blue blue blue

been feeling low since i woke up this morning..dunno why..i've been searching for new jobs since last friday...tot i'm lucky to be offered a job..but the company called up my ex com..and i realli dunno wat my ex com told them..that made them change their mind..fuck lor..i did nth wrong and instead my performance was nt bad...kaoz..why the hell they wanna ruin ppl's future??i feel so much wanting to confront them..but wat's the point..i cant get bak that job anymore...i'm so disappointed..nearly broke down when the agent called to tell mi the bad news...argh..felt so lost...guess wat i can do nw is continue to search for other jobs...hopefully i can get one and settle down..feeling so stressed up again...cny is coming very soon...and i'm still stuck here..nowhere...

hope every one of my frens are coping well with their work...realli dun wish to see anyone facing problems like mine...coz it's realli sucky...very very sucky...these past 2 wks plus of the new yr has made mi very tired...should i just take this chance to rest and haf a break?will it be better for me?but still...there are some factors stopping mi from doing that..sighz...i realli dunno wat to say anymore...............