasizing that things will be the same again. fasting mth is over..guess it isnt an excuse here anymore..guess it's the truth and i shd wake up and face the world.

pls slap me awake. and drag mi out of this cruel world of fantasy.

new love

my new love


shayne ward

anywayz, wanna wish all my darlings...selamat hari raya~!

october babies too - stella,sharon, gary,liz,zan and my beloved deary caline (miss you though i noe u wun see this) Happy birthday!!!!

gou gou finger

woo...visited Vivo City yest with sis, matt and jingrong..the places is indeed huge..love the roof top..nice view and nice concept...good for chilling out actually..the place was packed...though onli about 60% of the shops are open...had dinner at harbourfront foodcourt...in view of deepavali, we had nasi briyani for dinner..keke..and gosh..matt found an insect's head in his food...deep fried alrdy though... headed to town...wanted to have drinks at rouge but in the end dragged matt to KTV at cuppage! hahaha..poor guy...but majority wins la huh..accompanied matt to get his can of Kilkenny while i waited for shaf to pick mi...and of cuz...back to old days....pics taking!



went for class with sis today...hot yoga..got cheated..tot it's a one hr class..in the end...it's 90mins!! god...nearly died..the instructor pushed my leg all the way to my face! nearly shrieked!!in pain obviously....hope sis will join the club with mi..lose weight together!!!accompanied her back to her office for her to finish off her work..read my book while waiting and yawned a thousand time...totally lack of slp...crashed in the moment i got home...but cant slp properly cuz bro-in-law keep coming into my room to use my com! argh....sigh...no dinner...only soup..anyway...i'm kinda pampered la...dun eat cold food....sigh....if i am nt so picky then probably i wun be starving nw...sobz....help~

right....monday again tmr...totally makes mi sick! gotta work on tuesday..suddenly rem hw i always take mc during PH when i first joined the company...lol..stil rem hw meiting, stephen and wei kai alway play the devil's role...miss them..but it's different nw anyway...

had wanted to plan a surprise for caline...but smhow or rather....guess nt...she's alrdy planning with shaun...though i noe i can still do more..but the enthusiasm is different alrdy...sigh....

gtg.bye.

a blurred journey ahead

just realised today hw terrible my mandarin has become...unable to read properly...unable to even translate the simplest word to mandarin...totally screwed up the interview today i guess...hah...wat to do...havent been speaking mandarin lately..i mean..really full mandarin conversation..guess i gotta brush up abit...dun wish to lose the ability to speak my mother tongue..and wouldnt also want to be unable to teach my descendants their mother tongue...pardon me if u suddenly realised i post my blog in mandarin...haha..sigh...it's kinda the right job i want...to be indepedant...but i just gotta screw it up....wth...nw..i dunno what else to pursue further.....

puked my guts out last night...had KFC for lunch which got mi landed up with a upset stomach...had iced latte at night which made me sick..really sick and disgusted that i gotta forced myself to puke if nt i cant slp...i could practically see oil floating in my puke..hehe...gross huh...for the time being...at least a good 3mths...KFC will be out! totally banned on my lunch/dinner menu! the last time i had this terrible experience was when i ate fried rice at KCC(kampong chai chee at tamp telepark)..burped the whole freaking day..and guess what....burps taste of the fried rice...and ultimately...puked like at least 5times at work....and from then..i banned it for
1mth..ate the same thing again..and history repeats itself!! now...totally banned!!!

hmm...i am wundering..if let's say...you ahd actually warned or advised smone that you hate smthing..but he/she still do it on purpose as a joke...hw would u feel? would u remain calm? have u got the right to feel pissed abt it? gimme comments...tell mi it's nt wrong to be upset about it...but what matters most is..at the end of the day...u calm down...and can pretend nth happened...am i right or wrong? if i am...tell mi...perhaps i shd wake up my idea.

opps...i think i can sense smthing coming...sorry but i just want opinions and to learn from it. tts all...not opposing anyone...just a lesson for myself.

tmr's sat....hah....it's going to be just like last sat and last last sat. hm sweet hm. happily at hm.watching the haze and keeping track of the PSI.hw fun. bleahz.

pure coincidence?

just when i wanted to post smthing about this man...i saw him in marlia's blog...this drop dead gorgeous hunk...indescribable charm..... can u see his eyes....gosh....fainting......i would definitely wan a man like tt...hmm for ONS? hahahah....this man is lucky..free publicity


Mr Wentworth Miller

i'm thinking if it's just pure coincidence or smthing else mi and marlia have....many a times, we even said smthing which is totally the same, at the same time! it's kinda freaky and normally after tt, we'll just shut up and turn away...not just once...but soooo many times....hehe

i miss her...again...i'm misunderstood for my intentions..i did say i need time..but i have not done anything to push her away....guess what....without talking to anyone today, i did 37 emails..for those who dunno...37 is wayyyyyy beyond the target we need to hit at work...it's nt easy..but it is when you have noone to tok to....hope this'll be over soon..

and matthew chan wei jin...stop mocking at my typo! hmph~

choked

was resting at hm today..browsing thru my friends' friendster profiles and found out alot of unbelievable stuff...whats so unbelievable you may ask...the fact is the most impossible ppl are getting married! gosh..if i din see the wedding shots with my own eyes, i wud never have guessed they are getting married...even the most impossible fren of mine, KH!! gosh gosh..what can i say...(getting all stressed up here). is marriage the latest trend nw? or they have no choice? whatever it is...just wish them the best.n have a blissful marriage.

am so gonna kill KH cuz rcvd no news from him!! argh!

.....so wanna get married...sobz...lol...like i said...just for the wedding...the ring..the gown and the ang baos...hahahah..

back after 11yrs - smthing i've been waiting for

the phantom of the opera is here!! i've been waiting for it for soooooo long.... nearly tot they stopped their tour...so glad they havent!! gonna catch it!!! hope i wun be disappointed this time round...i die die must go...!!!!!!

shd i believe??

returned from work..suppose to be at class...not feeling gd...canx.

been feeling bad...esp after hearing a comment, ' eventually...they will choose their own race for frens..'

shd i believe? how nt to when things are happening...and how nt to when i alrdy have one vote from smone of the same...gosh...it isnt true right...tell mi it isnt.....tell mi i am just paranoid. i am i am i am ..or am i in denial...i am i am i am...

hate myself

i hate myself..hate my mum and dad for getting married and give birth to me..i hate having a mixture of their features..i hate myself for looking like tt..i wanna go for plastic surgery..i wanna look realli kind and gentle..i wan ppl to stop thinking i'm unapproachable..thinking i'm a fierce attitude problemed congested bitch!! i dun wanna anymore ppl to misunderstand me for giving a rude or farked up expression!!! i really dun mean anything..when i dun smile...i just look like tt.....pls forgive me...i have no evil intentions at all........i realli realli hate myself!!!

i'm sorry mum n dad....i dun mean it...but it's realli an agony having ppl esp close ones to misunderstand mi................................it really really hurt alot..........

'for joyce'

"For Joyce"

smthing really unique for me from milo peng...hmm...though i really dun get where u get the inspiration from.......lol..thanks dude!!!!

7oct06- finally

this marks the day when he had decided to tok to mi again.

yeah! *peace sign*

muackz

snortz

karen's wedding with the noisy evan and mad carlo


my all time fav from starlight cinema


heavy heavy make up..but nt clear la..

yellow me with lost n found lantern

nick n me

100th post

cant rem the reason which triggered into the creation of this blog. curiousity?nth better to do?deprived of having smone to whine? haha..shrugz..getting old..memory running out..

gosh...it's a saturday..i'm at home nw (749pm)...yes..strange huh...like i said in my previous post...they are all true...though there are ppl who did ask mi out...but..sorry...guess i have my reasons for nt wanting to leave the hse as well...u alrdy noe the reasons...ahh...confusing..

the haze is killing me...PSI126 as of 7pm...gosh...i nid an oxygen mask...or my piggy cloth mask which shaun got mi from taiwan can come into use soon? keke..it's retarded to use it la..though it's cute but i think it's toooo cute...hw i wish the psi will go higher as well...then the government shall announce that everyone MUST stay home...otherwise you'll be fined if u are found on the streets...

god..havent had a proper meal today...*shakes head*..deprived of food..craving for tori bento, mac, kfc, gelare's waffles,central's chicken wings and peanut butter and condensed milk toast and sooooo many other food....nono....must endure...high cholestrol...sigh.....gotta refrain from all these heavenly yet sinful delicacies...

the first saturday..i feel like working.......miss my chair though i have my bed...miss the com though i have my own...miss the toilet though mine's cleaner...

heard of a bad news....one of his babies got sick..tmr will be the appointment with vet...hope all is well.....praying tt my baby is well and always begging for more food....and of coz..for yr baby to get well soon..

deprived

hw come everybody seem to disappear when i most needed company?perhaps it's karma again..coz when they need mi...i'm always busy with this and that...sigh..it's just a clash of time..

it's saturday...guess i'm gonna be stuck at hm...staring at this bloody monitor...deprived of food..deprived of cigs..deprived of conversations..my mouth's gonna stink.

eating mooncake...for breakfast lunch and dinner.

deprived of lanterns yesterday..it was mid-autumn festival.. no fullmoon...

i have a new pig (frm marl)... she's princess white..the only thing to keep mi company..

will there be a miracle?

just waiting

dunno y...everytime i read smthing from your blog...i will wanna tear...just take it as i'm emotional...shrugz...i dunno y either...

i believe there are no good or bad friends to me...i'm living in an age..when i noe who deserves to be my friend..so bad friends are definitely out...you're definitely the best among the rest...no doubts.....and you noe smthing? i'll be here forever.....waiting for the day...

we'll have gelare waffles with ice cream together..we'll go to chijmes together..we'll watch soccer together...we'll catch a movie together..we'll have a feast together...we'll chat on msn till my mum comes knocking on my door asking mi to slp...we'll play mahjong together overnight and have mac breakfast and you'll fall aslp while standing in the train...we'll go club together and dance like monkeys...we'll take the pics with the famous three standard poses...gosh..so many more......i'll be patient........i'm not going to give up.........

anyway..short recap of wat i did....went for hot yoga yest with sis and her frens...it was definitely satisfying!! perspired like noone's biz..whole top was WET...perspiration dripping...had my medical report...not very good......sigh...gotta stay healthy...cut down on cigs..and hopefully..eventually quit it.....

i wan a dog....need companion at home.....(at least it's the nerest thing to having a husband)....bring it for a walk..with the ear phones in my ears..music blasted....enjoying the time alone.....the peace i need smtimes.... =)

whatever makes u happy

just read smthing which i was rather astonished after tt..

firstly, i'm not the 'to let old friends/ppl leave to have more space for new friends/ppl in' kinda of person. in the first place...i wont even let or wish anyone who has entered, exit.

you may have many reasons why u wanna leave...but take into account on all the memories we had...all the times we spent...all the yeaaaaarrrs we have known each other....until today...is it not enuff for u to noe hw i value friendship?sigh...but i really do miss you....everyone ard mi noes clearly about that and they noe they cant replace you. but so what right dude....so what right...

went to a wedding last night...sigh...as usual...feel like getting married. the very first time i tot of it was at my sis's wedding...looking thru her wedding pics...just make mi go...'awwwww'...maybe i only wan a wedding...but marriage huh...keke..

happy birthday sept babies~

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to meiting and shafie and daddy and mr yeoh and da ge.....
happy birthday to alll of you!

ok..lame.

bye.

11.10pm

getting sick and tired of blogging when there will be so many issues about what i say or what's going on in my life...like i once said b4...a blog..is a medium for smone to rant , vent their frustrations or share their happiness but it does not mean that it's challenging anyone or trying to debate over issues in life...

smtimes i tink..is it really so difficult for ppl to understand me or my intentions? why is it that..i'm often mistaken for smthing i've not done or smthing i've done without any intentions to provoke anyone? i just wanna voice out my inner emotions..smtimes which is rather difficult to do it with smone personally or rather face-to-face. smtimes...it's nt that i dun wish to say it out loud...but it's difficult...and there will always be some unknown reasons which will hold me back..i guess it's just humane to feel this way yar? dun u ppl feel this way too? i totally agree with smone, that there will always be some secrets we will keep until we die..as it will not make any difference if the secrets are exposed...maybe it'll be a better world for me if it remains as it is...coz smtimes...there will be ppl who cannot accept what u wanna say..well..cant blame...everyone has their own point of views..but shouldnt it remain as an advice or suggestion rather than forcing or psychoing me to do things the way u wan it to be coz u think it's rather right?well.. i cant agree that yr advice or suggestion is right..but well..it may not work for me..

everyone's lives are different and things need to be handled in a different perspective...cant always expect ppl to be able to do it yr way...*shrugz* smtimes it just puts me off....and set me thinking yet again....what's a blog for..?

p/s: 'you' is a fictitious character

one of these days

one of these days, i'll try parachuting
one of these days, i'll try bungee jumping
one of these days, i'll go diving beneathe the deep ocean
one of these days, i'll have a garden of roses
one of these days, i'll ride on a white horse
one of these days, i'll visit the moon
one of these days, i'll rear a mini pig
one of these days, i'll swim naked in the pacific ocean
one of these days, i'll hire a male social escort
one of these days, i'll drive a Ferrari across London Bridge
one of these days, i'll be in a movie with Brad Pitt
one of these days, i'll sing a song with jay
one of these days, i'll hold yr hand and walk down the aisle

i'll just be praying i'll have one more day to live..

crap

blahblah

ok...went for check up..free by AIG..conducted in office...dunno why...arm had bruise after drawing blood..guess i din assert enuff pressure....pic taken on fri..nw the bruise is much worse...gross...

ok...this is the bouquet jim got for mi.....nice huh?keke

small wish.....

jay zhou's new album is out!! hahaha...i wan.......................................................will my fairy god mother place it beside my bed tonight? haahha

when will it be gone?

went for yoga on fri...it was good..soothe my mind...calm my emotions..it was a gd one hr session..when everything seemed to be gone..however, reality came crashing in after that...

saturday,rcvd smthing from jim...thanks..you're so nice.... =) but was kinda embarassed when everyone started asking mi who the flowers were from..haha..anyway...2yrs liao...everything is still the same isnt it? really glad i have u in my life....thanks for everything...you're always there to listen to my nagging,complains and never ending nonsense......

chalet..was supposed to be gd..but it wasnt. went totally wrong..wish i could turn back time..embarassed myself...totally..was out of control..went hysterical..sat in toilet for god noes how long...was dehydrated...for the first time...it went this bad....for the first time...i couldnt stop..for the first time...it happend in front of everyone...but glad it is well now....marl,eddie....love you two.........really really gonna cherish the both of u.....................love love.

time is up....what is it going to be..seriously...i still dunno......

and sorry ash for nt being able to reply to yr smses...hp low batt..and apparently....some unfortunate events happened....私は残念である

yawnzZzzz

coreen is back!!!

kinda like this pic...

lol...gosh....lol

cant understand

i remembered the times when i was scolded for selective reading...now i dun understand why others can do it and why cant i? perhaps for this case, i cant call it selective reading la...but they are only concerned about my love life..i cant see concern when i was complaining hw bad my backache was...or how stress i am abt my family or work...all i get after posting certain issues are rantings!! hey dudes...enuff la ok......u are not sick of it..i am sick of it.......get it....why i blog is not for you come ranting after reading it...i have enuff of issues happening to me and all i fucking get is your shit?

be sensible...know when to rant to the right ppl and when not to....and u can fucking read from my blog that i am definitely not in the best of mood...so..i am definitely not the right person for you to choose ranting and flaring to...my life is difficult enuff and i really dun need anyone anymore to add on to it...thanks but no thanks!

ps: does not replying on msn while in busy/away status means i am rude? can anyone enlighten me? *smirks*

hey gurls..agree?

For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free.

Here's an update for you: Nowadays, 80% of women are against marriage,
WHY?
Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage.
1. Men are like ... Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you.
2. Men are like.....Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ......Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like .......Blenders .... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like .....Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like ....Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like ...... Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like ..... Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like ......Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11 Men are like... Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like ....... Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like Parking Spots ......... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

nerve breaking

marlia baby...thanks for being there..always...love ya darling... noe u wanna kill soon..but dun ok...before u have the chance i'd probably be dead..would have killed myself...

anyway..i realli duno whats going on anymore...kinda confused...very instead...it's like....it comes one after another...without giving me a break..it's more than a 3hit combo...i'm left with this teeny weeny bit of patience..that cannot withstand continuous attacks..gonna burst..in fact i did...but shall try again..dun disappoint me....thanks.

like what marlia always say... GO! GO! GO!

love.ciumz.

in pain

gosh..my back still hurts..it's really irritating me...no amount of medicated oil or pain killers help...gonna wait for one more day..and i'll be off to the doctor...dun wanna risk my life like tt...esp after hearing the word paralyse......goshgoshgosh...

watching america's nx top model..i wunder...do u have just have to be skinny to be a model??but gotta agree that most of them are photogenic....nah..not a topic i wanna engage in anywayz..

right....i dunno why but i cant be bothered to tok much nw..just afraid whatever i say will offend anyone...be it the tone of my voice or words i use...shrugz...more pics...

singing madness

managed to meet up with the gals on sat, miss them so..it's been long..really cant rem the last time i met katty..went to cineleisure Kbox for a near 5hrs of singing..madness....anyway..more to come yeah?

katty..my 'lover'

ailin...drinking my yuen yang *coffee mixed with tea*

thick toast with condensed milk and peanut butter

breaking..

nth much to say..just feeling tired...went for the auditon but of coz...was too scared to sing properly..and..out! hahaha..but it was definitely an experience..the queue, the waiting and looking at so many 'ghosts' taking part...7th mth is not over i m sure...the gals were dressed to kill..literally kill..ppl will die of heart attack...keke

gosh...sprained my back...or rather..the area below my neck...making mi grouchy and moody...i cant turn my freaking head at all...rather pissing mi off....sigh...went driving...the normally talkative me...kept quiet throughout the lesson..and i think the instructor fell aslp serveral times..man..he realli trust me...walked in the rain for about 10mins before i can find a cab...have a strong feeling i am goin to fall sick...yet again....

gonna crash nw....for awhile......

goonz

3 hit combo

felt like i was playing the street fighter game...3hit combo in a day...first..mum informed tt my grand-aunt passed away..second..quarrelled with the guys...third...need to send dad to hospital..never mind...smone can still think i am using my dad as an excuse when i dun wanna get engaged in a conversation where he/she wanna find out smthing from mi...farked up...

anyway...the second had been solved...thank god...dad..better i think...shrugz...first..cant change the fact she passed away...rest in peace....

i noe u've apologised for yr actions..but sorry..i still cant accept the fact u think i used my dad as excuse..thanks but pls...i m nt heartless....

batam batam

getting ready for go-kart..the helmets stink..

the men...

messy messy

we both look short in the pic eh...

picsy

almost look alike..joyce wee and marlia wee


abang kotek's new mp3 player

happy~!! of coz la...her fav sushi

ok..she tot my nose was sushi..

batam trip...summary

alamak..i'm lazy to write much abt the trip alrdy...ok..continue abit...went for seafood lunch..apparently it sux..nvm...prawns are like shrimps...fish is like biscuits...nvm..but hungry la...no choice...gobbled the food down without thinking too much..went for shopping at the mega mall...but didnt shop..had coffee at the cafe...smoked..yes..in the mall..shiok....(singapore..this one cannot tt one cannot...*shakes head*)...came back to sin...slept throughout...was...dead tired....saw flies flying ard before falling aslp..but couldnt care much...opps...smone said i snored a lil...hahaha...aiya...tired what!!!! keke..full of excuses...overall...trip was good...with good company...

had my driving lesson yest....good...but keep turning round n round in the carpark...hands went numb...went out to the road...was cool....but keep forgetting to clutch...lol...i think engine stalled...cant rem...dun wanna rem this kinda malu thing anyway...nx lesson on sunday...looking forward..cant wait to get my license...and lay my hands on dunno dunno what car...hope it'll be...subaru wrx or accord!!!! hahahahah wait long long...

had dinner with marlia...sushi!! salmon salmon and more salmon..ooo and tried smoked duck sushi....mmmm...yummy.....was supposed to shop but...pondering if i shd get the dress for karen's wedding...and i wanna get my shoes too!!!!!! maybe going town tmr with her again...shall see how...and damn it........growing fat....once again.....................hate itt!!!!!!!!! joyce..pls stop eating!!! and marlia...stop tempting me~~!!!!! and stop cancelling gym!!!! hahahahah

batam batam

just returned from batam trip..it was real fun!! alright..a short draft of the itinerary..
met at abacus plaze at 7am...right..had slight difficulty waking up coz apparently..got home onli about 230am?and slept at 4!!was at holland village..a cafe called settlers..played board games..lol..not bad...healthy and it was only 9bucks per pax..with free flow of soft drinks..ok..fine..side tracked..ok..had chartered a coach bus to send us to harbourfront..and of coz...there are late comers!! whats new right? reached harbourfront only at about 815!!! sweetie marlia bought breakfast for me..so nice...but shared with abang la..he hungry...what to do...and the most impt thing...zan missed the ferry and gotta take the nx one there! sigh..overslept la...called her from 6am...managed to answer the call only at 7am la!!! i tried my best....

first stop at batam is hotel 89!! hahaha..not hotel 81's sister ok?keke...half the group went for the spa and massage there...the rest of us proceeded to waterfront city for watersports..though it was like drizzling..we still went ahead...just dun wanna miss the chance..they have bananaboat and jetski there...didnt want to play anything coz it's actually a lil ex..but decided to play bananaboat....5 to a banana...hahah..mi and marlia went ahead with 3others..one of them...a 13 yr old boy(ashwyn)..colleague's son..keke...sabo king!!! apparently..we tot it's just a normal ride...but!!! the driver of the speedboat asked if we wanna have it capsized...gosh...before we can say anything..the sabo king alrdy said ok...the first capsize wasnt too bad...though u will be gushed out far away from the banana itself..becuz of the current...drank lotsa sea water...second time....ashwyn's head hit marlia's stomach...poor gal...must be painful...the ride ended..guess what...we went for second round..this time with marlia, ashwn and shaf..and also one sabosabo king..colleague's bf...lol...damn hilarious la!! shaf was trying to be funny behind me...keep bouncing his body on the banana...and making noises...who noes..suddenly..it became quiet..i looked back..gosh...lol..he fell into the sea..rest of us just couldnt stop laughing...thinking of it makes mi laugh again..but this time round..it wasnt tt good huh..the second capsize..my head hit marlia's stomach..or rather..ribcage...i went slightly blacked out...concussion..and she couldnt breathe...we had to be sent back to shore on the speedboat...terrible experience but still fun...had a cut on my back..and a bruise on my knees..shaf had a few cuts on his knees as well...poor us....sobz

anyway...body aching...to be continued...lol

those were the days..it hurts

dun hear dun see dun speak
yeah!! just watch Goal..
right..we killed a fly..

standard act cute pose
no more dessert.....sad
mad man.........
miss them.................................................

not u not me

with regard to my previous blog,i shall remain silent on who the person/s i am referring to....sorry if i hurt anyone...but i am hurt badly as well...i cant take the fact that i've lost/losing smone who used to be so close to me....what to do...i'm weak emotionally...shrugz...

tmr's friday...what am i going to do..? dunno...saturday..may be accompanying marlia and stay over at abang's place...then go batam on sun....cant wait.....hope nothing will ruin the fun...

ciao

am i stuck in 1990?

have a lil time to sit and concentrate typing...well...read marlia's blog...guess she is right..we are in an era where we shouldnt be so calculative among frens anymore..life is short..you never know when's yr last day on earth..so why not just live happily with everyone ard you..rather than keep pin pointing at one another at their faults or weaknesses...who is perfect anyway? and i think...we dont have the time to bear grudges anymore...do you want to only forgive a person only on the day u die?wont it be far too late?

some ppl may want to shut themselves out from the rest of the world becuz of their personal problems..thinking confidently that 'hey i can survive!!' whole load of bullshit..yeah u can for the time being..but hw long can you last?! u think what...you're one of the cast in 'survivors'?? even in survivors u need to practise team work!!

it's true..had expected a day will come when ppl ask mi..'hey why is she/he not hanging ard with you anymore? tot u used to be very close? oh why? coz u have new fren right?!' WTF??!?! u think secondary school ah!?!? tell u ppl frankly!! i dont have all the time in the world anymore to be like that ok!!! and i am the fucking type of person who cherish everyone ard me..EVERYONE!!! no matter what happens..i will put in the bloody effort to make things work...the only thing which will make mi give up is hearing that the other party dont fucking give a damn/cant be bothered!!! why should i even put in effort in smthing which will never work out!?!? yeah..smone told me before...being nice and sincere to smone..do not expect any returns...but heyheyhey!~ i am NT asking for returns..i just want to noe that i din put in effort for nothing or when ppl dun appreciate it at all!!!! it's a two fucking different thing..for this time..i noe i've tried..but if you still wanna remain like that...fine with me..serious...as long as u re happy...i'm happy...i'm not trying to be selfish here...but come on....just do as you deem fit yeah!!! but dun come and fucking throw tantrums or gimme attitude for things we've not done to you. bear that in mind..everyone has their limits..once it's up...i'll blow...ppl ard me should noe mi fairly well..i'm the type of gal who will be direct and straight forward.. if up to today..i've not spoken a word or made any remarks in your face...means..i do care alot for you..your feelings..but pls dun take it for granted...

alright..time for happy moments...cant wait for the batam trip this sunday..hope itll be fun...and of coz!! will be on leave from 4sept to 7 sept..planning a short getaway with marlia...where shd we go...hmm...KL?(yes i noe again but wth..with diff partner what..it doesnt matter where u go actually) redang or krabi? haha...and it's also time to take my driving lessons...argh...lazy...

sorry guys if i cursed and sweared too much..but..just cant take it when such things happen.....alright...ciao...muackz

oh yeah...look at the tuna bread marlia made for me yesterday..so kawaii..gonna prepare breakfast for her tmr...ciumz

finally..a time without torture

went cycling at east coast park earlier...damn..it was...well....tiring...lack of exercise la...what to do...growing old too...caught some shots of sand castle building event...check it out.


the men at work

cool huh..

my bicycle...keke


i love this one...it's so cute...all the kids busy at work...