A Garden of Dreams: April 2007

seems like it was yesterday when i saw your face
you told me how proud you were but i walked away
if only i knew what i know today
i would hold you in my arms i would take away the pain
thank you for all you've done
forgive all your mistakes
there's nothing i wanna doto hear your voice again
sometimes i want to call you but i know you won't be there

i'm sorry for blaming you for everything i just couldn't do
and i hurt myself by hating you

somedays i feel broke inside but i won't admit
sometimes i just want to hide 'cause it's you i miss
you know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
would you tell me i was wrong?
would you help me understand?
are you looking down upon me?
are you proud of who i am?

there's nothing i want to do to have just one more chance
to look into your eyes and see you looking back
i'm sorry for blaming you for everything i just couldn't do
and i've had myself

if i had just one more day, i would tell you how much that
i've missed you since you've been away
oh, it's dangerous
it's so i'm afraid to try to turn back time
i'm sorry for blaming you for everything i just couldn't do
and i've had myself by hurting you

a year has passed yet again..now..already celebrating my 24th bday...wow...time passes real quick and man really grow old fast...

had my bday celebration at milo dinosaur's house last night...theme of party is slumber party but of cuz not all of them complied to tt....had a western course bbq...each of us half a chicken, soup of the day, mashed potatoes, salad (courtesy of my mum's fren) and cheese sausages.

so here goes the story....

woke up at 11..only to find out from mum tt salad's nt ready..so gotta wait..was actually supposed to reach sis's hse at 1pm but reach onli like 2 plus lor..drove to pick dinosaur and matt at yew tee mrt..poor things..was starving and weak when we picked them up..matt's stomach was eating itself alrdy...hahaha...so we headed to jurong point for marketing..had lunch at Mos burger when shaun n andrew joined us....sis n i finished the food faster so we headed to NTUC to get the food first..boys nowadays eat like girls..sigh...anyway..we also bought a bottle of strawberry sparkling wine...and too much drinks.. (milo benefits cuz all the drinks are his nw)..hahah...anyways...rushed back to milo's hse to chop the chicken and marinate it..of cuz..it's matt's job cuz he's the chef...watched him chop up the chicken but cant stop shaking my head cuz first of all..the chopper's nt sharp..secondly, his aiming skills damn jia lat!! cannot aim properly!! hahaha..let's take a look...

poor chicken....

nx...after chopping it, it's marinating time!! a combi of butter, mixed herbs and roast chicken seasoning. the smell is indeed appetising..

those feet u can see..are for shaun...washing them are kinda disturbing...esp when u can feel the texture..it's gross...really...

marinating was done at about 630..so all of us got changed..into our PJs!!!!but i think only mine looks like traditional PJ lor!! the rest cheated!!!!

on the left is matu with his chicken seller pj which isnt a pj afterall...

on the right..andrew and shaun..with their singlets and boxers..nicee....but nt pj enuff...

on the left..milo with his jersey pj? omg..do u even call it pj??? NO LA!! but looks cute with my piggy slippers..

on the right..tt's me!!! with my tweety bird pj and my piggy slipper!!! this is the right dresscode ok!

on the left.sis and bro-in-law..with the couple pjs

on the right..jinrong with his usual singlet and uncle pants..i din noe actually he's always wearing his pjs out...kekeke and lionel was wearing t-shirt n shorts...

now it's time to start the cooking!! sis, bro, milo and i prepared the soup and mashed potato...hmm nice..and the guys downstairs cooking chicken will be jinrong and matt..shaun and andrew..i dunno leh..setting table i think..

finally..when it's time to eat...and when all of us started to cut the chicken...a remark from bro scared all of us...hahah..'hmm..my chicken not cooked!' hahah..then the nx second..the rest of us started checking our chicken and realised all not cooked properly!!! hahaah..matt was kinda sad abt it..coz his task was not done properly..i think for any chef in the world..they will feel demoralised if they failed in their cooking la...but nevertheless..we are patient and waited for the second round of cooking..this time with my bro's help..i cant rem if it was successful the second time round..i think it didnt and they had to cook it the third time..actually cant really blame matt la..it's difficult to cook such big piece of chicken..so give him credits la hor...for his efforts...though after the last round of cooking the chicken was a bit burnt with some raw parts, the flavour of the herbs is still there..nice...

next up...after dinner..yes..it's none other than sabo time...this time is different...they actually blind folded mi with a tie...and their plan was to let mi taste or feel some food stuff and i have to guess wat food tt is...and wat they did was..they had covered the original taste of the food they gave me..to make it tougher for me to guess..at that moment of time...i was kinda panicky tt they will gimme worms..smthing i totally hate and fear of...and of cuz i did warn them tt i will cry if they gimme worms...though they ensured they are giving mi edible food..i still suspect...

being blind folded and eating or touching smthing u dunno is really freaky la...so being blind to the world is indeed scary..world of darkness....here are some stuff they gave mi to eat..

firstly..i tasted salted fish..original flavour..then salted veg with lemon!!! INSANE!!!! sick ppl!!

then comes pig liver with covered with coffee...i tell u..it's gross!!! and the last...the sickest among all!! freaking sweet with a grasshopper in it!!!! wah lau..and i freaking put the whole piece into my mouth la!!! and even bit off some parts!!! wahwahwah..sick ppl!!! esp with my sis eeeeing and ewwwing makes things worse la!!! basically they got mi alllll the food tt i dun eat la!!! must be sis's ideas!!!!duh duh duh!!

nx up on the agenda...cake cutting time and of cuz cake smacking time...they got mi a cake from crystal jade but i dunno why it's triangular..and wats more with 'you tiao' inside..lol...