understanding

does understanding means you cannot be disappointed?

does it mean that you cant be disappointed even though u totally understand the situation?

or both questions are the same?

cant someone be forgiven when she/he feels disappointed for smthing he/she was hoping will happen but in the end it didnt? but it doesnt mean he/she doesnt understand the situation right??

why do i always have to hope ppl will understand and accept my explanations? i am not the type who will explain if what i say is not valid. so can smone understand and try to accept what i had explained cuz i realli mean it? thr key word here is TRY. i wont force anyone to accept it but it certainly hurts when ppl dun.

i am dragging myself to work nowadays...work life isnt something i look forward to everyday now...the ppl...the attitudes..the friendliness...the atmosphere...the work...everything has changed. EVERYTHING. and what hurts and affects me most? people. normally no matter hw i dread working...things will change becuz of those ard mi..who i luv so much...but now..things had changed...into smthing i really dread....smthing i feel hopeless....something i am so tired of trying and whining about...contradicting..i am here whining now isnt it. i hate myself asking the same questions..why r u so cold why r u so far away nw? hate it.

when can i stop asking? maybe i shd stop thinking or fantasizing that things will be the same again. fasting mth is over..guess it isnt an excuse here anymore..guess it's the truth and i shd wake up and face the world.

pls slap me awake. and drag mi out of this cruel world of fantasy.