bad day

in a whole..it was just a bad day..shant reveal the details but overall...it's really terrible..

happy birthday to mum...though she's nt happy....didnt expect things to turn out this way..kinda broken my heart...sobbing while typing this... (and of cuz..couple more of unfortunate events happened)...

i'm so stressed up...i dunno how to make myself feel better....the moment i am alone...i start to feel this way...but luckily it went away when i was with the boys...but once shaun n andrew got out of the cab...it started all over again...the shitty feeling overwhelmed my heart..i realised i cant be alone...but i have to....wish i have a dog to hug nw...at least it will help to calm mi down....right...soft toys doesnt help....

cant imagine the feeling of waking up in the morning...cuz i cant predict how the day will be like...wish i can slp forever and never be awake to face this cruel and cold world...smtimes i wish i was born as smone's precious pet...eat..slp..play...and having a good owner...dun have to worry abt anything...

it's 3am nw...just finished tokking to andrew n shaun...felt really bad..bad in the sense..hurt...and depressed...lost....if there is a more tragic word to describe the way i'm feeling now...pls gimme suggestions....dun dare to slp..cuz i dun dare to open my eyes in the morning...

tokking on the phone reminded mi of a sad past...maybe it's the cause of everything tt had happened...the cause of the fear in me....i dunno...but it's sucky cuz it's wayyyyyy tooo long ago...i shd have gotten over it....but dreaming of it twice in a wk kinda made things worse......

read this in a bulletin board in friendster...

ARIES:. The Liar Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to #### with. Erotic. Funny.Take you on trips to the moon in bed.Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy.Loves being in long relationships.=)Addictive. Loud. best in bed.

--->Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous Loud <---- quite true..the rest i dunno la...

right..gonna rest...slping or not is another thing.................

PS: blue for the font as it symbalises moody...