pathetic piece of shit

why am i only good at asking what if what if what if or saying i dont dare?? how am i suppose to be able to move on? seriously, i cant have this mindset anymore if not i'll be stuck with the agony i am facing now forever! i know i cant always depend on others to find out information that benefits me...i know i'm old enough to be able to make the move. but how is it that you ppl want me to find out the terrible truth on my own and have the truth slapping my face?

i'm sorry but i just cant do it...i have no guts ok. i admit!!

yes...it's going to be a terrible fortnight for me....terrible starts with training last thurs...dance practice today and more practices every single day from monday. ok, gonna have a dance performance for the recognition dinner on the 25th! i dont know which idiot selected me. i really dont feel good about this..i have problem remembering the steps and having real difficulty trying to coordinate...it's totally different having to dance with specific steps and dancing in clubs! i'm alrdy feeling the stress esp when the rest can do it well...how can i cope with this?!

i nid help. whats new? i'm always helpless anyway.

loi, i wish smtimes i can vent it out.but sadly, who will try to understand the situation i am facing? seriously, noone. they will only think i am being unreasonable, emotional. but will they know i'm not emotional and i'm just trying not to hide how i feel? how long more can i endure all these?wont it be worse if i try to suppress it? i'm trying to right now....but i think you can tell i cant carry on further from the way i was just now when u sent mi back right? do you know why i always wanna suppress hw i feel? i actually rcvd comments like, 'you're being too irrational and emtional'. wat to do........or rather...what can i do?

aj aj, you are really one ass.