merry christmas!!

just a very short blog tonight...coz gotta slp soon...wking tmr at 8am~!! sucky huh...it's a public hol and i'm wking!!

anyway...christmas is over...went to church today with matt...can realli feel the christmas joy as we sang the christmas carols..the carols simply touched my heart and i can feel the warmth and the love God has given me...right...i noe i am getting a lil religious here but..yeah..wanna thank God for everything i have right nw...and i pray tt everything is well for everyone ard me as well..

Merry Christmas!!!!

love all of you~

xmas is near

we wish you a merry christmas...lala....christmas...the festive season to care and share..caring for yr family and frens...sharing whatever u have with those who dun...it's my fav season and festive of the yr...it gives me a very peaceful feeling...a day when i lk forward to every yr...

17th dec...had a bbq with all my frens to celebrate xmas earlier...wel..guess everyone will have their dates on xmas eve and xmas day...had fun...fun as in...it's been long since a grp of us do things tog..like cooking...drinking...cleaning up even...haha..played games like we wanna turn back time and be like those kids...trouble free...no heartaches...haha... still rem the game we played... she mo??! huh?! hahahah

been feeling down recently...heart feels very heavy and it's aching until today..it is a time...which i hate the most...never wanna go thru it again...but it will always happen...when will this heartache of mine go away...wat do i realli wan...and what can i do to make it fade?i'm a confused woman...lost and cold...seeking comfort and warmth whenever i can...

and i thank those...who gave mi that.....thank you for the time....and the love....the comfort..the warmth...the laughter..the joy...and the peace....which you ppl gave me....when i am lost and cold....and i thank God...for making this day for me...and for bringing these ppl into my life......i love all of you...really..

know abt mi

hey ppls...gotta noe this cool webby from my colleague...to check out your horoscopes..not tt i am superstitious but...yeah...it's realli very accurate!! take a look at the webby and check out my result..a chance to noe mi more~!

Sun in Aries:She has a strong personality and an entrepreneurial spirit. She is ambitious and self-willed, stubborn, obstinate and tenacious.

Weaknesses: nervousness, impulsiveness, wastefulness, provoking nature, restlessness and changeability.

Ascendant in Cancer: She will certainly have a large family. Indeed, family life, the home, the children will be very important for her.

god....large family??? though i am born in the yr of the pig but doesnt mean i wan a big family ok!!!! think wat.... sow ah!?!?! kao...insane...go try it out guys..and see if it's accuratefor you ppl

www.interactive.0800-horoscope.com -->> click on birth chart and start knowing yrself even more...

going bonkers

wow...it's a saturday today and hey! i'm wide awake nw!guess wat..i'm supposed to be wking today...at 8am...but gosh i overslept..maybe i am too tired after yesterday night's 'outing' at excape theme park...sheesh...i'm such a coward and yet i went to play those rides...like mini viking...the flume ride( the ride which you will slide down and water will splash?)haha..gawd...i sat tt with karen(colleague) and we tot that it was over after the first mini slide...the 'boat' flowed realli slowly towards the gate of the HUMONGOUS slide!! we werent even prepared for it!!!! we started to scream and laughed hysterically right after the boat started to go up! hahah...and yeah..u can imagine us once the boat reached the peak and DOWN it slided!!! i screamed like i was raped or smthing? gawd....we were really drenched!! i was wearing jeans...had to walk ard in heavy jeans..yeah...as usual...my 'sugar daddy' carlo laughed at mi like hell...wat to do.....it was realli HIGH wat....keke...hmm..too bad couldnt stay over at our chalet last night...coz gotta work today..but.....yeah......i'm at hm in the end....

will be having a bbq later at the chalet with my colleagues and will be staying over tonight...hmm..still thinking of wat we can do after the bbq..explore haunted plcs like what teenagers will do? hahah...but we are old!!! lame....but stil...i'll be scared...hahah...coward i am...well...will updte soon again after the bbq..tt is if i remember though...hahah

influence

just so happen to read my fren's blog...kinda sad tt in life..you will actually have to stop and think of who are yr real frens..but tt's just life...there are always new ppl entering yr life...but there will be people who leave you as well...life's a cycle...tt nobody can escape or avoid..it just depends on hw u handle it..if you do it good...GOOD for you...otherwise...then too bad...but duh...life has to go on...you can whine abt it for wks and mths..but wth...you will get tired of it..people ard you gets sick of it too...frens....once u decided yr path in life....live and walk thru it happily..there's no point in regretting....never have the word Regret in your dictionary!!

frens in general...are ppl who spend time with you doing nonsensical things...there's actually no need to grp or classify frens into diff categories...coz...u will never noe what each and every one of your frens can do for you...yeah true enuff that smtimes yr frens may act or behave in a childish way...or maybe...to you...they will only be there to have fun tog and run off when u are in trouble...tts nt true yeah..coz...in the first plc...did u even try to seek help from them? coz well..at least to me...my frens are always there for mi in times of happiness and of coz...when i am down....yes...it's the same grp of ppl....so why nt try to open up to them...then...judge if they are truly worth yr frenship...

does anyone have this feeling b4...tt...u so dun wish to be pissed coz u noe tt there is no point in doing so becoz this isnt the first time anymore but eventually u still get pissed?cant blame u...coz..this kinda of feeling is totally uncontrollable...if u wanna get pissed there and then...den pls get pissed for all you wan...dun bottle yr emotions up and...in the end...become a time bomb and kill everyone ard you together....why sacrifice all yr frens or family or even strangers and acquintances?but the main point is...after getting pissed...you will know hw to cool off and tok things out with the culprit or to get some help from other sources to solve your problem...simple huh...but it does help...though it does nt guarantee tt it works...get the difference....

was tokking to one of my frens...via msn...suddenly we switched to a topic abt vampires...he hoped tt he will become one coz he will be able to live forever...and he will of coz bite the one he loves so that she can live with him forever...nw here...i have a different point of view..i will wanna die b4 my love...i cant imagine what my life will be without a partner or what life will be having to live alone....he said tt that is a selfish thought coz i never think of hw and the kinda of life the one i love will be living after i die..well...which human being isnt selfish...which human being are generous enuff to share the love with another party...get wat i am trying to say...it means tt...which r/s consist of 3 ppl?nw...this is getting out of point...i shall stop.....

human beings love it when they are given assurance...and they will tend to pin high hopes but in the end...disappointed....u cant blame the person who assured you in the first plc...they did nt say tt it's got 'money back guarantee' right...get wat i mean...dun pin high hopes...coz eventually the one who has to face the disappointments is u!!

the end...my eyes..are shutting......

life's a bitch

today is a thursday...finished work at 10pm..slogged like hell..nobody noes..got home...finally...sat down comfotably in front of the com..yes..again....got online...tot could find sm frens to relax and have a chat...saw matt...msged him and asked hw's his day....meiting msged mi.....tot there will be smthing nice to hear from her...but guess wat...it's yet another scandalous affair her superior has....just few wks ago...she told mi abt the affair our common fren's hubby has got....it's another one nw....

the kinda of feeling in mi is just so indescribale....it juz sounds so ridiculous when i'm getting to noe more n more abt such scandalous news...at first i tot tt my family is bad enuff..i mean the men yeah...but...it seems like it's the same for the world outside my life...

in a woman's life...it seems like we are juz born into this world to be slaves...why do i say tt? well look....we are born...u are lucky if yr father's family isnt those conservative type...u noe wat i mean...they prefer male heir..if u are a gal....tts it....they wun even wanna treat u as their grandchildren yeah...slowly...you grew...to be a girl...studystudystudy...parents comparing results...curfews...' gal ah...wat time alrdy??better come hm NW!'...guess alot of us gals experience tt yeah...pagers beeping non stop(well tt was when i was a sch gal)..mums screaming at the top of their voices like they wanna make the whole flat collaspe..nx stage....grew up to be teenagers...when well of coz...like many others..started to fall in love with teenage boys...tts when yr mum get even more freaky..i mean..they get freaked out easily if they find out u are attached!!lucky u if u manage to find a guy who is sweety oh sweet and your r/s last till marriage...but wtf....most of the time u have to experience getting ditched and the pain...omg.....cried non stop...gotta suffer with swollen eyes...and becoming the gossip of the mth in sch....well...wat the hell...

nx...u start to work....workworkworkwork...tts all we can do....getting stressed up and all..nobody to tok to...mum will just keep nagging at you for nth...i think it's just their hobby?it's also a time when u will start worrying when u can find a husband and get married...well...one fine day...u found the 'one'...at first u tot he will be...first stage u have to undergo is to meet yr mother in law who may be a witch!!!! lucky u if she isnt then...and then...happily married for a few yrs..have kids...u just tot tts life..the way it shd be.......gosh...one day...u found out smthing...smthing tt u tot will never happen to u or it'll juz happen in dramas...you found tt he has.......yes......another woman.....GOD DAMN IT!!! and if u are lucky enuff...he'll leave the woman and you will live happily ever after...but....wat if he chooses to be with tt bitch??? worse still...he'll choose to leave the kids too...gosh...wat on earth are u still doing here?shdnt u be in hell?

life...wat is it?torment?or gift from God?

trying to be a philosopher

kinda forgot i still have a blog until matt reminded me last night while chilling out at coffee club.so it's time to remind my frens tt i'm still ard...past two mths was a fulfilling one..went through alot of shit and of coz there are many things tt will leave as a memory in my life. my life was practically revolving ard my grp of close frens and of coz jo. bumming ard after work or over the wkends enjoying the free time i have other than just work where i feel like i'm a slave to this world. like wat weiliang said in his blog, office jobs are indeed mandane..the life to be exact. you only see these few ppl everyday, nth more to say to one another other than bitching abt other colleagues or tt the company is dumb. is this the kind of life i really want? now i'm thinking. finally started to think.the truth will be out smday....whenever tt will be...

smone new just entered my life...dunno if it is a gd thing or it's screwing up my life(perhaps i am the one screwing my own life). of coz there are times when i feel really wonderful and i cant feel anyone else ard me other than my precious one...i would want to give up everything just to carry on this r/s. but however, life always has it's downhill where once you lost control, you will fall and get hurt real bad...this is the time when u will be so weak to stand up strong again. without a helping hand, you will just sit on the ground,whining and cursing and get stuck there. God knows when you'll stand again. When we were just babies, we were able to stand up again after a fall while learning to walk. But why does life have to be this way 22yrs later?did we depend on our mothers bak then and now that we are facing this shit again we do not know where to get help from even though obviously wat you need to do is just to call out and there will be ppl rushing to provide you with the assistance you need and to shower you with the care and concern you need but we just dunno hw to call out anymore? is it becoz you feel ashamed to do tt or u dun trust the ppl ard you?

quarrels are unavoidable in every r/s.but at the end of the day,the most impt thing is whether you learn smthing through it. promises are meant to be kept but wat the hell, promises are broken everyday too. the proportion to the ones kept and to the ones broken are way too far apart, obviously i'm saying tt the ones broken are much more.why promise smone smthing for the sake of coaxing tt person and you dont mean it?wat do u get from it?the person who gets hurt real bad will be the one who was promised with smthing she/he can never see happening. human beings are funny creatures, we noe for sure that smtimes, smthings will never happen but when we are promised with smthing, we feel assured and comfortable, we will stop being paranoid.and when we realised that the promise had been broken, we will start whining and cursing but have we ever reprimanded ourselves as to why we actually fell for tt in the first place?i think we shd really start adopting the habit of being responsible for watever we had done.is it tt difficult?are promises really so hard to keep?

it's been 2mths since this r/s started, all i can remember is i'm just so happy whenever we spent time together but why does another party has to revolve in our lives and causing friction between the two of us?or am i the one who keeps rubbing things in?would anyone in this world wanna do tt for no reason..but well..at least nt for me...hw long can i tolerate the pressure i face and hw long can i continue to be paranoid and enjoying it at the same time?it's really a test for me....but fear is there...that i wont be able to stand up strong again.......should i just blame myself for all the stress i have to take?will there be help when i need it...?

new start

wOoo HoooO... guess what..this is the first time ever...that i've cut my hair real short...yesh...it's short...went to cut it last sunday at toa payoh with my sis meiting...she had hers cut real short too..but then again..she always has short hair la..lol...we gotta get up much earlier in the morning now to style our hair...which is quite troublesome and hard to manage...well...a new reason for us to be late for work everyday nw..haha...

i'm on 2 days MC..yest and today...having bad cough..infected from meiting and ailin..the doc even gave mi an inhaler...i think he's afraid that i'll get asthma?hhehe...BUT...hahaha...went sentosa yest with meiting...for our tanning session!! but damn...we reached there onli at abt 3...lol..not much sun..but still a lil tanned la...we were posing like mad gals on the beach to have our pics taken...hahaha...damn hilarious...after tanning...we were to have our dinner at the hawker centre at the interchange...lol...ate like gluttons...had one bowl of lor mee each and shared a big plate of indian rojak...haha...it's juz right for us..we can realli eat...

we made our way to suntec city after dinner...shopped a lil...and decided to meet jo and ling for dessert at nydc...yeah...after a heavy meal...we're still having dessert k...met them at nydc...shared cookie monster mudpie with meiting..super heavenly...feel like having it again...haha....no doubts tat i'm a glutton..hmm..felt a little weird as ling was showing a lil attitude to jo la...but then again...nah...enjoying my dessert..cant realli be bothered abt it...

next...we met ailin aft dessert and went starbucks for drinks....no more food this time...ailin wanted to have cakes...lol..intro her my fav...warm choc cake...simply.......i dunno hw to describe it though...aft warming the cake..the choc in the centre of the cake will melt...omg....can u imagine the taste when the cake touches yr tongue?next...here comes justin...haha...guess what...he's interested in ailin wor..hahaha...i tried to create a chance for him la..but shit..he's so shy...i think he shd stop pretending...had purposely read out ailin's nbr out loud..hahah...i think he got it...chat a lil...took pics...and decided to go for fireworks show at esplanade with meiting and justin while ailin goes for a movie with her fren at PS...

reached esplanade amd shocked to see soooo many ppl there la! 12 midnight....BOM...lol...fireworks show started....all the ppl who were intially sitting down stood up...blocking our view....sobz....felt so short out of a sudden..lol..but manage to catch a glimpse of the show la...coz the fireworks shot higher into the sky...the sky was filled up with colourful sparks...and of coz...typical singaporeans wooed and wowed...haha...utterly disgusted coz their reactions were all so FAKE! hmm...it was actually quite a romantic sight....the night shd be spent with smone special..but then again..spending it with meiting and justin isnt all that bad...lol..it's just a whole diff feeling...fireworks lasted for like 10mins...went to get drinks from a nearby shop and sat down again for a drink and rotting session...we looked ard and saw the ugly side of singapore....litter everywhere...is sg not providing enuff rubbish bins or singaporeans just have no brains and cant be bothered to think if they are inconsiderate?realli a disgusting side....felt so ashamed for tourists who happened to be there..

well...tats it for the day...after rotting with both of them...head off for home...haha...justin...if you are readin this..i din sabo you ok....dun threaten mi ah! hahahaah

initial D..!!

hey hey...wow...went to catch initial D last night at balestier...as expected...it was great man! all the mod cars and drifting down and up hill through those really sharp bends...it was crazy! all the excitement i felt while watching it...wanted so much to be in one of the cars...hahah...and of coz..all the excitement is caused by none other than my fav artist...JAY ZHOU!!! hahahah...so cool!!! hmm..though i sound like a small girl now..but...what the hell....i dun care!!! highly recommended movie!now i'm just waiting for the dvd to be out soon~!! i'll be the first to grab one!!

went to catch the show with one of my frens edwin and his van craz forum frens....and..i can say they are a little crazy...crazy with modifying their vans...with splendid sound systems...but yest wasnt tat fantastic as onli 6 vans were out....heard from edwin 30 over vans were convoying last sat rounding ard Singapore....lol...what a sight it will be...cars are common...but vans...hmmm....wanna catch a glimpse when i haf the chance..hahah....

shall update on happening stuff soon...

it's time to update a little

GSS= great singapore sales!! wOoooO HooOo..totally broke becoz of it!! absolutely insane over it...but then again...i admit...women are crazy shoppers!! the streets in town are occupied with shoppers...nearly thought it is christmas already~

bought stuff like a new pair of levi's jeans...a top from future state...hmm...a new pair of shoes...haha...tats all la...hmm...doesnt sound insane enuff right...orh yeah!! bought a stila eyeliner cum eye shadow as well...hehe...can still remember the 'gay' working there at the counter....he drew my eyes for mi..hands so smooth...but he has BAD..pungent breath...nearly blacked out because of it....haha..tats totally exegerrating....but i really think he shd do smthing about it...he'll scare away many customers...

met up with the ever so delicious babe caline....hahah...hmm..she bought a nice pair of earrings and a pearl necklace for me...thankz babe....gonna use it very soon...but come to think of it...we can really walk huh...from taka to centrepoint to ck tang and then to PS...wow...tats alot of walking indeed....hmm..once again..i posed a super act cute pic for yr hp....and sad to know..i look better in act cute pics than normal ones...but then again..not many ppl can act cute until so cute la...hahaha...madness....

well...nice catching up last night....but...i'm always looking forward to the next chill out session with you...we'll go indo chine for a drink yeah......

argh....sunday again............which means...tmr is monday........blueblueblue

love...

谁爱谁 谁又流干了眼泪
谁后悔 难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁 谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎 谁又该干脆离开
谁爱谁 谁又能反反复覆
谁后悔 谁在忍受着孤独
谁了解 他退出 她孤独
爱得太盲目

dunno why i quoted this but it does seem meaningful to me at least...yeah love is blind...no matter wat kind of person you had fallen for...he/she will always leave the best memories in your life..though smtimes things/sparks may not start off between the two of you..if you had tried your best...it's the best thing that could ever have happened...no matter who he/she loves..at least you had appear and entered into their lives before...

one party always have to suffer in a r/s...one party has to sacrifice...no matter who the person is...it doesnt matter..as long as the ending is a happy one...it's all worth while...

hmm..it's time to make myself believe in wat i had just typed......

WOW!!!

hey ppl...wow..if not for weiliang..i would have forgotten that this blog still exists!! it's been ages man!! kekeke...but the very first thing i wanna write abt is.......i vomitted 5 times yesterday night...yes 5 times...in a row...after eating pizza hut at tamp mall for dinner!! omg....feel so sucky!! and grossed out!! make mi lost my appetite all the way until now!! yes...i'm having disgestive biscuits for dinner...

woOo hOoo...my skin colour is so nice now!! i simply love it...evenly tanned!! spent my sunday afternoon at sentosa!! with the hot sun just above my head...feeling the massage with suntan lotion my fren is giving mi on my back....and the breeze brushing against my hair once in awhile...hearing the lamest jokes by two 'gays'...and having sex talk in the water...lol...it's realli smthing diff huh...will anyone else talk abt sex at the beach???hahahah

went shopping on monday...opps...took mc just to go shopping wor..kekekek....bought a pair of sneakers from adidas...and a pair sandals!!! all thx to those psycho kings and queen...waste money ah!!!! hmm..friday is goin to be the last shopping spree this mth..lol....broke!!

there are juz sooooo mnay things on my list now..keke...oh yeah...and having a hair cut on sat....it's becoming like a furball....hahaha...horrendous!!!hm....feel like cutting it short!!! any suggestions?haha

well well...tats all folks...short and sweet...kekek

everyone's leaving

super low...super affected...two fo my gd buddies are leaving...my fren coreen will be leaving for scotland to work...had know her abt one yr plus...though it's nt a long time..but we got realli close becoz we used to work together..been tru ups and downs..she was there for mi when there was nobody ard mi..when everything turned upside down...now tat she's leaving....i'm realli very sad..i haf no idea when i'll ever see her again...mentioning it juz makes my tears wanna fall..like now...another fren...ah heng...he's leaving too..goin bak to malaysia...super sian...argh
why like tat..one after another...no i mean...together!!!

cant realli take it...just thinking abt it makes mi real sad....i dunno hw long i'll haf to suffer this...suddenly felt so lonely..though i noe i still haf gd frens beside mi...but their decision to leave realli hurts my heart...i'll realli miss those times when we eat...club...watch movie...drink and chill together...damn it...uncontrollable tears rolling down soon....they are the people who were part of my life...now they are leaving...seems like a piece of my flesh wa torn away...yes..it's that painful to mi....i'm realli goin to miss them....alotalot...alot...............

11-8

hey..just wundering..if anyone is still reading my blog..coz i'm super slack now...lazy to type after whole day of typing at work..

well...worked 11-8 shift today..first shift of my one mth plus at work..SUPER boring la...coz i'm the onli one in my team to work this shift..everyone left at 5 and 6...sheesh..sux...took my time to reply those mails...cant be bothered..but luckily...i haf smone to acc mi tmr...nt so bad..though she's well k nown for been the blondie in my team..lolx...smtimes ask stupid questions..but cute la..

HEY!!! went airport to haf swensens juz now...i saw UTT!!!!!!!! wow...he's simply delicious man...felt like eating him up..omg...i juz dunno hw to describe him...tooooo...CUTE!!!wanted to haf a pic taken with him like those desperate fans..but i'm just too shy!! shit...regretting now..damn it...shd haf been a little thick skin huh...argh...a chance has flown away like tat...lolx..nah...enuff of my nonsense...

goin off...just cant find anything interesting to write any further...take care peepz..

wow...

wow...it's been days and days since i haf the time to blog..well..work's been fine..though realli stressful..but managed to cope well with the help of my ever loving,super helpful and totally wunderful team-mates..thankz to them..that i dun find it realli that tough to pass my days..

went to sembawang to haf dinner with caline and jason..hmm..i'm a realli big and bright light bulb...but hey..glad that they dun mind at all..hee..went to Bottle Tree Village to haf our dinner...it's so ulu but yet the crowd there is gd...food is good too..ate crabz..hmm...delicious..it's extremely good esp when u eat it wif man tou...simply heavenly..had talks with them about the problems i'm facing..heard encourgements from them..realli thank them for the time last night..realli had fun...

today is sat...slacking at hm..thinking if i shd step out of the house...dun feel realli good today..as in...emotionally..empty inside..oh..shd i just go out and haf some fresh air?sighz...maybe i shd..staying at hm juz makes mi worse....

thinking of you....

counting down...

it's been another wk...time simply passed so fast...but it seems tat it's never enough for me to finish settling my stuff..maybe they come just one after another so quickly...din even have the time to react properly....work's been tough...and the worse thing is...it hasnt realli started...i'm feeling so tired....had a mock test today...failed terribly i guess...too nervous to even check my notes...yesh it's a open book...mock call test...sianzz..and i was the first to take the goon du test la...sighz...super low morale...though off on first day of cny...but second day gotta work liao la...even worse...

well...tmr is nian chu xi liao...but...it seems that i dun have much mood for this festive occasion...maybe i'm old liao..lolx...collecting ang baos...the joy remained way bak..yrs ago...hmm..maybe i shd just cheer myself up...and enjoy myself the fullest i can..as i dun have much time anyway...hmm..cant wait for the nice food though..lolx..contradicting yar...i'm always self contradicting myself anyway..gotten quite used to it..oh well....gotta do some last min cleaning for my mum....HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR'S EVE EVE!!! hahah

super boring traning

hmm..it's been one wk since i last blogged..well..too tired after work to type much..but come to think again..i din do anything at work leh...it's onli training..learning product knowledge..i guess it was mentally tired rather than physical...fell aslp in class everyday..i wunder if the trainer is boring or i'm the pig...here i am typing...i'm feeling slpy liao...omg...i'm not the usual self...

hmm..went shopping after work today to get a top for cny...walked the whole orchard in my high heels..and now..they're so painful...need a good massage for my back too...shitz...cny is so near liao...and dun haf much festive mood leh...maybe i'm old liao...receiving ang baos is nt tat exciting to mi anymore..but thinking i may gotta work during cny just makes mi sian too...sighz..sickening american company...but then again...got double pay la...sighz...self consolation...

hao la...cannt take it liao...koon liao...tata

first day of work

hm..the last blog was about how i was rejected after the interview...today's blog is to share my first day at work..hee...glad i've found a job and hopefully i'll love it.

well..i'm working in a call centre now...my team is in charge of giving solutions or making reservations for air tix for blur blur customers who call in to the hotline..it's under the program by SIA called Kris Flyer..i'll be undergoing training for 2wks..and within this period of time..i've gotta try to make sure i've learned well enuff to be on the floor..ready to receive calls..it's quite tough...coz there's just so many things to learn..luckily the training wasnt boring..but still....nearly fell asleep..lolx...well..a pig is forever a pig...and one thing tat i was worried abt last night is...eat lunch alone!!! hahah..lucky for mi...my team was a group of super frenly ppl..managed to click with them in a short time...

now..i've gotta try to adjust my body bak to normal..gotta slp early..coz...gotta wake up early..luckily my workplace is onli at tamp..abacus plaza..lolx..just 15mins journey!!yawnz...slping soon........

blue blue blue

been feeling low since i woke up this morning..dunno why..i've been searching for new jobs since last friday...tot i'm lucky to be offered a job..but the company called up my ex com..and i realli dunno wat my ex com told them..that made them change their mind..fuck lor..i did nth wrong and instead my performance was nt bad...kaoz..why the hell they wanna ruin ppl's future??i feel so much wanting to confront them..but wat's the point..i cant get bak that job anymore...i'm so disappointed..nearly broke down when the agent called to tell mi the bad news...argh..felt so lost...guess wat i can do nw is continue to search for other jobs...hopefully i can get one and settle down..feeling so stressed up again...cny is coming very soon...and i'm still stuck here..nowhere...

hope every one of my frens are coping well with their work...realli dun wish to see anyone facing problems like mine...coz it's realli sucky...very very sucky...these past 2 wks plus of the new yr has made mi very tired...should i just take this chance to rest and haf a break?will it be better for me?but still...there are some factors stopping mi from doing that..sighz...i realli dunno wat to say anymore...............

new hair colour

hey..went to the salon to get my hair colour done with caline today..lolx..becoming more like a rock star..haha..my hair now has violet streaks with a dark brown base..my stylist wanted to streak it red for mi..but too bad..gotta go for interviews..so he gotta tone it down a little for me..hmm..i look better now...unlike my old hair colour which was a little too light..makes mi look sick..i look fresher and healthier now..guess how much i spent...$190~!!!!of coz it gotta make mi look better..damn ex lor...a bit heart pain ah...but worth it la...caline has her hair done too...red and orangey streaks with dark brown base too...more vogue than mine..haha...nicely done..and once again..we took pics in centrepoint's toilet...we had analysed...it was the flash light from the cam that activated the censor of the tap...that was why the water started running..hahaha..silly gals..freaked out the other day for no reason..

actually supposed to have a family appt after the visit to the salon..but was cancelled last min..so we decided to go to clarke quay..wanted to watch the match btwn Man U and Liverpool at Brewerks with both of our 'scandals'..lolx..but..we received some rude response from the staff there when we asked for seats outside the restaurant...seemed like they dun welcome us..decided to walk along clarke quay in search of other nice spots..finally...landed up at boat quay and had chinese cuisine for our dinner as well as to watch the match there..but unfortunately..the ambience sux lor..no excitement at all..haha..quickly left the place after eating and went bak to clarke quay...finally settled down at a very cosy pub cum restaurant..had a bottle of Hoegarden..hmm..it's been long..haha..my 'scandal' made a bet on Man U..hahah..and indeed...Man U won~!!!! my fav team..caline was the onli one among the four of us who supports Liverpool..so sad gal..but too bad huh...hahah...after that..we took a cab down to cineleisure to catch a movie..pls peepz...dun waste yr money on Omen ah...sucky lor..sounds scary..oh well...supposed to be a horror show..but...shit...the story line just sux...it's abt a dog coming back after death in form of a human to visit the 3 male leads who took care of it when it was young..utterly crap la..so..pls...save the money to treat mi for dinner instead..hahah..crazy mi..

we walked down all the way to plaza singapura...shared a cab from there..oh..chose the wrong cab coz the uncle just keep complaining to us about the summon he got...buay tahan...but anyway..it was definitely an enjoyable day..

hao la...gotta end here...late liaoz...gdnitez..ZzzZZzz

old woman..

aiyoz..i'm feeling so much like an old woman now..my back's aching like hell...rheumatism..lolx..maybe it's because of the air con here which will freeze people to death..

hmm..feeling a sense of hope..kekeke...just received an email from a company asking me for an interview on friday..wOoOoHOOooo...it's realli fast..just sent out my application this morning..hmm..this company definitely helped to boost my morales coz i lost quite a lot since yesterday..though i've been wondering how much they're willing to offer for mi...but i think got job good enuff liao..but of coz..they cant underpay mi la..hmm..must realli go thank God for helping me..

haha..just helped my colleague to find her tiny winy little ear stud which dropped on our flowery..filthy carpet..hmm..my eyesight is still good man..i realised that coz she's been searching for it for about 5 mins liao..keke..suddenly remembered..went to bugis yest..went to try on 2 pairs of glasses..omg..i look like a teacher (or rather old woman)...lolx..so decent..but i look ugly with a pair of glasses la..lucky i maintained my good eyesight over the years..hah..have been strictly warned since young to take care of them..coz all the adults think i have a nice pair of eyes..will waste it if i wear glasses..*phew*..lucky i succeeded...

arghh...my back....feel as though it's going to break into two..hmm..am i not taking in enuff calcium?i need some milk...lolxXxx...yAwNzz..opps...my tail is comin out again..gotta stuff it back..keke..I WILL BE BACK!

bad mood...

sighz..just heard a realli bad news...i may have to change my stupid job...realli lost my morale...the new partner that my boss is partnering with may not wan to keep us...arghh..wat the hell...i'll know by the end of this month...shit leh...wat a way to start a new year...it realli sucks...make mi feel like goin for full time studies again lor...sianz...but study means no money...gotta work part-time..sux sux sux..how how how....and chinese new year is coming...argghhhh...

stress is coming into mi....and i am very bad at coping with that...is there anyone who can help?the thought of having to look through newspapers and going for interviews just makes mi sick..and tired...i realli hate this...now i have a sudden breaking down feeling inside me..problems just come one after another..it seems like it's never ending..i'm onli 21 and i feel i'm so old..so tired of life...is there anyone in this world, at my age, feeling the same way too?i want so much...a hug from someone who loves mi right now..or even just a word of encouragement will make mi feel better...i'm waiting..patiently...feel so useless in this society..no contributions..but just adding burden to ppl ard mi...my family...my frens...and i'm realli sorry about that...hope i'll be given a chance to repay them...watever i can do...i'll do...i dun mind the difficulties and hardships i'll have to undergo...perhaps..i've gotten used to them...eyes feel heavy with tears...they're soon going to fall..trying my best to keep them back...it's so uncontrollable....but it seems that i don't have a choice..gotta try to be strong..just like in the past...

hm...read through the draft of this post...felt realli sad...not going to write any further..it'll just makes mi drown further..into the bottomless ocean inside my heart....

one ice milo pls...

hey peepz...good morning..hee..just ordered one ice milo..though the aircon and the weather is soon freezing me to death..i dun care~!! lolx..i have my shawl over mi..but...my legs are freezing..coz i'm wearing a skirt...brRrR..it's kinda boring having to work on a saturday..though it's onli half day..which i shouldn't be whining about..i still wanna complain..lolx..hope my boss sees this..opps..

hee...meeting michelle later on..will be shopping at parkway first..after which i'll accompany her for some tuition thingy at paramount...hahaha..the best part is....we'll be goin orchard to shop~!!!wOOoooo hOooo...shopping...a form of exercise and enjoyment..but of coz...i hope i'll soon be able to shop at paragon...at those branded boutiques...lolx...i'm dreaming..if onli i earn that much...hmm..maybe i should go find somebody who can pay for my expenses...lolx...any volunteers!?!? gibby...wanna volunteer nt?lolx..i think i'm getting mad due to extreme boredom here in the office..

hmm..suddenly feel like eating laksa..the famous katong laksa...hmm..can imagine the feeling of eating it...the hot gravy flowing down yr throat..and slowly warming up yr internal organs..and slowly..yr body starts to feel warmer...YES~! its the kind of feeling i wan right now...but..once again....the lazy worms are conquering my body system...legs feel too soft to walk..or rather...i think they're frozen..i cant feel them right now..eyes are getting smaller...they look as though they're closed coz my eyes are small in nature...but cant believe there'll be people commenting that they are big...kaoz...and wat's more..i dun hab double eyelids...so sad...always admiring those gals with big,double eye-lid eyes...sighz...dreaming again..YAWNZ...opps...eyes getting watery...i think i should stop yawning..if not my mascara will smudge...hahah

aiyoz...enuff of my nonsense..goin to walk ard roxy sq...lolx..'shopper's paradise'..hahah..byebye...have a great saturday peepz~!!!

aiyoyo...keke

aiyoz..peepz...a terrible thing happened today...i went for silkair interview with michelle today...OMG~~~!!!!! it's horrible....argh...i STAMMERED...terribly...actually went there for fun..just to accompany michelle...but didnt know why i freaked out~!! the interview took place at mandarin hotel...queued for sooOo long just to register..about 1hr plus...standing with my high heels...my feet nearly gave way!! went there at about 2plus...but everything ended onli at about near 4plus..imagine...how tired i was...and...the worst thing is...two of us..starved for the whole day..coz we thought that weight has to be taken during the registration...lolx..gotta maintain..but who knows.........arghhh..they din take our weight..shit...wasted our effort in trying to fight the hunger...and the smell of food when we were at macdonald's~!!ahhh...we starved from morning 9plus until 4plus leh...kaoz..terrible...felt so weak while queueing for registration...but well...we rewarded ourselves with big feast of sushi at suki sushi right after the interview...keke..ate like pigs...and hahaha..oh my god...we were like mad gals there..keep making fun of a guy sitting behind us...full of pimples and swollen looking lips..hahaha...omg...we're so mean..i even took a pic of him!!hahaha...damn..why are we like that...kekek..went to walk ard with aching feet...until i couldnt bear with it anymore...went for coffee at coffee club outside california fitness...sat there waiting for michelle's fren...half asleep...lolx..but managed to pull through all the way laughing at his jokes....lolx..took a cab back home....fell asleep on the way...coz got massive traffic jam..argh...gotta go...stomachache.....kekeke...nitezz

rOcK sTaR~!

wOoOoO hOOoo...just went for a hair cut today...became a rock star in an hr...lolx...i look soooo different now...couldn't accept the look at first...but now the more i look at myself in the mirror...hmm..i find tat it's actually cool..tats wat i always wanted - a different hairstyle~!! a different me(in terms of looks) in this brand new year..hmm..but one thing about this hairstyle is..i need to use hair clay to style it...which means.....i need to wake up earlier in the morning just to style my hair~!!!! oh....how to....i'm such a pig.....1 min of sleep means so much to me..sighz..i think i gotta quit that habit liao...be hardworking abit...

hmm...went to my ex's working place to have dinner...and god damn it...i din ask him personally for the bill..NO DISCOUNT~!!! argh....22bucks is gone...not tat i'm stingy la..but heart pain leh.....aiyoz...and the most terrible thing is~!!! omg...mi and my fren caline were at the washroom at centrepoint..it's quite ulu la..then we were taking photos using the mirror as reflection...then just as caline pressed the button...the tap beside us started running~!! ahhhh..it realli freaked us out lor...we practically ran off screaming...oh well...no matter wat caused that..it did scared us..

hmm...gotta make a decision if i should go for the interview as stewardess for silkair on thurs...lazy to queue...and wats more..my chances are low ba...coz i'm not a super duper chio bu..

haha..gtg meet my fren downstairs liao..she wanna see my rock star hair~!!! byebye peepz

it's raining..in the inside

it's new year..wanna wish all..a happy new year..all the best in this brand new year..hope all the bad things were left behind..and the good ones brought in..

celebrated this day at fullmoon beach bar last night...was quite drunk..but didnt end up like gibby..lolx..realli shocked after reading hms's blog...no wunder this stupid boi msg mi nonsense last night..and din reply after that...hmm..we had a bottle of chivas...and for myself..4 tequila shots...and a mixture of vodka and beer..so shocking..didnt puke at all..haha..i'm a lousy drinker
and so embarrassing...nearly fell off my chair...coz my fren yanti wanted to burst the balloon which i was hugging...i'm most terrified of bursting balloons...danced throughout the night..enjoying the bar top dance..break dance performance and live band..can remember myself standing on the high stool trying to catch a glimpse of the break dancing..and..yes...i was wearing a short skirt~!!! haha..cant be bothered..lolx...received many kisses last night..great gift for the new year..lolx..and very happi to see my fren ah heng last night..though he gotta work in the morn at 730..he still came over to see us..lolx..gave him a kiss before he alighted the cab..and opps..sorri yanti..gotta leave u with yr frens there and went bak with ah heng..it's too late...and was having a headache..realli had fun with you...cant bear to leave either...

my new yr sounds so fun..but in my heart..there's a deep cut..a cut which will take a long time to heal..i'm the culprit as well as a victim for this cut..cant blame anyone...cant blame you too..i'm left with no choice...hope you understand yar...realli hope that this problem that we're facing will be settled soon...it'll den be the best gift for mi....

hmm..eating lunch now...lolx..yes..it's lunch...i'm goin to slack at home on a new year's day..oh well..nothing new...nothing surprising..and nothing so weird abt this..it's just another day....cant wait to go bak to work..at least i have company..someone to tok to...i realised i'm the kind of gal who cant be lonely..sighz..it's a bad thing...but i am definitely independant..sounds contradicting huh...oh well..cant understand myself either..haha

hmm..ending this post here..in a weather so cold and gloomy..wishing everyone once again..a warm happy new year~ *hUgZ*