if i were you..

I'm tryin' to protect you
From the lies that your heart tells
Even though it says that you love me
All I see is pain and misery
Seasons may change
But I can't forget the days of old
My heart ached when you walked away
I said I'd never love again

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cuz my heart has given up

if i were you......what am i?what do i want from myself?i want smting that doesnt exist and will never come...smthing unrealistic...smthing i'm only dreamin of...when will i wake up from this dream?who will wake mi up?do i realli wan to wake up and face this world...a world with lots of uncertainties...and disappointments....i have enough....maybe....i shd just sleep forever....

Cutie Bootie~

bowling day...had real fun today...though Cutie Bootie lost terribly..it's just the participation and time spent with those funky ppl ard me tt's impt. went to coffee shop at tamp near st hilda's to have light lunch and drinks...couldn't decide where to proceed next..in the end..shafie,zan and i went to tamp mall..wanting to catch a show but....long QUEUE!! what to do...DVC is too pop man...so we walked ard (like as if we are not sick of tamp)...and went to play pool at tamp pavilion...it's cute to see zan learning pool...just like a little gal...WoooOo HoooOO...trashed Shafie twice but i guess it's pure luck...or maybe its the lillard practice yesterday..oh yeah..and went kim seng bowl yesterday to practice for my bowling!!!!hahah in the end...cannot make it..but better than yest~! haha..thanks matt!! this time i didnt kick the bowling ball!!!


opps side tracked alrdy...kk..after pool we went to have dinner at tamp mall and had the 'though lost' carona chicken rice..lol...nvm..lame...anyway..we are suppose to go home afetr dinner...ended up talking and taking insane pics near the mrt station..lol..realli insane day...2 gals and a man...a father a mother and a daughter...LAME....lol....shaf and zan will noe what i am talking about...heheheh...right darlings~...kekek...

hey found this at zan's blog....check it out...acronyms of my name

J : Jolly
O : Orderly
Y : Young
C : Clumsy
E : Entertaining

smthing wrong with the html...nvm...rough idea of what it is la hor...anyway...sian...gotta work the nightmare shift 11-8 again nx wk..off on friday...may haf a camping outing with the peeps on sat night but well...it solely depends on sm ppl...hehe..k...GTG...AND OH SHIT!!!! I'VE GOT A COLD SORE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

self-denial syndrome

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

who doesnt wanna be happy all their lives coz we only live once?why must humans get hurt again and again?who likes to be lonely and not have anyone ard them?but smtimes...even if we have everything....we'll still feel empty. humans are plain selfish...i admit i am as well...but why are we selfish? simply becoz we want to have a happy life...but when others are selfish towards to...you wont be agrreable tt they just wanna be happy...this is life's contradiction....and everyone lives with it...

离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情
我一定让自己
让自己决定
smtimws after losing smthing...will we really realise that we are happier?how long must we take in order to realise that...how about the pain u have to bear during this period of time?it's true that this is part and parcel of life...but...humans are like tt...they cannot accept it when they have to go through this pain...and will fall into the trap again...who can they blame but themselves. The hard truth is....we will never blame ourselves isnt it? We're always perfect in our own eyes...when others question about yr flaws..you'll never agree to them. Will life really be more beautiful in the other side of the world?Or it's just us...who cant see hw beautiful this world is?many of us are blinded by the slight imperfections and can never see the picture of the whole world...

many of us are selfish to the extent that...we want the best of two worlds...but never do we realise that it's never possible...u have to live in one...then will you be able to leave this world and move on to the other...but u can never...have two at the same time...no matter hw lousy or farked up one of the worlds can be...it's a living experience..and u will never noe that it's actually much better than the other world you are dying to go to...only then will u regret yr decisions...but for some people...they will insist that there will be no regrets...but inside them...they are feeling some kinda pain which they will never realise...the self-denial syndrome u call that...