bad mood...

sighz..just heard a realli bad news...i may have to change my stupid job...realli lost my morale...the new partner that my boss is partnering with may not wan to keep us...arghh..wat the hell...i'll know by the end of this month...shit leh...wat a way to start a new year...it realli sucks...make mi feel like goin for full time studies again lor...sianz...but study means no money...gotta work part-time..sux sux sux..how how how....and chinese new year is coming...argghhhh...

stress is coming into mi....and i am very bad at coping with that...is there anyone who can help?the thought of having to look through newspapers and going for interviews just makes mi sick..and tired...i realli hate this...now i have a sudden breaking down feeling inside me..problems just come one after another..it seems like it's never ending..i'm onli 21 and i feel i'm so old..so tired of life...is there anyone in this world, at my age, feeling the same way too?i want so much...a hug from someone who loves mi right now..or even just a word of encouragement will make mi feel better...i'm waiting..patiently...feel so useless in this society..no contributions..but just adding burden to ppl ard mi...my family...my frens...and i'm realli sorry about that...hope i'll be given a chance to repay them...watever i can do...i'll do...i dun mind the difficulties and hardships i'll have to undergo...perhaps..i've gotten used to them...eyes feel heavy with tears...they're soon going to fall..trying my best to keep them back...it's so uncontrollable....but it seems that i don't have a choice..gotta try to be strong..just like in the past...

hm...read through the draft of this post...felt realli sad...not going to write any further..it'll just makes mi drown further..into the bottomless ocean inside my heart....