just waiting

dunno y...everytime i read smthing from your blog...i will wanna tear...just take it as i'm emotional...shrugz...i dunno y either...

i believe there are no good or bad friends to me...i'm living in an age..when i noe who deserves to be my friend..so bad friends are definitely out...you're definitely the best among the rest...no doubts.....and you noe smthing? i'll be here forever.....waiting for the day...

we'll have gelare waffles with ice cream together..we'll go to chijmes together..we'll watch soccer together...we'll catch a movie together..we'll have a feast together...we'll chat on msn till my mum comes knocking on my door asking mi to slp...we'll play mahjong together overnight and have mac breakfast and you'll fall aslp while standing in the train...we'll go club together and dance like monkeys...we'll take the pics with the famous three standard poses...gosh..so many more......i'll be patient........i'm not going to give up.........

anyway..short recap of wat i did....went for hot yoga yest with sis and her frens...it was definitely satisfying!! perspired like noone's biz..whole top was WET...perspiration dripping...had my medical report...not very good......sigh...gotta stay healthy...cut down on cigs..and hopefully..eventually quit it.....

i wan a dog....need companion at home.....(at least it's the nerest thing to having a husband)....bring it for a walk..with the ear phones in my ears..music blasted....enjoying the time alone.....the peace i need smtimes.... =)

whatever makes u happy

just read smthing which i was rather astonished after tt..

firstly, i'm not the 'to let old friends/ppl leave to have more space for new friends/ppl in' kinda of person. in the first place...i wont even let or wish anyone who has entered, exit.

you may have many reasons why u wanna leave...but take into account on all the memories we had...all the times we spent...all the yeaaaaarrrs we have known each other....until today...is it not enuff for u to noe hw i value friendship?sigh...but i really do miss you....everyone ard mi noes clearly about that and they noe they cant replace you. but so what right dude....so what right...

went to a wedding last night...sigh...as usual...feel like getting married. the very first time i tot of it was at my sis's wedding...looking thru her wedding pics...just make mi go...'awwwww'...maybe i only wan a wedding...but marriage huh...keke..

happy birthday sept babies~

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to meiting and shafie and daddy and mr yeoh and da ge.....
happy birthday to alll of you!

ok..lame.

bye.

11.10pm

getting sick and tired of blogging when there will be so many issues about what i say or what's going on in my life...like i once said b4...a blog..is a medium for smone to rant , vent their frustrations or share their happiness but it does not mean that it's challenging anyone or trying to debate over issues in life...

smtimes i tink..is it really so difficult for ppl to understand me or my intentions? why is it that..i'm often mistaken for smthing i've not done or smthing i've done without any intentions to provoke anyone? i just wanna voice out my inner emotions..smtimes which is rather difficult to do it with smone personally or rather face-to-face. smtimes...it's nt that i dun wish to say it out loud...but it's difficult...and there will always be some unknown reasons which will hold me back..i guess it's just humane to feel this way yar? dun u ppl feel this way too? i totally agree with smone, that there will always be some secrets we will keep until we die..as it will not make any difference if the secrets are exposed...maybe it'll be a better world for me if it remains as it is...coz smtimes...there will be ppl who cannot accept what u wanna say..well..cant blame...everyone has their own point of views..but shouldnt it remain as an advice or suggestion rather than forcing or psychoing me to do things the way u wan it to be coz u think it's rather right?well.. i cant agree that yr advice or suggestion is right..but well..it may not work for me..

everyone's lives are different and things need to be handled in a different perspective...cant always expect ppl to be able to do it yr way...*shrugz* smtimes it just puts me off....and set me thinking yet again....what's a blog for..?

p/s: 'you' is a fictitious character

one of these days

one of these days, i'll try parachuting
one of these days, i'll try bungee jumping
one of these days, i'll go diving beneathe the deep ocean
one of these days, i'll have a garden of roses
one of these days, i'll ride on a white horse
one of these days, i'll visit the moon
one of these days, i'll rear a mini pig
one of these days, i'll swim naked in the pacific ocean
one of these days, i'll hire a male social escort
one of these days, i'll drive a Ferrari across London Bridge
one of these days, i'll be in a movie with Brad Pitt
one of these days, i'll sing a song with jay
one of these days, i'll hold yr hand and walk down the aisle

i'll just be praying i'll have one more day to live..

crap

blahblah

ok...went for check up..free by AIG..conducted in office...dunno why...arm had bruise after drawing blood..guess i din assert enuff pressure....pic taken on fri..nw the bruise is much worse...gross...

ok...this is the bouquet jim got for mi.....nice huh?keke

small wish.....

jay zhou's new album is out!! hahaha...i wan.......................................................will my fairy god mother place it beside my bed tonight? haahha

when will it be gone?

went for yoga on fri...it was good..soothe my mind...calm my emotions..it was a gd one hr session..when everything seemed to be gone..however, reality came crashing in after that...

saturday,rcvd smthing from jim...thanks..you're so nice.... =) but was kinda embarassed when everyone started asking mi who the flowers were from..haha..anyway...2yrs liao...everything is still the same isnt it? really glad i have u in my life....thanks for everything...you're always there to listen to my nagging,complains and never ending nonsense......

chalet..was supposed to be gd..but it wasnt. went totally wrong..wish i could turn back time..embarassed myself...totally..was out of control..went hysterical..sat in toilet for god noes how long...was dehydrated...for the first time...it went this bad....for the first time...i couldnt stop..for the first time...it happend in front of everyone...but glad it is well now....marl,eddie....love you two.........really really gonna cherish the both of u.....................love love.

time is up....what is it going to be..seriously...i still dunno......

and sorry ash for nt being able to reply to yr smses...hp low batt..and apparently....some unfortunate events happened....私は残念である

yawnzZzzz

coreen is back!!!

kinda like this pic...

lol...gosh....lol

cant understand

i remembered the times when i was scolded for selective reading...now i dun understand why others can do it and why cant i? perhaps for this case, i cant call it selective reading la...but they are only concerned about my love life..i cant see concern when i was complaining hw bad my backache was...or how stress i am abt my family or work...all i get after posting certain issues are rantings!! hey dudes...enuff la ok......u are not sick of it..i am sick of it.......get it....why i blog is not for you come ranting after reading it...i have enuff of issues happening to me and all i fucking get is your shit?

be sensible...know when to rant to the right ppl and when not to....and u can fucking read from my blog that i am definitely not in the best of mood...so..i am definitely not the right person for you to choose ranting and flaring to...my life is difficult enuff and i really dun need anyone anymore to add on to it...thanks but no thanks!

ps: does not replying on msn while in busy/away status means i am rude? can anyone enlighten me? *smirks*

hey gurls..agree?

For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free.

Here's an update for you: Nowadays, 80% of women are against marriage,
WHY?
Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage.
1. Men are like ... Laxatives ...... They irritate the crap out of you.
2. Men are like.....Bananas ....... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ......Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like .......Blenders .... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like .....Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like ....Commercials ....... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like ...... Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like ..... Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like ......Popcorn ..... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11 Men are like... Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like ....... Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like Parking Spots ......... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

nerve breaking

marlia baby...thanks for being there..always...love ya darling... noe u wanna kill soon..but dun ok...before u have the chance i'd probably be dead..would have killed myself...

anyway..i realli duno whats going on anymore...kinda confused...very instead...it's like....it comes one after another...without giving me a break..it's more than a 3hit combo...i'm left with this teeny weeny bit of patience..that cannot withstand continuous attacks..gonna burst..in fact i did...but shall try again..dun disappoint me....thanks.

like what marlia always say... GO! GO! GO!

love.ciumz.

in pain

gosh..my back still hurts..it's really irritating me...no amount of medicated oil or pain killers help...gonna wait for one more day..and i'll be off to the doctor...dun wanna risk my life like tt...esp after hearing the word paralyse......goshgoshgosh...

watching america's nx top model..i wunder...do u have just have to be skinny to be a model??but gotta agree that most of them are photogenic....nah..not a topic i wanna engage in anywayz..

right....i dunno why but i cant be bothered to tok much nw..just afraid whatever i say will offend anyone...be it the tone of my voice or words i use...shrugz...more pics...

singing madness

managed to meet up with the gals on sat, miss them so..it's been long..really cant rem the last time i met katty..went to cineleisure Kbox for a near 5hrs of singing..madness....anyway..more to come yeah?

katty..my 'lover'

ailin...drinking my yuen yang *coffee mixed with tea*

thick toast with condensed milk and peanut butter

breaking..

nth much to say..just feeling tired...went for the auditon but of coz...was too scared to sing properly..and..out! hahaha..but it was definitely an experience..the queue, the waiting and looking at so many 'ghosts' taking part...7th mth is not over i m sure...the gals were dressed to kill..literally kill..ppl will die of heart attack...keke

gosh...sprained my back...or rather..the area below my neck...making mi grouchy and moody...i cant turn my freaking head at all...rather pissing mi off....sigh...went driving...the normally talkative me...kept quiet throughout the lesson..and i think the instructor fell aslp serveral times..man..he realli trust me...walked in the rain for about 10mins before i can find a cab...have a strong feeling i am goin to fall sick...yet again....

gonna crash nw....for awhile......

goonz

3 hit combo

felt like i was playing the street fighter game...3hit combo in a day...first..mum informed tt my grand-aunt passed away..second..quarrelled with the guys...third...need to send dad to hospital..never mind...smone can still think i am using my dad as an excuse when i dun wanna get engaged in a conversation where he/she wanna find out smthing from mi...farked up...

anyway...the second had been solved...thank god...dad..better i think...shrugz...first..cant change the fact she passed away...rest in peace....

i noe u've apologised for yr actions..but sorry..i still cant accept the fact u think i used my dad as excuse..thanks but pls...i m nt heartless....

batam batam

getting ready for go-kart..the helmets stink..

the men...

messy messy

we both look short in the pic eh...