how do you hold on to someone you've never met?

caught the show lakehouse with marlia babe today....it's good that the men didnt come with us..it'll just end up as a crap movie to them...before tt...had swensens with the men..shared apple crumble with babe...yummylicious...fattening though...getting fat..

movie's about sandra bullock in 2006 and keanu in 2004..communicated by writting letters and putting them in a mailbox outside the lakehouse...it's kinda weird hw it transmit but it was so real...and romantic...it's funny how they've met before...but missed each other and dont remember each other...but by communicating with each other...they slow recollect the old times and little mini times they had brushed past or interacted with each other...trying to meet up when they are both in different dimensions...but they patiently waited for each other...though it's painful...they perserved...until the day one gave up...only does a glimpse of hope appeared...alex (keanu) is suppose to die in 2006...but he didnt...he managed to continue waiting by the mailbox for kate's letter...only did she manage to save his life...and there...they meet finally at the lakehouse...

teared and sobbed a lil....haha...gals....but i guess it's a nice thing coz we truly feels for the characters in the movie...and why am i determined that guys dun have the ability to feel the same?do we call them insensitive or are we gals just thinking too much n being emotional?
time waits for no man...but most ppl are actually doing it....smtimes..without knowing it....and smtimes without accepting reality..hoping that one day...yes it will happen....but of coz....there are always alot of 'who knows..'..............i'm waiting....time is catching me.......

tried once again to ask her out.....failed....again....whether i ask in advance or last min...it doesnt work..i asked matt to try asking coz i am just so tired of it....i told him she'll forget...but he sorta insist she wont...i'll have a bet with him.....she will....either be busy or forget...haha....one tequila for u matt....

precious times...

22july2006
attended chalet at downtown east with sis and the guys...apparently i was quite sick....slept most of the time...woke up only to play cards when caline arrive..i can feel a distance from her...but what can i do...must i always be the one who takes initiative?nahz...sick n tired of it....checked out the nx morning and went jackpot room with sis..my first time though...jackpot is really based on yr luck....just press the button and let the machine decide yr fate...i wunder if i can do that to my life...press a button and let heaven decide my fate and not do anything abt it... anyway..also celebrated sis bday with a tiny mini durian cake...

26july2006
you said u will wait for mi...but ended up not seeing me....now you've decided to remove me from you life totally...why cant we really just be frens?nvm....you take care...and i noe you'll have a gd life ahead...

28july2006
rebonded my hair with marlia today...it sucks...warning to all gals..nvr save money for yr hair.....was so pissed off that marlia cursed that the salon will close down nx wk..haha...had pasta mania for dinner coz both of us were starving...and of coz angry..so must indulge in gd food to cheer ourselves up..met the rest at pasir ris and went to fisherman's village and eat again...had two coronas and transformed into a clown...with my partner clown marlia making loads of noises...saw two shooting stars there...made a wish...but dunno if it'll come true...felt so peaceful spending the night there...went over to eddie's plc after tt to play fatal frame...as usual...marlia screamed to invite the police over..haha...overall it was a very nice evening i can say.....with mi in yr arms...i'm always feeling a need for smone to pamper mi after some drinks....tts me...

finally a day without pain

off day today...went to matt's plc...had wanted to go earlier for a swim for...yeah...sleep is more impt..haha..couldnt wake up on time at all...was supposed to meet jinrong at 1245 at simei..but i had to help mum do smthing so will be late..msg him and he said only ppl wait for him..he dun wait for ppl..tot he was joking..b4 leaving my hse..sms him again..he's on the train alrdy...fantastic...his ego...hah...was actually quite pissed off..but damn...it's my offday...so decided nt to take it to heart..must learn to be forgiving huh....

had two rounds of mahjong...lost $5 alrdy...very little la...realised i had never won when we played at his plc...unlucky!! had my fav fish n chips at holland...nice nice..and cheap...

alright...not in a blogging mood tonight...miss my chair in ttech...and marlia's burps...zan's whines...reeina's kiss...eddy's voice calling mi 'joyah'...conversation with uncle lawrence in hokkien...shaf's nagging 'eat..eat more..'...kcc's homemade ice lemon tea...
i look like tweety bird...

shaun is duhring again.......three bottles of budweiser and he's like tt

going off.....nitezz....

rainbow after the rain

it was a 'cloudy' day...could not feel any sunshine and warmth..it felt so weird...i just couldnt bring myself to face the situation...ppl had been questioning me...but i couldnt answer them...though they alrdy knew whats going on but they chose to keep quiet about it..wanting to hear it from my very mouth...i kept quiet till the end...

felt feverish in the office...wore long sleeves blouse and still used zan's blazer...poor marlia...having cramps and of coz her own problems...hurts to see her like tt...hope she'll be well...didnt have the appetite to eat my lunch...just keep hoping that the day will pass quickly so i can get out of the office and nt face anyone...but when the clock striked about 339..email came...'let's make a deal..both stand up and smile' haha...first real sincere smile flashed on my face...finally clouds got blown away...managed to catch the evening sun..thanks for the email..

met matt and jinrong in orchard...had dinner at pepper lunch..forgot to bring my atm card along..dunno left it in office or hm...tmr morning then check...too lazy....lucky my super sis saved mi by transferring money for me....thanks babe~ muackz....had my usual hamburger steak...walked down to cathy and matt got himself a pair of new shoes...the one he had been aiming for before world cup..i rem...hehe...happy boy....then walked down to raffles city to have dessert..when i rcvd a call.... =) rem the signs i told u to look out for ok?but pls keep the waiting time short...it's exhausting...had this fried mars bar with ice-cream which can be bought at B1 in raffles city...store called Chippy...nt bad but i dun realli fancy the oil taste...then had coffee at spinelli...met shaun to go hm tog....nice feeling..havnt meet the men for quite sm time...miss the feeling...this time...hope..we wun drift again...

tmr's offday for me...gonna go for a swim at matt's plc..then dry swimming after tt...it's mahjong folks...miss feeling the tiles with my fingers...keke..hope luck's with me~ and matt's 13 frens havent leave...hahaha...opps....

gonna miss my dearies at work...cant wait for thursday..it's white top day...lol...ciumz...

speechless

IT JUST SUCKS BEYOND DESCRIPTION!!!

shit happens..isnt it

it was a terrible day to start with...and it's going to end terribly as well..why do humans backstab each other?what do they gain or expect to gain from those actions?do they actually feel great after knowing that it cost other people's happiness and pride?a bunch of sadists i call them...now i can see clearly...you definitely cannot go beyond the line of just being colleagues at work..whats the point of being nice to a person when in the end..all u get is shit from them and they got the cheek to act innocent abt whats going on..i cant make myself trust anyone anymore...or rather...i'll filter who i shd trust...though the victim isnt me...but what if it had turned out to be me?who will stand out for mi?once again...does it really pay to be nice?so many scenerios had proven to me that it doesnt...so why be nice?can smone enlighten me?it's really sad to see others getting hurt becuz of this kinda shit..hypocrites winning in the battle...i think they ought to be shot...pity those who believe in them...praying they wun be the nx victim...being eaten up by the wolf in sheep's clothing..

what has become of me? u asked...perhaps this is the best way to make u sick and tired of mi to end this game which is going nowhere...u said u respected mi all these while...u said u have yr limits...but does each and every one of your smses tells me u dun care abt my limits?u think i feel happy from the way u r treating me?hw much have i been trying to endure and keep quiet becuz u just hate the topic?u wan it this way...i gave it to u....but u wanna test me...my endurance..whenever i started to feel i cannot endure anymore....everything btwn us goes crazy again...but then again..i guess it's better to have things ending in such a way..rather than to let it carry on..going in circles...i give up......but still..things will never change for me...it's still the same way i've always felt....

dwn with a fever....ppl who shd care doesnt...ppl who doesnt need to...are giving mi so much attention......life is such a weird thing....things like that always happen.....when u least expected it to be.......

oppsie day

14jul06
work as usual...caught Pirates of the Carribean with marlia,cliff and eddy..nice show...going gaga over johnny depp my heroic but gayish captain jack sparrow..
had set to watch upcoming movie starring sandra bullocks and keanu reeves with marlia...gosh...charming dude...keanu!!! went to eddy's plc to play fatal frame after supper...keke..dear marlia screamed like it's in the afternoon we are playing...not afraid that neighbours might complain...scary game...cliff gotta send mi up in the end..too paranoid....

15jul06
this day started off really bad for me..woke up..rcvd sms and calls...which ended with mi in tears...really bad...had to force myself to rush out of the house to stop all these emotional torture..went to coffe bean in tamp..got myself latte..and started off with my reading..felt really peaceful coz nobody is there to question or bug me..just all by myself...not thinking about anything other than having my eyes stuck on the book...i love that kinda feeling.....and thats what i need badly..met zan at about 6..after her work....decided to have mac for dinner....and headed to esplanade coz there's sm event there..called.. Baybeats..where foreign bands come to singapore to have gigs..well...not really my cuppa tea coz they are mostly playing rock or popcorn music...on the way there..we bought choc coated bananas with almond bits from Chocz..nice...though it looks like some dung in the pic...walked aimlessly with her...to one fullerton...just feeling the breeze..the calm we need...and both of us got pinch and hit on the butt by a super cute filipino boy...so fleshy..felt like pinching him back...haha...had planned on the way to meet jimmy and some frens..coz i seriously have no idea where to bring zan..ended in a ktv pub...and got myself...well..not drunk la...just high...and began to act like a clown..but b4 u question mi..i noe jolly well what i am doing and saying...just a little louder than usual...but i always feel this is the best time for mi to be bold and have to courage to say or do whatever i had always wanted to....haha..siao day...puked my maggie soup in the end...gross....




mcspicy's doings...






zan's work


and this is my work..but too dark..

more pics to come...the rest are with jimmy...bye..hope the upcoming wk will be better...

kl trip

first of all...would like to introduce the hotel we stayed in..Berjaya Times Square hotel..it's 5 stars..paid 199 each for it...it's a suite actually..hmm..the trip was supposed to be only for mi and zan..coz uncle got a briefing on sat...he dilly dally and decided to go with us suppeeeer last min...managed to get him a bus tkt though...but he left the nx day at 530pm...first..take a look at the comfortable beds..the sofa.and of coz!!! the bathroom!!





unpacked our stuff after checking in..gosh...zan looks like she is going for a fashion show..actually...mi too la..hahah...went out straight after that...first we went berjaya times square to have lunch at kenny rogers..well..singapore's KR is nicer la...but dun be picky la ok...here's our lunch..



crazy...

went to smoke with uncle..and zan went to shop ard...had decided to meet outside a shop after 10mins...but tt gal...disappeared...nearly wanted to go info counter to make announcement...lol..but she appeared soon after tt...shit la..wasted...she's realli like my daughter...gotta keep a lookout for her..coz she always runs ard..and i gotta keep her passports with me...she'll lost it.....gdness...after berjaya..we went to Pertaling St...shall announce that uncle is definitely King of Bargains!! fantastic...bargain like noone's business...like auntie...actually worse than tt...lol..but it's good smhw..coz i can never do it...zan bought two shades..i bought a bag..(which he bargained from RM100 to RM 50!!!)hahah..grab la..even though it's a imitation coach bag...but who cares...and he..shopping king..bought a pair of nike shoes..jeans and berms...went back to hotel after that..getting ready to club at Hard Rock which is quite sucky coz it's a thurs night..shared a jug of beer with uncle..gosh..didnt noe i turned soooooo red!! and they freaking keep making fun of me...thanks eh!! i got quite crazy though..like..not wanting to slp on the bed..but i dunno hw i managed to massage zan's feet..lol..and she kept asking if i am ok...had a feeling of wanting smone to pamper mi whenever i drink..quite crazy la..my behavious and all..but i am sober ok..like duh...two glasses of beer...slept after tt...wundered if i snored like clifford...but i noe zan did!! hahahah..sorry babe...




woke up for breakast at about 10am...got nagged by uncle...no choice..mi and zan made our way down..gobbled lotsa food...yummy..esp the omelette and pancakes...yummylicious..went back up to rm..and dear zan wanna go gym!!!! gdness..nvm..wait for her then...but i fell aslp...lol...one hour later she came back scolding mi and uncle...opps...lazy la..and too comfy..hurry washed up and made our way to Sungei Wang..had swensens for lunch..i finished up one huge bowl of caesar salad!! they said i am like a rabbit...yeah i agree..but healthy food what..eat more...better for yr health...walked ard the shopping mall..apparently..it's too huge for us to finish shopping coz gotta send uncle off at pasar rakyat..bought a pair shoes at vincci...nice...my fetish...shoes...rushed off to send uncle soon after...and zan n i will be left alone in KL...sending him off felt like..both of us gals are malaysians sending our sin fren off..haha..anyway..both of us took a cab to KLCC after that..lucky taxi go by meter..wun get cheated coz uncle nt ard...shopped ard..plucked our eyebrows.and did a fabulous job...bought cinnabons at RM86.40!!!!!!!! we were shocked...beyond words...went str back to hotel after tt.........sigh...






our expensive cinnabons....

reached hotel..and we started taking retarded pics..but fun though..just both of us...haha..went supermarket to get cup noodles for dinner...heart pain..spent too much on cinnabons...gotta save abit....had our dinner..and started watching tv...dunno what show it is but....gosh it was like...scary!! both of us were practically hugging each other and screaming..we ended up on her bed hugging the cushion..and screamed when we got a shock..i rem the nx movie we watched is anaconda..haha..again..screamed..show ended and we fell aslp..on the same bed..even when i have my own bed!! hahah..zan woke up in the morning for gym again...and waited for her for breakfast b4 heading to berjaya times sq theme park (Cosmos World)..enjoy the pics we took..on our way back to sin as well...












alright...end of trip...overall..enjoyed it alot...more to come ok..when's our camping?? phuket?? ubin?? huh huh huh?!?!

hilarious!!

hahah gotta update this b4 i slp...it's a funny day...managed to learn some malay phrases from my colleagues...used it on ppl who teased me..hmm smthing like...'cium pantat aku' which means kiss my ass...hahaha...used it on chand...my dearest OM...kekek....never die b4...and there are more like...'selenge' meaning blur...alamak...cannot remember la...left my 'notes' in office....haha...anywayz..went for dinner at sakae sushi with marlia...finally got to satisfy our craving!!! hmm.....sedap...hahaha...(am i becoming a malay gal??)..this cute waitress came up to us...haha..coz marlia ordered gyoza...but it wasnt served after sm time...waitress came up' excuse me mdm.....yr...gyoza...will be ready in a...feeeww..minss....' and she gave that satisfying smile as though she finally managed to finish her sentence...HAHAH...guess she had prepared in the kitchen b4 coming up to us...joyce joyce...u r mean...

best part....shared cab hm with her...i remembered she's going tampines st 22...but in the end...she told uncle hougang st 11...i was like...huh?!! where?!?! she repeated...'hougang st 11 la...' i was like...where????? she pointed a direction..'there only!!' hahaha...but god damn it..tts tamp la!!! selenge!!! hahahaahaha end of story..marlia...wake up!!!

recent events..

just a short write up of the recent events we had...first of all..company's chalet at costa sands pasir ris...on 1jul06...reached the chalet at about 430 and began by blowing the stupid balloons..lucky i have eddie to help...it felt like we are holding a children's bday party...and i think the child we are tokking about here is Zan...haha...


blow n blow...

it went on well..having lucky draws..running ard making sure everything's in order...like a mad woman...din even eat much actually...totally lost appetite coz it was so freaaaaking hot!!! take a look at some of the pics...









enjoyed the night after dinner...listening to marlia's singing...cool babe...and lazing on the bed..zan tot i was in a bad mood...nonono babe...just tired...in the end...only 5 of us stayed overnight...eddie went hm...left mi..shaf..zan...marlia..and none other than snoring KING clifford...thanks eh!!! we chatted the whole night..watching insane tv shows..chinese one!! and dear marlia asked mi to interpret...wheni cant do it...they started to interpret themselves..from the tree eats the woman..to burning clothes...haha..damn funny...just when we wanted to slp...forgot who actually suggested ordering mac for breakfast...haha..clifford called up to order...but the rest of us keep making jokes at his conversation..to a point he was confused too!! haha...when the gal asked for the address..he asked back if it's his home address she wants...wtf!!!and our dear zan...best...tot she noes the gal (jasmine) coz she worked at the call centre b4...took the fone...and starting talking ' hey jasmine..i zan...opps.....which jasmine are you...oh..sorry wrong person...' hahahahah.....and quote of the night...'pls be square n fair...' hahaha...enuff enuff...hahaha...finished breakfast at about 530am....finally time to slp....just when i am falling deep aslp....so comfy....our DEAR BELOVED CLIFFORD GOMEZ gotta SNORE!!! thunderous boy!!! gosh...decided to move to the nx rm...but still can hear...wth...might as well squeeze with them la...at least nt as creepy...lol...tahan......finally morning...we were still watching sm prog on suria....then phone rang..'excuse me...check out time is 1030...'OMG..dunno who says it's 12pm ah!!??? got only 15mins to clear our things!! gosh..i hurried to the reception...and god...saw my long lost fren kartini...so she's the one who called us...haha...headed hm str after tt..slpt until abt 7 plus then wake up...met jimmy for dinner after tt...at siglap..stupid cafe...smoking box is so smaaaallll....redundant....might as well make the whole plc smoke free...

ok nx up....KL trip...a lil lazy to blog about it....just uoload a few pics first ok....


heading to KL...in our vip coach


do..re...mi


me before clubbing..


KLCC...

alright...more to come...hang on...

holiday or holey day

before i head off to KL (once again)...i wish to apologise if i had offended with you anything i said last night...didnt want to start off any conversation with the same topic..dunno why our conversation led there anyway....really regret whatever had happened...dunno if things are going to be the same again....and i swear.....i will never wanna start tokking about the same thing again.....i noe u r sick n tired of having to explain yr reasons...and i am sick and tired of hearing the same thing with makes no sense to me....

sorry dude....for whatever made u unhappy...

ciao

GERMANY ROCKS!!!

this entry is a bit late but nevertheless will still update a lil of what i've done..on the 29th of June, hmm...work la...as usual...after work...went 'shopping' with boss for the prizes for company bbq. i noe he has long legs...gosh...he walked super fast..really difficult to catch up with him..and when he slowed down for me..he complained that he feels like a tortoise...damn..chand chand.....what can i say about you....hm...bought about 19 items for the prizes..had a hard time carrying them back to office..but managed...finished shopping at about 7pm..had decided to go for dinner with zan at fish n co after she finish work...waited at coffee bean while reading my book and enjoying a cup of mocha latte..time passed so slowly when u read...how i wish it'll be like tt forever coz smtimes..gd things ends too fast...

as usual...took pics...we really love ourselves so much...always thinking we're so cute..and sweet...hahahah...girls will always be girls...here r the pics..


table set up...


zan...


us..so sweettttt....ewww


finally..our food....yummy...craving for it alrdy...lol

30june06
hmm...stayed back after work to wrap prizes for the lucky draw..gosh...i suck at it...but soon after...my superman came to save me...hmm....seems like he's alot better than me..haha..i suspect he worked part-time at taka gift wrap counter during xmas season b4..hahah...thankful for his help...muackz~...after gift wrapping..went for dinner at century square...it seems like we love the food in tamp soooo much...thinking of it makes mi a lil sick...*puke*...chatted for a while before rushing off to bras basah to meet sis to watch soccer match...gosh...chijmes was fully booked..guess what..we watched in a foodcourt...hahaha...but interesting though...crowd is so different...lol...but got caucasians too!! the biggest news is....i shared a bottle of beer with my sis's colleague!! hhahaha..so aunty!!!match was exciting...Germany vs Argentina...my germany made mi sad at first...when ARG scored the first goal..u can tell by the look on their faces that GER is definitely under great pressure..they werent playing well at all...near to the end of the match... Klose (ger) scored!!!! my hero!!!! love you!!! hahaha...which means there is extra time...both teams were playing quite well after tt...but noone scored...shit...i hate this part...penalty shoot...can gimme heart attack...GER did well...ARG shot but my beloved goalkeeper(GER) saved it!!! HERO!! haha...nx up....GER scored again...ARG scored...GER scored once again...this time..ARG is not so lucky...my beloed goalkeeper saved it once again...Argentina ADIOS!! yesyesyes...so happy...hahaha...crazy..my sis jumped up and down..was quite shocked at her behaviour...lol...anyway...left the place and met jimmy to watch second match..but accompanied him to loyang temple first..met his colleagues and frens there....they went to pray..i sat one corner waiting and wundering why three dogs there kept barking at nothing...weird...left temple for beach rd again...to watch Italy vs Ukraine...basically..didnt watch la...fell aslp...mentioned before the sofa there is damn comfy...hahah...reached hm at about 530am and fell flat on my bed....but gotta wake up shortly after for the bbq...well well.....this has to be continued in nx entry when pics are up...catch me soon!