never looking forward

it's sunday..which means monday is tmr..or tmr is monday..wats the diff right?
it's going to be hell in many ways...not going to name them...but it will be hell...worse than ever before..seriously not looking forward to it at all..

done many wrong things..shant name it either...i believe it cost smone's trust and happiness..but i wanna make it clear..i'm not committed in any ways and i'm definitely not obligated to ensure you're happy. but it's kinda wrong to blame on whatever tt had happened on smone else. it's nobody's fault and nobody need to be responsible to how u feel abt it. period.

had a game of mahjong again with the boys at my plc..lucky thing i managed to win a little...it'll be for lunch tmr. had my hair done which cost me a bomb but glad i wont have to do it in another 5-6 mths.

i'm tired..not enuff slp..reached home at about 530 and woke up out of a sudden at 8 with both eyes wide opened thinking of all that had happened and i felt bad. but then again..i shdnt think of it after receiving a call from melvin.i shdnt felt responsible cuz it's not my responsibility at all.

done.

wat??? again??

yes ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, uncles and aunties..it's still hell for me...

just when i tot hell was going to be over last wk...and was looking forward to a brand new wk..i was TOTALLY wrong and disappointed and overwhelmed with fatigue...tat i cant think of anything else other than going home to slp str after work..

u may ask..what happened to the energetic and bubbly joyce aka siao char boh? God noes...seriously...i really wish to noe too...the call volume is sooooo high that we cant really manage with the shortage of staff...and why dont they hire more ppl? hah...usual stuff...cut cost la..not enuff head count la...crap...then u would rather have perm staff working towards their deathbed then to increase head count..wat the hell is my dear VP thinking?no wunder MC rates for call centres are always so high towards the sky...haha..(wat am i tokking abt?)

until this day, nearly 2wks after i sprained my ankle...i can still feel some tingling pain...and i feel crippled when trying to go down stairs...i wunder why..it's still kinda swollen as compared to the normal ankle on the left...sigh...shall give it another wk more to decide if i shd go back to the physician again...

went clubbing with the boys and frank on saturday..velvet dragon is the plc...YES..the old momo if you wanna ask where the hell it is...oh well..it looks pretty much the same to me..except for some slight changes and of cuz sofa in the ladies!! the ladies used to have 3 round sofas..but this time...additional 2 huge ones!!! cool huh...the music...same.......crowd....same...with many many chinese at the beginning..then many many malays at the end...........the 4 of us..milo, matu, shaun and i havent clubbed for a long time..every now and then..we'll snatch the stool to sit...but the oldest among all of us...frank, my dear colleague...has got WAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaY too much energy for us to catch up!! kowtow to him!!! ok...boys...when's nx?


tired shaun and joyce and the insane toilet

movie cancelled this fri....wayward company i am in la...seriously..they made mi suspect if my sis and i were from the same parents...to them..immediate family means parents for unmarried kids like me...sis not counted!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????? who at my age will bring parents for movies? i mean there will be..but it's a company event!! wat the hell..since cannot then i cancel to assist in cutting cost!!! bloody hell..damn wayward.... #&$^^$!(#&$&)!?...

ok damn tired now..shall stop...yawnzzzzzz...in a few hrs time..i'll be back to hell again.........

hell

it was hell this week.....drained....but gotta act hyper like a jack russell....which drained me further....

getting pissed off with nearly every call i take...suddenly started to suspect if i'm cut out for customer service with such low tolerance for unreasonable customers and being one myself..or is it just because i'm dead tired and want nothing more but heaven? (perhaps it's just sleep and peace that i want)

seriously..it's more of peace...from everyone and everything....especially after 530pm, mondays to fridays...enough of shit at work...so no thanks to more servings after that.....i have a small appetite...

beginning to enjoy the time to be able to lie on the sofa watching my fav taiwanese variety shows on cable...enjoying the peace..no disturbances from anyone...and the jokes which brightened my mood from the shows...

ok..enough of pessimistic lines...

gonna have a couple of exciting events coming up...22nd will have company's movie night watching Fantastic 4 at vivo GV Max...bringing my sis and bro along..cuz it's for immediate family only...sorry boys for not being able to pull u ppl along...wanted to...but cant....next..30th will be having chalet cum bbq at one of the chalets at changi...for call centre...(at this point of time..there's this car downstairs honking for fun! at 1159pm! ass)...then nx...6th jul..will be going genting with sis, bro and the boys! though it's a very short and rush trip...nevertheless i reckon it'll be an enjoyable one...it's the time spent tog...not the quantity right? what counts is the quality..which i hope 'some ppl' will understand this logic...or in fact..not only 'some ppl'..this is what everyone must learn as well....then gonna have exams again on 13th jul and 16th jul...(pls pass joyce!if not another 80bucks gonna go down the canal..not drain for this instance) nx up will be sis's bday...tot of giving her a surprise bday party...any suggestions boys? or BRO if you are reading this...hahah i noe u will read this smhow or rather...hahah..let's plan for her smthing...

sigh....i so wan a dog................mum mum mummy...pls allow me to get one...pls................dun threaten to put the dog in the fish tank anymore..............you will love it too......ultimately......hahahhahaha......

tts all la...long day tmr....starting from 3pm....then maybe poker after tt.......and badminton on sunday...then back to hell again on mon....gonna enjoy myelf to the fullest these two days....short but will let it be sweet...............

so long my friends...........................

tius dae

'Gd Evening, may i speak to Ms XXX? This is joyce calling from AIA returning yr call...'

yes..i've finally changed my script...my routine this wk...training and training and more training...boring training but a boring and stuck up trainer called clarence chong..who thinks he's god damn gd lking or charming...but he's totally and utterly wrong! (shit, i just choked on the chili from my instant noodles)....

so there goes three hours of retarded training...i'll go back to the floor to take messages...until it's time for lunch...had pizza hut today... (friends, pls...no pizza when we meet up ok? i eat it like at least one a wk!) ok..lemmi explain...simply becuz there are nth else to eat ard my office....

side track abit..i happened to chance upon a file in my lap top...a clip which shaun sent me!! hahah for his project!!! OMG OMG OMG......GOD DAMN FUNNY LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gonna show it to sis this sunday..hahahahah

anyway...at 530pm sharp...had to start doing callbacks...thats when the script comes in....ok...i'm not familiar with the system and product...so i stammer alot....wat to do..it takes time...and this is this bitch...when i asked her to ignore the letter which is auto generated...she says whatever!!! bloody hell...ask her go drink ANYTHING LA! ass...rude biatch...

played badminton after work...YES...badminton...keke...well..my ankle sorta recovered and i just cant resist the temptation la.........and nothing happened...i could run..........and hop ard...keke...but..........after the game...one of my colleagues (his nick is pork is hokkien)..had a relaspe for his usual heart prob..sent him to hospital to get a jab...but i left soon after as he can cope alone...or to be crude...he's used to it la.....anyway..hope he'll be fine.....

now i am in the room at 1042pm...eating instant noodles.....aint tt fattening u may ask...wat to do....no food wat...and had sudden craving for my beloved kimchi noodles..so gotta kill all the lazy worms and cooked....yummilicious! but seriously...craving for gelare waffle instead.....hahahahhaha..sigh...i'm craving for everything la!!!! pig? yes i am! proud to say! tts why my colleague 'pork' calls me 'trotters' in hokkien...hahahah

ok..my hands are feeling soft..esp my right hand.........so...shall stop...sayonara~

sar ter dae

met isabel for klunch..which is combi of ktv with lunch...cheap but food sux...went to get bday present for our trainer at work...yes..walking ard with my pork leg..haha..if it's cooked with vinegar and soybean sauce..it'll be great huh...

went over to sis place...nua on her bed for awhile before heading to bukit panjang plaza for dinner...had KFC's new Miso Crunch..which is just crispy chicken with miso flavour...taste kinda familiar...like the seaweed fries from mac...nevertheless...it's nice but i still prefer original flavour and maybe arnold's chicken...

went to the chinese physician at kallang airport...the whole treatment wasnt painful actually until the part where the phy bandaged my foot....tt was where the pain came..but sis was laughing throughout at my reaction and facial expression....thanks eh! ok..now i have a huge plaster on my ankle...i didnt think abt anything else but sis reminded me i was allergic to plasters....hopefully i wont if not it wont just be a sprained ankle alone..but an ankle with rashes! wat the hell...the plaster is fugly la...i gotta wear jeans to cover it...

proceeded to have desserts at hongkong cafe at katong...nice nice mango cream with pomelo and sago....then brought sis n bro to punggol to visit the so called haunted mansion...lol..nth much la..just a humongous mansion in the middle of a big field which shd be torn down eons ago but it wasnt, to date..i rem the last time i went...two frens saw a doll's head on the stairway and they screamed while running out...haha..funny...but still..it's creepy la...

sigh..supposed to play badminton with colleagues this coming tuesday but i guess.......it's not going to come true....but...it's ok..still gonna play nx sunday with the boys...or perhaps just with sis..cuz it's father's day on 17th..in case u ppl forgot....

sis and the boys are planning on a genting trip in july...i wunder if it will be finalised............i really wunder.......my gut feelings kept telling me..smthing is gonna go wrong.....*shrugz* we shall see then......

can sense some hostility since my post yesterday...yes again...my bad? smirkz..okok..i am paranoid ok?whatever!

yawn..having lunch appt with katty and chris..our dear friend from KL..he's here for project...yes...gotta walk ard limping again....

yawn...yawn..yawn..yes i can really yawn alot....once in every 2seconds...so....................bye!

ps: thanks mr loi for the yoko yoko and ankle guard...keke

CRAP

gd morning to me..and it's really a wake up call...farking sprained my ankle early in the morning on the way to work...why so? just freaking becuz i changed the usual route i always take to the mrt station as i saw a farking caterpillar hanging from a tree which is along the usual route i take! so i decided to change the route as i wouldnt wanna have any frights anymore but gosh....i ended up with a pig's trotter now! freaking painful and swollen! cant walk down stairs for nuts..ARGH..make things worse...still gotta go training after work.....................wat the hell......

nx...i wunder why i even care abt yr results in the first plc! fail fail la! i wont ask anymore! ppl ask sincerely and wat i got from u ppl are lies! i wasnt feeling crappy at all even when i sprained my ankle! but now i AM! but yeah...who cares anyway right!!??? who cares abt my sprained ankle also! all i get are laughters and asking why i so stupid!?!?!?!? fine la.........i break my leg and even die also NO NEED TO CARE ok!? REM TT!

and one more thing..if finding the phobia i have for worms is soooooo hilarious! dun ever ever lemmi find out yr phobias!

you're not alone

matthew matthew...can yr life be tt bad? i mean..all the things tt happened are not hazards to your lifestyle right...like...losing RO? ok..but then again..it depends on how you value it right...are you going to say it's smthing gals wont understand? but well..just hope you wont change yr attitude or get 'possessed' again ok...btw...moving to pasir ris aint tt bad wat...nearer to us!! hahahah

but..wat can be tt bad for you? listen to mine...

1) hp charger spoilt! gotta try using colleague's usb charger at work tmr..if it doesnt work..i'm doomed...

2)classic of the month..having re-training before i officially answer calls and my week is packed with two other trainings on thurs and fri at AIA tower AFTER work and wait! another one coming nx fri too!! like wat the hell...

3) chosen my exam dates..hope it'll be auspicious..if not i gotta retake again..meaning i gotta slog and start mugging yet AGAIN! damn

4)getting stressed up at work cuz one after another came to tell mi to be careful of this person whom i'm kinda close to...it's like..why cant ppl just work under one roof in harmony!?!?!? ARGH...can i really not trust anyone at work...fine i draw a line then! crap..

ok maybe yr descriptions is better cuz they sound worse than mine..but STILL..you are not alone (starts to sing)....

like..wat the hell...

right...failed my exams...both of the papers....nvm..shall have a 2nd attempt...

gosh..i'm feeling so tired..and i dunno why...having enuff slp is just not enuff at all...what more do i need? is it because of the lifestyle? is it becuz of the lack of exercise? or is it just a psychological problem? (like wat's new right?) just typing these few sentences, i'm alrdy feeling slpy...yawning a million and one times per second...feel like going out NOW but then again..the body doesnt really permit me to do it..wat do i want? i dunno...not that i have no plans...there are plans for me...but i just cant convince myself to go for it.............feeling lethargic....but brain being active......everything is going against one another...legs dont listen to the brain and brain just go too fast for the body to catch up...

so...wat the hell..

chanced upon a post in smone's blog...i have no intention to here..to protest nor make any comments which may seem to oppose you or your actions. i've decided as well..to forgive you like how you've forgiven me. thanks for your graciousness anywayz. but the point is here...anyone can feel free to speak to mi abt their problems..i'll be here as a fren..but asking to do smthing abt it is different isnt it? how can i ever help smone to do smthing or improve his/her relationship with someone when i myself have no means to help myself? actually come and think of it...can u even say you've forgiven me when i havent done any wrong to u? is it you who misinterpreted my good intentions?or is it you expect too much? watever it is..it's kinda hard for me to forgive smone who thinks i am a hypocrite when my intentions were clear..i dun hate anyone..but a grudge will take time to go away...forgive me when i say this my friend..but it's really unfair...hope you understand..

gonna have dinner tmr to celebrate the big day for jinrong...advance happy birthday uncle...though i noe he wont see this but just wanna say it here...over a decade old fren..seen him change from an ah beng to an uncle...wat the hell..

many things happened within a short time in the office...well..not to me..but to ppl ard me...it seems they love to tell mi abt the latest happenings...even it's the most confidential...why is tt so? do i have the 'Hey i am not a big mouth' kind of gal? but nevertheless...since they find it comfortable to speak to me then i'm most willing to listen...lending a listening ear isnt a difficult task anyway....

ok... labbit pee-d on the sofa yesterday...wat the hell...lucky mum din scream...lol...but she's a cute lil thing...nono...not little at all...it's an understatement......

k..i'm falling aslp.....and after reading thru this whole post...i find it reall dumb...like how a primary school kid will write...i've aged but grown childish? wat the hell......