updates?

i have nth to update about....i'm just plain tired about some issues i cant share..my friends...pls try to understand me when i dont share........becuz i cant.............stay with me, though not physically, always...

Gong Xi Fa Cai

it's the lunar new yr again! time passes so fast..i can still remember clearly what we had done last yr! i can rem milo eating one whole pack of Wasabi peas..hahaha..nearly taken his life..and we had chalet in conjunction with mum's bday.

oh well, just had dinner with mum and dad. it's rotting time now..waiting for eddy to confirm if we're meeting for coffee. Well, apparently, i've been told since young that children shd always try to stay up as late as possible to hope for long life for our parents. and since young, i've been doing just that! so i'm finding smthing to do and not just watch tv.

Will be going to msia tmr to uncle's place. gonna rot there the whole day once again, with mahjong and card games and of cuz eat n eat n eat! (i'm totally irritated by the spyware alert!YES my com is infected!!!) and will only be back at night. so there goes day 1 of CNY.

so whats going to happen on day 2? i dont know..i guess more rotting.

day 3! shaun's gonna have his bday celebration..apparently he wants us to go in beach wear which i have totally no idea hw i'm going to walk ard in his hse in bikini and the image of eating pizza and fats oozing out isnt nice! nonono...no WAY.haha

day 4...preparation to work on monday again....so depressing huh...

16th of feb will be the day i'm looking forward! had invited all my friends and some colleagues over to my place for drinking and gambling session! keke..hope it'll be fun and hope my friends will be able to open up to my colleagues..and of cuz we'll not miss the steamboat dinner and Lou HEi!!! it's gonna be messy once again! hahah..

SPOT ON!

ok..i saw this on milo's blog which he saw from shaun's blog..gosh..SPOT ON BABY! though there are two paragraphs which are the same as milo's...maybe tts why i can ensure his retardedness (if there's such a word)..hahhaha

here it goes..

What Joyce Wee Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

pathetic piece of shit

why am i only good at asking what if what if what if or saying i dont dare?? how am i suppose to be able to move on? seriously, i cant have this mindset anymore if not i'll be stuck with the agony i am facing now forever! i know i cant always depend on others to find out information that benefits me...i know i'm old enough to be able to make the move. but how is it that you ppl want me to find out the terrible truth on my own and have the truth slapping my face?

i'm sorry but i just cant do it...i have no guts ok. i admit!!

yes...it's going to be a terrible fortnight for me....terrible starts with training last thurs...dance practice today and more practices every single day from monday. ok, gonna have a dance performance for the recognition dinner on the 25th! i dont know which idiot selected me. i really dont feel good about this..i have problem remembering the steps and having real difficulty trying to coordinate...it's totally different having to dance with specific steps and dancing in clubs! i'm alrdy feeling the stress esp when the rest can do it well...how can i cope with this?!

i nid help. whats new? i'm always helpless anyway.

loi, i wish smtimes i can vent it out.but sadly, who will try to understand the situation i am facing? seriously, noone. they will only think i am being unreasonable, emotional. but will they know i'm not emotional and i'm just trying not to hide how i feel? how long more can i endure all these?wont it be worse if i try to suppress it? i'm trying to right now....but i think you can tell i cant carry on further from the way i was just now when u sent mi back right? do you know why i always wanna suppress hw i feel? i actually rcvd comments like, 'you're being too irrational and emtional'. wat to do........or rather...what can i do?

aj aj, you are really one ass.

A Brand New Start

Many times we had made many resolutions and promises to lead a better life in a brand new year but how many times have we looked back and realised we had achieved nothing. But still..i'll do it!

Happenings - Over the past one year, many things happened, had r/s but all didnt work out. I was blind to have fallen for a ridiculous man which i totally felt disgusted when i think back of all the things he had done, not only to me and also to his 'beloved' bestie. a lesson learnt, open yr eyes big, do not go for men who only wants SEX and if you realised they're that sort of men, do not give them anything! *winks* was also psychoed many times to go towards the target but i always fail to do it..no guts, this is all i can say. it makes things worse when u realised u gotta face the person 5times in a wk, just dont want it to backfire. pls..understand my plight!

Resolution - plastic surgery to make my eyes bigger! hahah, kidding!!! ok i'm gonna open my eyes bigger!! and of cuz..i'll tryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy fight for what i always wanted. at least i try..sobz...but of cuz nw the main thing to do is to reconfirm his preference again! damn!! why is it always happening....is aj an aj????ARGH not again.............

Happenings - a new job at AIA. new faces, new friends, new incidents, new stress.

Resolutions - human r/s management to be improved. have new friends, not enemies.

Happenings - fell seriously ill in march! bed ridden for a wk! bloody gastric flu.

Resolutions - drink more water, less alcohol. engage in more outdoor activities! HEALTHY LIFESTYLE!!

Happenings - spent too much!

Resolutions - save save save!

ok, enough of resolutions. i'm turning 25 and shit, feeling stressed again...when will i be able to settle down?!!? will i end up having to go for some match-making shit??? gosh.....anyway..went to settlers cafe at clarke quay last night with the usual peeps. was quite enjoyable but the food wasnt fantastic though. i believe i can find better western food in hawker centres! the boys later moved on Dbl O and i went home!! kinda unbelievable but i just dont have the mood to club yesterday and i would rather go home though it's a saturday! i nid some drive man!!! is this the turning point for me?????gosh....a tat too early right?

ok nx holiday, CNY!!! tong tong tong chiang! time to shop for clothes, my shoe rack and shoes and food!!! hahaha...it's just another mth to go!!!! you ppl better start to get yr ass off yr chairs and get ready for another round of steamboat and 'lou hei'!!!!!

6th day

omg..it's only the 6th day and i'm going nuts!!!! i wonder if it's the same feeling if smone else is away. gosh. hw am i going to survive another.................12 freaking days!?!?!?!?!?omgomgomg. so gonna die and of cuz..frank will be happy..cuz he can make fun of me! @&$@*#*

anyway...merry xmas to all..had a real gd time at the party on sat! we were ALL dressed up to match the theme. yes i mean ALL! even rong mei and mich!! they came as presents!!! omg..it was hilarious and i laughed till i had asthma attack and had to use the inhaler when i got hm! hahaha..insanity. we had lotsa food. turkey, pizza, macaroni cheese,potato salad coleslaw! we even had Tang Yuan made by Matt's mummy! hmm...nice...and i had a small Forever friends mirror with tiny drawers from Lionel the rubber man aka plain ginger bread man. here are some pics of our crazy time to share.







hmm..i wish nx yr's party will be a wilder one..maybe we can include our external friends or colleagues to join in the fun! i believe it'll be wilder!!!

nx up! new yr!!!!

I wan a Mistletoe!!!!

Mistletoe is also said to be a sexual symbol, because of the consistency and color of the berry juice as well as the belief that it is an aphrodisiac, the “soul” of the oak from which it grows. The origin of the tradition of kissing under the mistletoe is vague. However, the tradition may have stemmed from either the Viking association of the plant with Frigga (the goddess of love) or from the ancient belief that mistletoe was related to fertility. Another explanation for the tradition is that it is derived from the festival of Saturnalia, a popular mid-December celebration in ancient Rome

The correct mistletoe etiquette is for the man to remove one berry when he kisses a woman. When all the berries are gone, there's no more kissing permitted underneath that plant.
One legend states that a couple who kisses underneath mistletoe will have good luck, but a couple neglecting to perform the ritual will have bad luck. Specifically, it is believed that a couple kissing under the mistletoe ensure themselves of marriage and a long, happy life, while an unmarried woman not kissed under the mistletoe will remain single for another year.

Maidens may place a sprig of the plant under their pillow at night in the same manner a child places his or her lost tooth in anticipation of a visit from the Tooth Fairy. Instead of exchanging teeth for money, however, the sprig of Mistletoe allows women to dream of their Prince Charming. Burning a mistletoe plant is also thought to foretell a woman’s marital bliss, or lack thereof. A mistletoe that burns steadily prophesies a healthy marriage, while fickle flames may doom a woman to an ill-suited partner.

While mistletoe is widely viewed as a symbol of love and fertility, it's also representative of peace. Ancient tales tell of enemies who encounter each other underneath trees bearing mistletoe. The enemies lay down their arms, embrace, and agree to a truce until the next day [source: Perry]. This act of goodwill is yet another possibility for why we kiss under mistletoe: abstaining from violence and exchanging greetings under the plant may have prompted the custom of kissing.

first event coming up

alright...finally the first event is coming up..my first DnD with AIA. had wanted to dress up as Princess Lia but dreams were dashed when they announced the theme for callcentre. SHREK!! my gosh..the only character is snow white as her gown as compared to Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty is more prominent. Went to the No.1 Costume Shop at Arab street and found the gown buttttttt....it's so ugly!~!! take a look nw...

and to add, the costume doesn't look really clean. Though the staff there mentioned it'll be cleaned before collection, i still had doubts abt it. it cost more than 60bucks for rental and we had decided to drop the idea to dress up. Moreover, the folks sitting with me do not wish to dress up as they think they're way too old for that. ok, fun is gone but i hope on the night itself, things will be different. I'm just going to dress OUT and UP wearing my new boots! hehe..

ok...been attending Jap Classes but sadly it's difficult to master as the teacher aint really good at teaching. Here are some of the sentences i can remember.

- Watashiwa Joyce desu -> I am Joyce.

- Singapore kara ki mashita -> I come from Singapore

- Watashiwa Kaishain -> I am an employee of a company

- Watashiwa ni jun yon sai -> I am 24 years old.
-Toire wa doko desu ka? -> Where is the toilet?

ok i know it's pathetic but practice is very impt in order to master it.

went to ktv after class with sis and her friend veron. and went to walk ard in orchard after that. The traffic was so bad and it was packed almost everywhere. and yes, sis's car is finally here. sitting in the rear seat was great esp when u can stare out of the moonroof and look at the decorations in orchard. NICE. it's sporty smooth and the engine is quite silent.wait until i get a chance to drive it and i shall comment more on its performance. here are more pics to share.

memorable indeed

ok frank...for u la huh...

ok...why it is memorable? cuz i had a 'date' with Mr AJ!!!! yes..he asked for my companion today after work...first to the goldsmith to ask for the price of selling his gold chain and bracelet then to sengkang to modify his Iphone and then had dinner at compasspoint then took a bus back to tamp. ok it's kinda sweet that i'm the lucky one tonight..cuz apparently he could have asked anyone else..at first he did not know hw to get to sengkang..but thinking abt it...we took a cab..he could have just went on his own and get any of his mates. ahahahaha....ok i wont think too much...i'll just remember this day... =) *peace*

hectic week as usual..bedtime seem to be set at 930pm..old woman...worse than my mummy..

alright..i can smell christmas..wats for my present?!?!?! hahaha and yes i bought my boots....gonna wear it to DnD nx fri...so frank..u can save yr money on tt and buy mi smthing else....hahahahahah

ok la.........shall cut it short...getting really lazy to update...zzzzzz

insanity strikes

this is a tuesday but it's worse than a monday. basically..5 staff down..it's fine...but the lunch was reduced to 30mins!!! nearly puked after eating noodles...it was so rush and the food couldnt even digest! gosh.....i kinda tot of killing those who took mcs but then again..such things are inevitable la...i mean..we r human afterall..we do fall sick though..but i just cant believe in the coincidence!!

alright..mr aj has got his iphone bought from the phil and he brought it to work even though batt is running out just to show the world...haha...gosh...and i even had to use tissue paper to hold the phone to prevent fingerprints from staining his phone...idiot......

mr loi is now in reservist.......i think he'll only read this like nx wk la...i bet he's enjoying himself in camp...hahahah

well...sad to hear that matt's dad's hospitalised again....pray he'll get well soon...

and yes..matt is enjoying himself at Linkin Park concert right nw..smthing he'd been waiting for...

ok...i dunno wat to type anymore....it's just a crazy day...............

it's the time of the year again

gonna write abit abt the upcoming events..here it goes

1) *rain rain go away, come again another day*~~...it's been raining these few days...i really dread it cuz it's freaking cold in the morning when i have to get up and bathe...and......i'll just want to slp more...HATE IT! cuz i'm dearly terrified of cold...and when it's time for lunch....u're kinda stranded cuz u cant go far...but it's nice in another way...you'll be cool and wont perspire...means...you wont smell, you wont be sticky chewy after perspiring...and can save electricity..i may nt even need the fan...ok i'm extreme..really cant endure cold temperature..

2)*linglingling* company's DnD's coming. will be held at Ritz Carlton!! and theme will be Fantasy!! I've decided to dress up as Princess Lia in Star Wars!!! hmm...or maybe sailor moon...or maybe....................................ARGH...cannot freaking make up my mind!

3) *dingdongbell*~~i can smell christmas!!!!! hahaha..yes i know it's still a long way more to go but i just cant wait ok!! all the xmas shopping and lightings and music...so exciting!! ok..i'm acting like a 3yr old gal again......wats new anyway right?

4) *party poppers*~~2mths left to get ready yr new yr resolutions!!!! be sure to fulfil them this year huh!!! hahah it's tough i know....i hardly managed as well..haha

5) *gongxi gongxi*~~~4mths to CNY!!!! wooOoooOoHoOooo...all the shopping, new clothes, new shoes, food and mahjong!!!!!! i'm getting excited alrdy!!!!keke...

6) *happy bday to uuuuuu*~~ damn..getting old in another 6mths!!!!! ARGHHHH i'll be 25!!! SHIT!! Mid 20s and no bf!!!!!!!!! OMG..i'm doomed!!!!!nvm...more shoes to make mi happy then...

alright...seem like alot is abt shopping huh........................frank....now tt i've updated just for u.......are u going to do smthing for mi?hahahahhahaha...........time for pedicure and manicure........but sadly...u're going for reservist!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH

what's wrong with my brain?

been having this headache for a week. finally went to see the doctor this afternoon and returned home from work at 2pm. doc said it's caused by my sinus. until now..i dont feel good. i'm still feeling light headed. nauseous. and the experience with the doctor at eunos is kinda shaky. she'll actually reprimand u! saying things like 'why did u go to work in the first place when u know u are sick?' 'why did you only see a doctor after feeling sick for a few days?!!' and the funny thing is..she ended the consultation by saying 'hey i dont mean to pick a fight with u but nx time come and see me once u r sick, dont delay.' haha..kinda nice la..it's a whole new different experience.

mickey the dog came over to my place yesterday and will be staying with us for a wk while the owner is away in taiwan. he's actually sis's colleagues dog. he's tame, trained to poo in the toilet and loves to play with his bone. really adorable.took care of him once before a couple of yrs back and now he's old..u can tell from his discoloured fur. but nonetheless, he's still very hyper. just came back from a walk with him. now...this is really the kind of life i want. been able to have a slow walk with my dog and have some peaceful time.

red bomb alert on the 11th nx mth!!! my ops manager's getting married and i'll have to attend the dinner. but i guess it's gonna be fun cuz will be attending it with other colleagues. it wont be like the typical family kind of wedding dinners which are boring!!!

hmm..wanna take leave in jan...anyone out for a short trip???can do some chinese new yr shopping!!! bangkok anyone????

oh where oh where can my baby be?

hahaha wat a lame title i have here huh..anyway just a short recap of wat happened for the past few days.

went back to work on thursday after a short rest away from the office. gosh it was heaven. i wish i can have this more often. some time to rest my mind and body as working in AIA definitely caused lotsa stress and my body is drained! adding on to it, pimples are popping happily!! disfiguring me!

went to st james, boiler room on sat with frank and his two friends and jasmine and ailin. been soooooo long since i last seen the girls. definitely a chance for us to catch up and of course, more catching ups to do! it was a great nite though, with different crowd and a different kind of fun. noone to force glasses of alcohol down my throat by the usual peeps. need a short break away from that. but then again...i think it wont be that short either. had supper at siglap at one of the hong kong cafes with frank and his two friends, eric and grace. nice ppl. and of cuz VERY nice car of eric's!! kinda regret not having a picture taken though. FRANK, I WANT A PIC!!!!! pls..........hahaha!!

got home at abt 4 and had to wake up at 930 this morning! gosh..i'm now feeling drained once again...wat kinda lifestyle i have here...shaun n matt came over for a game of mahjong and we played nintendo WII as well..omg...it's really fun....kinda feel like psychoing sis and bro to share funds to get one! hahahah...but i think we'll just be excited abt it for a short while...we'll get sick of it sooner or later...soooo...just play with shaun's lah....

hmm..i guess thats about all..i kinda feel my blog is lacking something..it's getting dull......wat should i do...................................hmmmmm.....

light headed me

Here I am..sitting alone at starbucks in simei..wait a min..i’m not alone..i’m actually sharing a table with a stranger..haha…he’s not cute though..opps..just went to the hospital to visit dear mr kiwi..yes he is admitted again and again..dunno wassup with him..some brain problem I guess..hahah kidding…

Alright..i was too bored at home..was on leave for the last two days after the trip..dont wanna stay home so had decided to drop by at starbucks and use my laptop and enjoy my caramel frap…received many calls demanding for meet ups but I just don’t have the mood to do tt..smtimes it’s just so nice and calming to be alone..without any distractions or disturbances to clear my mind…

Caught The Nanny Diaries last night, a typical teenage movie I can say. Nth fantastic and not really worth the price to watch in a cinema. Though it’s free but I felt the money could have been used to watch Resident Evil instead. Well, payor gets to decide. am now surfing Coach webby too. Cant wait to be able to get a bag for myself. Since the US$ is now dropping tremendously, I think online shopping will be so much worth it. So guys, go get shop till u drop before the exchange rate rises again!

Smtimes I feel talking too much or too clearly to smone is of no use. It’s either the other party filters wat he wants to perceive or maybe he does not understand my English. But I feel I speak really simple English that everyone can understand. How on earth can I really get the message across? I’m lost for words actually and had totally ran out of idea. Where on earth is my cape crusader?? Where art thou?

Gosh, I am having a headache now. Must be the caffeine from the drink. Oh well..when I was at the hospital just now, I kinda feel realllly down. I feel life is so fragile. Kiwi’s bed was surrounded by old men who looks really weak and they looked as though God is soon bringing them away. All of them were dependant on drips and oxygen. I think I shd really refrain from going to the hospital for awhile. So pls friends..take care of yr health esp Mr Kiwi!!!! Stop making me go to the hospital!!

Ok..the stranger is moving to another table cuz his friend is here..too bad..i’m not leaving yet and this table is too small to hold 3 ppl…

Sigh..i tot I will be able to have a chance to go to Manila with sis in november. But the leave slots are fully booked by frank who will be on reservist and Melvin for his medical check/operation. Nvm..next time then.

Ok tts all…feel kinda light headed now…perhaps it’s time to head home……

tioman girl is back!~

ok tt's a new nick i had from dear Mr AJ. wellwell..the trip was great. got to know two new friends from there! alright, here's a short summary of the trip. first day was free at leisure. so matt and i went to start the day by walking ard the island and finding a nice spot for a swim and tan. the waters there is totally clear. we can see fishes swimming ard and of cuz the weather was great! we went snorkelling the second day and it was better!! more fishes!! but poor matt got kinda sick...opps...haha...we went to a shop which is duty free!! matt bought a bottle of red wine and johnnie walker! i bought a bombay sapphire, a mini one as a gift. i smuggled it back by keeping it with my toiletries...hahah...and guess wat..we found a little froggy in the toilet! and oh yes..food which was provided in the package SUCKS!!! gosh..i fed most of my share to the cats there. and the most fantastic thing is...i brought rashes back with me!!!!! i'm now dying of itch!!!!!! ARGHHHHHH...okok...share sm pics here...




the froggy which did not turn into a prince cuz i din kiss it
and the fishes at marine park! huge ones!


the new friends we made and pissed off cuz waited for the ferry for so long!

the countdown

WoooOooHoooOooo...counting down to my trip to Tioman on the 6th with matt!!!! omg..it's a holiday i've been longing for!! i need a god-damn break!! after slogging in AIA for 6mths..i've finally had this chance for short getaway! have been praying for good weather so we'll be able to snorkel, tan, swim and of cuz...take tons and tons of pics!!!!!!ahhahahaah..not going to miss out this chance!! hmm..though i hoped my sis and bro and be there as well..but sis's health is more impt yar...we'll have another chance to go holiday tog..no worries abt tt!

hmm..how's work..it's been fine..coping well...though complaining alot as well..but complaining is part of life la...it's a way to vent frustration..rather than to endure every little hiccups and blow up when cannot take it anymore..it's gonna get worse....hmm..gonna sign my confirmation and conversion letter at HR tmr...then gonna meet matt to shop for some holiday stuff..like maybe a new pair of beach shorts, tees and toiletries....hmm..hahah spending a bomb even b4 travelling..how nice...

ooo..forgot...went to JB on sat with my colleagues..went to Jusco, had my toenails done! nice!! and ate alot...had yong tau foo for lunch, starbucks coffee,donuts and 6 dishes for dinner..how nice...of cuz..our boss tt night is Mr Melvin...hahahh...free dinner!!!!keke..it was fun but tiring though and the weather in the afternoon was a killer. couldnt even speak a word in the car on the way to jusco as melvin totally blocked out the aircon and with the sun shining in..i literally felt breathless and suffocated...thank God the jam wasnt bearable..and i felt like i was in heaven the moment i got out of the car.of cuz i wouldnt miss out on the pics..lazy to upload..will do it nx time...

now i am thinking of wat to get for the folks at work..i dun wanna just get the souvenirs from tioman..it'll be boring...gotta think of smthing creative! hmm........................

harlor harlor

harlor harlor!! anyone there?

anyway...taking the chance to wish Mr Shafie an advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! stay sexy yeah!!! hahahaha

wow..week after week..days after days..it's alrdy coming to Oct soon..went to chinatown with matt this afternoon to book for our trip..suddenly rem the last time we went to chinatown..it was during CNY...gosh we realised how fast time flies and it's coming to christmas in another 2mths plus!!! now..this means smthing else...i'm getting old!!!! omg..i'm going to be 25 soon!!!!! and the best thing is...my preferred age to get married, which is 27, is just another 2yrs plus!!! omg...it's gone..hope is dashed for sure...how am i supposed to find myself a husband within this short period of time??sobz..i dun wanna end up being eligible to purchase a flat!!! this means....i dun wanna remain single and unwanted even at the age of 35!!!! thinking about it just scares me..

*burp* damn..aint feeling well...dont know what the hell i ate today that caused me to feel sick and nauseous..everytime i burp, i can feel that my stomach is oily!! maybe too much chili in my Kolo Mee this afternoon...and i actually forced myself to puke just now...now i am feeling so much better.

finally booked for our trip to tioman...1st wish is to have the confirmation fromthe agency. 2nd wish is for monsoon to be delayed so the trip wont be cancelled if not i might just have to make do with Sentosa...and now..thats very idiotic...soooo...i'll just pray for the best......

and yeah...tuesday is mooncake festival..and i havent bought my mooncake yet!!!!!! ARGHHHH...gonna plan for an outing this coming sat to Chinese Garden...boys..if you guys happen to read this..try to make yrselves free ok...miss you boys....

ok..ending here..i think i'm going to disappear for another wk again...ciao...

yesterday once more

16th of September, the day i met you 3 yrs ago. It also almost a yr since i last spoke to you.i wonder if you remembered this day. I bet you do but it hurts. i do miss you but it has to be the past.

17th of september, the day i decided to be with you one yr ago. We'll always be the best of pals. You're well, the least i hoped for. I'm glad we still have this priceless friendship.

Mr AJ, i hope you wouldnt continue to think of the things you had been thinking abt. It's nothing and i hope you'll believe in it. Though on the outside things may not seem the way i assured you but it's the truth. Pls believe me. I'm dying inside. It's just you..all that i longed for. But it's going in the wrong direction, can i turn it the right way?

i hope life will now change for me. I've decided to attend church regularly with matt. God is slowly showing me the peace i need and blessing me with the patience. I hope i'll be able to lead a better life nw. i pray.

a msg for you ppl regardless of religion.always pray for the serenity to accept the things we cannot change; courage to change the things we can; and wisdom to know the difference and that we will be able to accept hardships as the pathway to peace.

* the font is in yr fav colour Mr AJ.

wrong!

this is toally insane and utterly wrong!!!!!! i know it but i cant stop it!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!???

a msg for milo - no waiting game is unworthy. you'll get the ultimate results you always hoped for if u believe in it.

a msg for myself - gosh, you are actually advising smone when u yrself had gone hopeless.

a msg for you who's talking to me - oh shut up!

crap!

forgiveness

milo asked mi this question. is it really very easy to forgive smone i like/love if he had done smthing to hurt me by just seeking forgiveness and atone to his mistake but doing smthing to touch my heart. i replied yes. for me..the infatuation will remain for life even if the person is no longer within yr reach or sight which explains why you can forgive that easily.

past few days had been slightly insane. cant divulge much info but apparently..hp's been ringing at least 10 times a day excluding smses. and its from the same person. i dunno wat to say anymore..but i do not want to misterpret his actions as well. though i hope it's from another person, i noe it's highly impossible. shant talk abt it. it's complicated.

sat- went caline's hse for mini gathering. had hightea, lots of cakes, muffins and bread. had a game of monopoly. went to catch a soccer match with matt lionel and melvin. boring man u match though but lucky they won. fell aslp during the 15mins half time break.

sun-boring sun, woke up only at 1plus. surfed net then went to see cars with sis. finally made up her mind!!! got a honda airwave. nice car. the car dealer actually added many freebies..good deal!!! i wanna drive it soon!!!!!hahahaha some pics to share here~

MU become UM..

spongebob monopoly and the gang

three duhring man who lost their way and the delicious confectionaries!