am i stuck in 1990?

have a lil time to sit and concentrate typing...well...read marlia's blog...guess she is right..we are in an era where we shouldnt be so calculative among frens anymore..life is short..you never know when's yr last day on earth..so why not just live happily with everyone ard you..rather than keep pin pointing at one another at their faults or weaknesses...who is perfect anyway? and i think...we dont have the time to bear grudges anymore...do you want to only forgive a person only on the day u die?wont it be far too late?

some ppl may want to shut themselves out from the rest of the world becuz of their personal problems..thinking confidently that 'hey i can survive!!' whole load of bullshit..yeah u can for the time being..but hw long can you last?! u think what...you're one of the cast in 'survivors'?? even in survivors u need to practise team work!!

it's true..had expected a day will come when ppl ask mi..'hey why is she/he not hanging ard with you anymore? tot u used to be very close? oh why? coz u have new fren right?!' WTF??!?! u think secondary school ah!?!? tell u ppl frankly!! i dont have all the time in the world anymore to be like that ok!!! and i am the fucking type of person who cherish everyone ard me..EVERYONE!!! no matter what happens..i will put in the bloody effort to make things work...the only thing which will make mi give up is hearing that the other party dont fucking give a damn/cant be bothered!!! why should i even put in effort in smthing which will never work out!?!? yeah..smone told me before...being nice and sincere to smone..do not expect any returns...but heyheyhey!~ i am NT asking for returns..i just want to noe that i din put in effort for nothing or when ppl dun appreciate it at all!!!! it's a two fucking different thing..for this time..i noe i've tried..but if you still wanna remain like that...fine with me..serious...as long as u re happy...i'm happy...i'm not trying to be selfish here...but come on....just do as you deem fit yeah!!! but dun come and fucking throw tantrums or gimme attitude for things we've not done to you. bear that in mind..everyone has their limits..once it's up...i'll blow...ppl ard me should noe mi fairly well..i'm the type of gal who will be direct and straight forward.. if up to today..i've not spoken a word or made any remarks in your face...means..i do care alot for you..your feelings..but pls dun take it for granted...

alright..time for happy moments...cant wait for the batam trip this sunday..hope itll be fun...and of coz!! will be on leave from 4sept to 7 sept..planning a short getaway with marlia...where shd we go...hmm...KL?(yes i noe again but wth..with diff partner what..it doesnt matter where u go actually) redang or krabi? haha...and it's also time to take my driving lessons...argh...lazy...

sorry guys if i cursed and sweared too much..but..just cant take it when such things happen.....alright...ciao...muackz

oh yeah...look at the tuna bread marlia made for me yesterday..so kawaii..gonna prepare breakfast for her tmr...ciumz